posted August 29, 2010 04:40 PM         

I will have this transit soon, want to know more about it.

posted August 29, 2010 05:44 PM         

This transit occurred to me in July of 2008. I went into my email account to see what emails I was sending around that time because I can't remember and it turns out that during that time I was filled with a lot of hope and promise while experiencing many, many challenges that opposed my plans.

I was meeting a lot of record executives who loved my music. I went into the meeting and we were ready to sign. While I was thinking about signing the contract, I was introduced to the staff of Gallo (Warner Company) as the newest artist to come on board. I was excited and felt that all my hard work had paid off.

(this was in the primary stages of a major economic melt-down)

Then, as soon as I felt that I was ready to sign, I was notified that the Head of A&R who was in charge of my deal had quit. He had quit without leaving someone to take care of my case because basically I had not yet signed so I was not one of their artists yet. So, my second record deal offer came to nothing.

I was working hard, business wise.

As far as love is concerned, I was pretty much single and had no interest in anyone. There was a bit more strain then usual between my ex and I. Overall though, it was an upbeat time, not dark at all. It was just one of those times when things were out of my hands.

I hope my story helps in giving you the flavor of this period.

Unmoved

posted August 29, 2010 06:27 PM         

I can remember good things about the square, but also bad things - my own mistakes, my own fears (that I wish I hadn't fully paid attention to). For a while, I felt more sociable and took more chances at getting to know people (slowly). I felt both apprehension and optimism (but there were depressive episodes - I don't know how much of that was due to my natal makeup and my own fears that are always there, though). I was also getting to know someone better, who I have now fallen out with - he was eager to get to know me, it seemed, which was nice - scary at the time, but nice.

One negative: my dog, Rita, developed her first eye problem, and ended up having it removed the following August. This happened in September 2007. I accidentally killed almost a whole tank of fish at the beginning of that same month, which left me feeling low. I was wanting to get out and volunteer, but couldn't get anywhere by myself, and I was afraid that the hotlines along the lines of rape or suicide hotlines would push *me* over the edge. Money was lower than ever, as well. I got sick easier - as I did when I was a kid.

Positives: Two visits from two different sets of family members. That's in addition to getting to know new people, and taking more chances. (I knew I had to take more emotional chances, and just be braver in general.) I wanted to be around more people, and to be helping others (more than ever - I was trying to figure out how to get to soup kitchens for certain times, for example). But this is the square from my 10th house, not the opposition from my 2nd.

posted August 29, 2010 06:39 PM         

Serious life-long problems with father.

posted August 30, 2010 04:11 PM         

During the same time, I was pursuing a career path that didn't make me happy. There was no joy in it for me, but the work was in line with my ethics.

In both cases, I was sacrificing my Venus and all the pleasure & happiness it brings. I resigned myself to believing that what's real and my happiness couldn't converge.