posted September 30, 2010 11:52 AM            

Neptune conjunct Mars
trine Uranus/ascendant
square Moon, Venus and Nodes

All in the first few degrees of their signs. My vertex will be visited as it squares 6*Gemini, and my Saturn will be trined as it closes in on it at 12*Cancer, but that's further off. The first Lilith asteroid is at 4*Pisces, the 2nd at 7*Pisces, and the third at 20*Pisces... and Pallas is in there somewhere, along with Vesta conjunct my Mars.

posted September 30, 2010 03:10 PM            

OK, positive Neptune Mars is fighting for the underdogs of society, and developing a sort of sexual allure, identifying with the hero, idealizing the hero.

posted October 01, 2010 02:06 PM            

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From Chapter Three of The Tao of Equus

I don't remember when it finally occurred to me that I was being haunted. The feeling had been sneaking up for weeks. The air was charged, full of anticipation, as if something were hovering just outside my view, waiting for me to acknowledge its existence. By October of 1996 - two years after my otherworldly experiences with Rasa - the sensation had become such a distraction that I began to search the literature for some kind of precedent.

My own encounters with the prophetic dreams suggested some as-yet unmapped properties of the mind might be at work, but I was still convinced that people who had authentic interactions with supernatural beings were the minority among a multitude of shysters and wishful thinkers who were simply giving names to their own psychological processes and calling them spirits. Was this ghost following me around some aspect of my psyche screaming to be heard, creating a larger-than-life disturbance to get my attention? Whether I was dealing with an internal or external force, I was reluctant to give way to its influence for fear of being possessed. The pressure was increasing daily, and I could easily imagine it taking over, devouring my identity if I opened the door and let it in.

The fear of losing control stemmed from a similarly disturbing shift in consciousness that occurred during my tempestuous first marriage. Shortly after that explosive protest to my spouse's insults, I was drawn into an affair out of grief, confusion and spite. My mind and morals suggested this was further proof of the gross character flaws I possessed, yet much to my own surprise, I found myself expanding rather than contracting under the weight of self-examination, and I was momentarily released from the spell of my husband's aggressive criticism. This was not a feeling of romantic love for a new man. The sensation stemmed from the sudden rush of empowerment I felt upon reclaiming my sexuality from the dominance games of my marriage. The person with whom I engaged in the affair had no claim of ownership over me. In that context, I was truly an equal. Perhaps more important, the act of stepping outside well-worn behaviour patterns and value systems had cracked open the veneer of ordinary perception. I felt blessed and protected; colours became intensely vivid; the features of everyday life seemed extraordinary. I wandered around for three days in a steadily increasing state of ecstasy, imagining I was filled with a lavender light that smelled like roses. My soul was in full bloom.

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posted October 01, 2010 02:17 PM            

It could be a difficult period for me, especially when Neptune squares my Saturn-Neptune opposition,oppose my Saturn/Neptune midpoint. Even Neptune square my Neptune-Varuna opposition,oppose my Neptune/Varuna midpoint could even be even more difficult. They form t-squares with my Moon which squares those oppositions,oppose those midpoints.

Raymond

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No..I am not a Virgo.

posted October 01, 2010 02:20 PM            

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Other people noticed it too. Complete strangers came up to me in stores and insisted on buying me gifts. Even my voice had a startling effect. I was working as a classical music radio announcer, and on the day the lavender rose reached the peak of its blooming, the studio phone rang off the hook during my shift. I took one call after another from fans I had never spoken to before who proceeded to tell me the most intimate details of their lives and ask me for advice. As if in a trance, I heard myself counseling them with a level of eloquence and insight I never could have fathomed in an ordinary state of mind. The experience was so exquisite and unsettling that I tried to capture its effect in a few lines from my journal that still convey the intensity of the experience for me.

It is ecstasy to fly again, surrounded by the warm lavender light of my first blooming. Strangers give me gifts in exchange for alien words and silent nourishment, for a strange luminosity that feels like the caress of a flower or the kiss of a pearl. I know this new landscape is too fragile to sustain a numinous garden.

Too soon it fades and shrivels, leaving fragrant memories. I gather the dried petals into a sacred place and wait for a future rejuvenation fertilized by all this sin and pain and refuse. Now that I've embraced the sky and set my house on fire, your swords will never pierce so deep again. I have tasted the rose. She may be sleeping in her bottomless grave but I can hear her dreaming, whispering my name in the night.

The glimpse of another reality continued to sustain me during the trying times ahead. It took me several years of struggle to finally break away from my first marriage, but the rose that bloomed inside gave me a profound sense of comfort. It also frightened me, shortly before the feeling subsided. I was tortured by a number of psychic dreams I refused to fully acknowledge. I saw the house I was to buy several years later when I moved to Arizona with my new husband. Of course, I had no idea this was anything more than wishful dreaming at the time. I hadn't even met Steve. I was simply impressed by the vividness of the image and the intense yearning I felt for a home I longed to return to, even though I had never seen it before.

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It goes on in that way - I keep wanting to quote whole sections from the book, at different times, to different people.

posted October 01, 2010 02:23 PM            

I was hoping that my Neptune transits and Saturn/Pluto transits would balance each other out. This big transit worries me more than Uranus did, when it hit the same planets and aspects; for the most part, that was a great time for me, so I'm hoping for the same with Neptune. At the very least, I hope to sink back into art, the way I used to - that was how I grew up, and whilst I've stretched in other directions, I feel like a part of me has been missing.

I'll be back later.. I shouldn't still be sitting here, but I wanted to type that excerpt up whilst I could.

posted November 03, 2010 07:18 PM            

Neptune can live in the world of fairy tales. I have had a hard life in some senses, emotionally, but I still have hope for beautiful things such as love, honor, respect, sweetness and kindness.

I have two strong Neptune trines--Neptune trine Sun and Neptune trine Mercury.
Neptune is in the 12th house.

Neptune helps you retain childlike faith and hope.
It allows you to go in to the next dimension with psychic things and creative things.

Neptune is beautiful and rosy.

Pluto is it's opposite ,in the sense , that it is Mr Reality.

Neptune would light the candles at the candlelight dinner and Pluto could clean up the dishes

posted March 11, 2011 02:00 AM            

I almost called you earlier, just to see how you were doing. I also almost opened up Facebook last night, but I don't need any more distractions - I'm finally experiencing a bit of calm, and am trying to ground myself/focus more on things offline, but I miss a lot of people.

posted March 11, 2011 01:39 PM            

I had Neptune transiting my 1st house for a really big chunk of my life and I don't think it was so bad, other than that I wasn't entirely aware of how I came off to others. Then again, what kid isn't? I've always had an overactive imagination, so we'll pretty much scratch that. And anyways, I was pretty much BORN with neptune opposing my cancer planets. Though I was too young to remember what happened when he was actually opposing my Sun. I think we moved from Canada to the States and things were different. =__=

posted March 12, 2011 11:22 PM            

Sorry to hear about you back hunny. I know how awful if can feel. I was thinking about calling you last week or maybe setting something up to come up to visit...

But about getting things done with my back... maybe it's b/c I have 3 prog planets in Cappy? Sun, Mars and Merc (chart ruler) I dunno...