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Topic: Sorry I have been gone for awhile, but if you like drama, read!
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seeleah
Knowflake Posts: 212
From: kokomo, IN, USA
Registered: Dec 2009
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posted August 23, 2010 05:23 PM
 
Okay, I have been gone for awhile because I have been taking care of a wounded heart. In this past year, I left my husband of 9 years after I realized that he wasn't going to help me work on our marriage. I immediately started to develope feelings for an old high school friend, that I didn't really know well. It was fast, and it was hard. I felt all sorts of feelings I forgot I was able to feel when I was in that relationship with him. Anways, we decided, even though we were two states away, to try to start a relationship and if things worked out, one of us would relocate. Once we started meeting in person, things were interesting. He became less affectionate with me unless it was in the bedroom...and any problems we had in our relationship, well it was because I was recovering from a divorce!
I tried really hard to make this situation work, I thought I really loved him. But things just didn't make sense and somethings really bothered me. For instance, for the first two months we were together, he wanted to smoke pot while I was there. I am not judgemental against it persay, but I could lose my license (teaching license) not to mention custody of my children. He said it wasn't a big deal for him and he would quit. So, I didn't hear anything or see anything about it for a long time. We saw each other every other week, and with me having my summers off, I got to see hiim quite a bit considering the distance.
Anyways, when I was visiting, I would come across somethings on accident that kind of worried me, like dirty erotic poetry that sounded very much like his writing style. One time I asked him about it, and he said it wasn't his very quickly and seemed a bit nervous about it..I told him if it was it was fine, it was written before we got together so it doesn't really matter...but he swore it was his ex drunk roomate (which is funny because he drank far more than I even knew...) I rarely drink at all, two drinks and I am done for the entire evening..he was always making comments about that, how much of a "light weight" I was..sorry I don't drink alot dang.
Anyways, as time wore on, he wanted me to get full custody f my children and move down to be with him. NOw I can say whatever I wish about my ex, but I will NEVER say he was or is a bad father, our problems were between us, not his parenting. Ithought this was rather insensitive to me and my children's needs...and I had a higher paying job where I was anyways!
As time went on, things got fisher and fisher...for instance, we celebrated our birthday's together (since it is one day apart) with old high school friends and well he ended up all over a mutual friend of ours the entire night while I was right there and completely ignored me. sitting on her lap, head in her lap, acting like he was going to bite her leg..etc. This has been an issue for us...granted he was drunk but dear god it was embarassing. He had the nerve to ask me if I was ****** at her afterwards! I was like, um, no...you were the one that was being embarrassing, why would I be mad at her? seriously.
then after that, I became the "jealous" girlfriend...and it was an issue I had to work with blah blah blah...another issue to add onto because I was still "recovering" from my divorce...anyways, some other things happened around that time, that are way too embarrassing for me to discuss here but again, added to the sucspions..and then he gave me his passwords for some reason...
Eventually, when things just got to be too much, I caved in and checked his email. He was a member of several hook up "casual" encounter sites for local pple in his area...and it was just too detailed with his information and the way he wrote, and one had his picture on it.
I immediately ended the relationship that night. He was cheating on me. The funny thing is...he swears he was framed! I find this hard to believe, why wuld someone use his email account to sign up for that crap, it's easy to set up a false information one..and it is pretty private anyways, it's not like yu ever use your real name!
Anyways, what I am writing about this here for is what is going on astrologically that (if anything) backs any of this up? I don't understand why someone would do this to me, what the point was...you know? It just seem like an awlful lot of work..to just use someone, why not someone closer? Anyways, I could use any insight. I am posting our synastry charts. I know I am not going to get any answer from him, according to him..I am really unhealthy and need to work on my crap and he isn't going to appologize for something he never did..and he doesn't cheat or lie, he doesn't work that way...any insights would be great...thanks. I will post our synastry and our composite. Thanks ahead of time...IP: Logged |
seeleah
Knowflake Posts: 212
From: kokomo, IN, USA
Registered: Dec 2009
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posted August 23, 2010 05:35 PM
our composite
 our synastry
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amowls*
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From: richmond va
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted August 23, 2010 08:44 PM
Can you post your chart with transits? Sometimes transits bring people into our lives to teach us things in order for our souls to progress.IP: Logged |
comica23
Knowflake Posts: 1116
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Registered: Apr 2009
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posted August 24, 2010 09:51 AM
Hmm in this composite, Pluto is square to the Mars/Venus mp. Pluto in the negative way can show selfishness, deeper unconscious issues behind the scene, and that sex can be the main interest (and it can leave no room for emotional bonding).
