posted October 20, 2010 12:51 AM         

I'm usually extremely cautious about online relationships because it's impossible to gauge how you'll interact physically, but we've both fallen for each other... hard. He came into my life at a really critical time when I desperately needed an ally and support, and I for him. We both feel like this was pre-arranged somehow. Tons of strange coincidences (for example, he was really needing cash and I tried to 'manifest' money for him -- he got a check in the mail for $1400 the next day. Or he'll send me song lyrics, and as soon as I read the email the same song comes on the radio station I'm listening too... etc.).

I keep meeting people closer to my own age, who are more 'successful' than him career-wise or financially, who are better looking by conventional standards... but none of them interest me... he's the one who feels like Home.

The exact north node/Chiron conjunction describes our relationship quite well, I think... lots of healing and soothing each other's wounds.

The problem is, he fits very little of my typical criteria for a mate, he's 15 years older (I'm 23), and there would be many hurdles for us to jump in order to be together -- including the 800 miles that separates us (although I do have plans to visit in a few months). But the heart wants what it wants, and right now mine wants him.

I've scoured our synastry, composite, and draco charts, but I'm blind to it all -- I can't see things objectively when I'm one of the people involved in the relationship. I've lurked here for ages so I'm throwing out a plea for anyone to offer insight.

I feel so tender towards him, so protective and adoring... it feels good.

I'm posting the charts as well as a list of aspects. Any input would be incredibly appreciated. Thank you.

Tightest aspects:

My sun conjunct his sun/moon midpoint
Moon conjunct moon (4)
My sun sextile his Mercury (exact)
My sun conjunct his Mars (3)
My sun square his ascendant (2)
My sun quintile his moon (1)
His sun sextile my Neptune (1)
His sun trine my Pluto (exact)
His sun quintile my Uranus (1)
My moon sextile his Saturn (2)
My moon trine his Neptune (2)
My moon sextile his Pluto (1)
His moon conjunct my midheaven (1)
My Mercury sextile his Mercury (2)
My Mercury conjunct his Mars (1)
My Mercury square his ascendant (exact)
My Venus conjunct his Venus (3)
My Venus opposition his Uranus (2)
My Venus trine his ascendant (3)
His Venus sextile my Mars (1)
His Venus conjunct my Jupiter (3)
His Venus trine my Saturn (2)
His Venus conjunct my descendant (4)
My Mars trine his Uranus (1)
His Mars trine my Neptune (2)
His Mars opposition my Pluto (1)
My Jupiter opposition his Uranus (2)
My Jupiter trine his ascendant (3)
His Jupiter conjunct my Neptune (4)
My Saturn sextile his Uranus (2)
My Uranus trine his Midheaven (3)
My ascendant quintile his ascendant (exact)

NODES

His south node conjunct my moon (2)
His north node trine my Karma (1)
My north node conjunct his Chiron (exact)
My north node trine his ascendant (exact)
My north node trine his Ceres (exact)
My north node trine his Destinn (exact)

ASTEROIDS, ETC.

Valentine conjunct Valentine (exact)
My Valentine conjunct his Venus (2)
My Valentine opposition his Juno (1)
My Valentine square his Eros (exact)
His Valentine conjunct my descendant (2)
My Eros trine his Juno (1)
My Union trine his Amor (2)
His Karma square my moon (exact)
My Karma square his sun (exact)
My Karma opposition his Neptune (1)
My Karma trine his north node (1)
His Karma trine my Fortuna (exact)
My Destinn conjunct his Mars (exact)
My Osiris conjunct his Venus (exact)
My Osiris opposition his Venus (exact)
My Fortuna opposition his Jupiter (exact)
My vertex conjunct his Saturn (2)
His Vertex Conjunct my Uranus (1)
My BML square his Venus, Uranus, and Juno (all exact)
His Juno opposition my Venus (3), opposition my Jupiter (3), trine my Mars (exact), trine my Chiron (exact)
His Chiron conjunct my Venus (3)
My Chiron sextile his Venus (exact)
His Chiron conjunct my Jupiter(3)
My Chiron trine his Uranus (1)

NAME ASTEROIDS

posted October 20, 2010 12:53 AM         

Following double whammies, 4 degrees or less:
His Amor conjunct my name asteroid (my chart), my Amor conjunct my name asteroid (his chart)
My Aphrodite conjunct his vertex, his Aphrodite conjunct my vertex
My Juno trine his Valentine, his Juno trine my Valentine
My Union trine his Venus, his Union conjunct my Venus
My Venus square his Mars, his Venus conjunct my Mars
My Psyche trine his BML, his Psyche trine my BML
My Amor opposition his Psyche, his Amor trine my Psyche
His Karma sextile my Pluto, my Karma opposition his Pluto

DRACONIC TO DRACONIC
Sun conjunct sun (1)
Moon sextile moon (1)
My sun sextile his Mars (1)
My sun square his Neptune (2)
His sun conjunct my Mercury (1)
My moon conjunct his Saturn (3)
My Mercury sextile his Jupiter (1)
My Mercury square his Neptune (exact)
My Venus square his Mars (1)
His Venus conjunct my Mars (4)
My Venus conjunct his descendant (2)
His Venus opposition my Saturn (3)
His Venus opposition my Uranus (2)
His Venus trine my ascendant (1)
My Mars trine his ascendant (2)
His Mars square my Jupiter (exact)
My Jupiter conjunct his descendant (1)
His Jupiter trine my Pluto (exact)
His Jupiter sextile my Neptune (1)

ASTEROIDS
His Union conjunct my Venus and Jupiter (exact)
My Union trine his Venus (4), conjunct his Vertex (4), square his Aphrodite (exact), trine his Valentine (2), trine his name asteroid in his chart (1)
His Karma conjunct my Neptune (exact), sextile my Pluto (exact), conjunct my Part of Fortune (2), trine his name asteroid in my chart (3), conjunct my name asteroid in my chart (3), trine my Mercury (2)
My Karma opposition his Pluto (exact), sextile his Pallas (exact), trine his moon (3), square his Jupiter (2), sextile his Saturn (exact), trine his Neptune (4)
His Psyche trine my BML (1), my Psyche trine his BML (2)
My Amor conjunct his sun (3), sextile his Mars (exact), conjunct my name asteroid in his chart (4), opposition his Psyche (1)
His Amor trine my Psyche (3), trine my Mercury (3), conjunct my Neptune (exact), sextile my Pluto (1), conjunct my Part of Fortune (4), conjunct my Ceres (1), conjunct my name asteroid in my chart (3)
My Juno trine his Venus (2), sextile his Juno (1), square his Vesta (3), trine his name asteroid (exact), trine his Valentine (exact)
His Juno conjunct my Saturn (4), conjunct my Uranus (1), trine my Valentine (4), sextile his ascendant (1)
My Valentine conjunct his descendant (3)
My Aphrodite conjunct his vertex (2), his Aphrodite conjunct my vertex (exact)
My Part of Fortune trine his sun (exact)
His name asteroid in my chart trine his sun (exact), opposition my Jupiter (3)
His name asteroid in his chart conjunct my ascendant (3), trine my Union (2)
My name asteroid in my chart square his moon (exact), conjunct his BML (1)
My Chiron conjunct his Chiron (1), conjunct his Eros (exact), trine his Ceres (1), trine his Ascendant (1)
His Chiron sextile my Venus (2), conjunct my Mars (2), sextile my Jupiter (2), opposition my Saturn (2)