posted October 05, 2010 01:35 PM
ORBM,I found your interpretation very interesting.
The things you said were all pretty positive, but then you said this makes you sad. What exactly makes you sad about the composite?
"That Angel/Valentine/Lust trines Isis and Ceres...there is feeling of Soulmates between you two..and should you push it further the sex life would be very fulfiling and otherworldly"
WEll, there could be worse things.
Anyway, the funny thing is that when I first saw him I was telling myself determinedly that finally this is someonw who is NOT a soulmate. I told me that even though I had dreamed of him a few days prior to me seeing him, and him seeing me (though we did not talk). It was on an open air concert; he was one of the singers, and was suddenly climbing all the stairs to where I was standing and threatening to shove a micro into my face. lol
§the unconditional love is real and provides a strong foundation of true love for the relationship to be built on."
I think that is what the underlying question for me is, the reason Iput it here: is this real?
He seems to be very aware of me, whenever I am somehow around, but maybe I am just delusional about that?
But it surprises me, he "sees" me somehow. And that under circumstances where I should see HIM, not the other way round.
"The Vertex conjunct Saturn trines the Sun and Mercury showing that while the relationship feels very fated and karmic."
Actually I do not have any past life memories involving him and me, which is such a weird feeling. My past life memories are often helpful to "categorize" impacts people have on me, to understand the purpose and why (or to think I understand lol), but the onlyy sort of past life memory are these dreams I have had before meeting him.
"The Moon is conjunct Venus in the 12th house forming squares to that Cupid/Amor/NN stellum...now to me this feels like the feelings are not expressed though tender they areckept secret and this makes the love that underlies it all very fustrating...a powerful intense love, but ever fully experienced."
Yeah, well, I guess it is at least partly my fault. Not that he would be romantically interested in me. But I know I do have a tendency to withdraw, trying to become "invisible", so I can observe and categorize and analyze from the dark background.
He really poses a challenge in doing so, though.
"This composite makes me sad...has the relationship ever been pursued"
No.
But that time we spoke to each other, that encounter was unlike anything I have ever experienced.
Maybe just for me, but I really could not ignore the way my chakras, especially my crown chakra, was buzzing all night.
Well, I have experienced buzzing crown chakra more than once before, it does that now and then, but not like this. Never before, never afterwards.
I was almost thinking I might get a stroke.
And I was hearing his voice in my head all night long, but not just thinking of his voice, I was hearing it like he was indeed speaking inside my head. I couldn`T make out words, it was just like he was talking to his friends or something like that, and I kinda "overheard" that, but from a bit away.
It was really really strange.
And so overwhelming, that I fled into some paranoia and decided to never appear somewhere where he might be performing again.
Butt his year I somehow crossed his path again - or he mine?
Anyway, I was pretty sure he would not recognize me, as I had been "disappeared" for 2 years and I am pretty sure that the meeting did not leave the same impression on him as it did on me.
I am not sure he RECOGNIZED me, but he apparently thought he knows me, given his facial expression when he greeted me. I was trying to avoid him, and of course was running into him. lol
This made me think that whatever karmic purpose he has in my life, may not be completely finished.
I was sure it was finished when I spoke to him 2 years ago, but maybe I haven`t "learned" everything I am supposed to?
Some thing struck me odd about the composite.
Composite Sun is conjunct his Sun/Moon-mp on 27 Sag and and my Sun is on 26 Sag, too
Composite Moon is conjunct my Sun/Moon-mp on 21 Capricorn and Antivertex on 21 Cap and widely conjunct his Venus on 25 Cap.
At the time we really met, Transit Jupiter was exactly conjunct composite MOon and my Sun-Moon-mp, AND Transit Juno was conjunct composite Sun and his Sun-Moon-mp exactly