Also, Saturn is square to Moon, and Uranus as well. Saturn square to Moon can show a basic incompatibility between the couple, plus emotional coldness (Saturn is also square Moon/Chiron mp), and Saturn square Uranus can show too much unstable factors making the relationship hard to be a committed one.IP: Logged |
seeleah
Knowflake Posts: 212
From: kokomo, IN, USA
Registered: Dec 2009
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posted August 24, 2010 03:51 PM
yeah...that was my biggest complaint, emotional coldness and for a cancerian moon person that ai am...it was too much. but infidelity? what is up with that?IP: Logged |
Nine
Knowflake Posts: 543
From: The Cusp of Love
Registered: May 2009
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posted August 24, 2010 04:15 PM
That he is born on the 16th gave me immediate reason for pause.Ruled by Neptune, these people are so gentle and charming it's impossible to resist them. But Neptune is also the lord of secrets and lies. True, people are different, and in astrology it's all about matchups. That said, in dating 'Born on the 16th' is a red flag for me. IP: Logged |
seeleah
Knowflake Posts: 212
From: kokomo, IN, USA
Registered: Dec 2009
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posted August 24, 2010 04:43 PM
I didn't know that about the 16th being ruled by neptune..he has a ton of neptune feel towards me...the whole situation between us felt vailed. Honestly, I am good with details and all. When I would bring somethingup from the past, details, he would confused me about them..no, it didn't happen that way...or it wasn't quite like that...and then I would follow with...oh..well maybe you are right.
either way...I am glad it is over, just can't see why on earth he stuck around me for so long if he was just a cheater in teh first place..trying to figure out what his motive was...IP: Logged |
comica23
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posted August 24, 2010 06:51 PM
Hmm composite Venus is trine Uranus, so the attraction is mildly electrical and exciting. Plus the Mars/Venus mp is square to Pluto can show a strong and intense physical attraction. But then again, this might be purely physical and selfish, and not leaving any room for emotional bonding. So with the Saturn/Moon square, this relationship might only be about the physical.
I'm not skilled enough to read the other patterns to get a clearer overall picture of this composite, but maybe his motives were purely physical? Did you sense any other possible motives?Also, Saturn might be forming a sextile and a trine to Pluto and Neptune, but it is also squaring their mp. In the positive side, this could show that he can be sensitive and deep (sextile/trine), but I guess that in this case, it rather shows the negative side of this pattern (square), that he can have problems with some dependency (alcohol/drugs) or has other hidden issues. IP: Logged |
seeleah
Knowflake Posts: 212
From: kokomo, IN, USA
Registered: Dec 2009
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posted August 24, 2010 11:12 PM
well it could of been purely physical, but if that was the case there was alot of time, effort and money put into this "booty" call if you know what I mean. It was a long distance relationship, he certainly could have had a much much much easier booty call locally than with me. I am wondering if it was more manipulation and control to be honest with you, a power trip for him. but I am not sure...it hurt thinking that he probably never loved me. but I loved him...yes, he wasn't very emotionally deep, he even once mentioned that my feelings are way deeper than his...IP: Logged |
seeleah
Knowflake Posts: 212
From: kokomo, IN, USA
Registered: Dec 2009
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posted August 24, 2010 11:12 PM
well it could of been purely physical, but if that was the case there was alot of time, effort and money put into this "booty" call if you know what I mean. It was a long distance relationship, he certainly could have had a much much much easier booty call locally than with me. I am wondering if it was more manipulation and control to be honest with you, a power trip for him. but I am not sure...it hurt thinking that he probably never loved me. but I loved him...yes, he wasn't very emotionally deep, he even once mentioned that my feelings are way deeper than his...IP: Logged |
racole12
Knowflake Posts: 479
From: the world is my home!
Registered: Feb 2010
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posted August 25, 2010 12:14 AM
sending you hugs Seeleah *hugs* IP: Logged |
teasel
Knowflake Posts: 1582
From: Ohio
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted August 25, 2010 01:18 AM
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seeleah
Knowflake Posts: 212
From: kokomo, IN, USA
Registered: Dec 2009
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posted August 25, 2010 06:24 PM
thank you btw, those do help  everyday is getting better...just knowing I don't want that in my life helps me move forward IP: Logged |
comica23
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posted August 25, 2010 07:13 PM
You're a strong Cancer. X3Just took a fast look in this synastry, his Saturn is conjunct your AC and his Nessus is close to your Moon, while your Venus/BML is conjunct his Eros, square his Mars, oppose his Neptune and trine his Pluto. These aspects seems to show a strong physical attraction towards you, but with the other aspects, he can be cold and critical, and even abusive (Nessus) to your feelings. He can also hurt your inner insecurities (BML). IP: Logged |
MysticMelody
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posted August 25, 2010 07:32 PM
I notice right away that his Perverted Loser asteroid is trine his Weak Pathetic Piece of Crap asteroid. This means they are working together and enhancing each other's energy. There's also an exact orb conjunction with his Lying Opportunistic Scumbag asteroid. But that's just my astrological opinion. I'm not a complete expert at this, though I have experienced this configuration before. IP: Logged |
teasel
Knowflake Posts: 1582
From: Ohio
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted August 25, 2010 08:15 PM
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seeleah
Knowflake Posts: 212
From: kokomo, IN, USA
Registered: Dec 2009
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posted August 25, 2010 08:28 PM
Mystic melody...LOL! that is awesome..are there really astroids like that??????? jk.IP: Logged |
racole12
Knowflake Posts: 479
From: the world is my home!
Registered: Feb 2010
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posted August 25, 2010 09:25 PM
MM~
OMG. ROFL. Ughh... I didn't know we had those type of asteroids to tinker with! lol.
Thanks for the laugh!
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MysticMelody
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posted August 25, 2010 09:38 PM
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