posted November 19, 2010 05:13 PM         

Now I can give myself a hair makeover! I wanna get kind of a short hair cut but not too short. (My hair is useally past my shoulders)They say its good to give yourself some kind of make-over after a break up.
I have been meaning to do that. But I was so on and off with my ex from April-October. And I just know I am done for real this time.
From August-October I tried to just be friends with him(since I still cared about him)...& that didn't work out to good.
I was not kidding with him when I told him I wont talk to him if he tries to make me feel bad about myself...And he blew it.

I don't need him he doesn't make me happy, he just brings me down. Near the end of October I blocked his number, and his myspace and deleted lots of his friends and family off my myspace.

I've been moving on good. And I am at so much more peace with my friends and family for the most part.

But I am so sick of guys I am not good at picking boyfriends...But I am going though a picky phase again...I've turned a few guys down.(even a hottie) I've really learned some lessons about picking boyfriends. I feel like my taste is starting to change.
I am better at paying attention to red flags nowa days and not taking whatever farther if there are any.

I'm at a place in my life where I wanna meet a guy that I can just get to know the guy first. Not even date, kiss, say I love you, or make anything official.
Plus I need time, I so do not feel ready for a realtionship right now. (I feel very realation/romatic phobic right now)
LoL realationships and getting some are low priorities for me right now. After what I've been through thats just how I feel for now.

As long as I keep being a prude, I'm sure that will make it easyer to find the right mature dude.

I wonder what the future brings me with ya know dudes. This time with *** out of the picture for good.

posted November 19, 2010 05:28 PM         

You have no idea how happy I am that this terribly painful Rx is OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

posted November 19, 2010 07:40 PM         

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By the way, sorry to be a downer. I woke up from a dream about something that contributed to my depression this year, and the feelings just won't disappear. Another beautiful day wasted on yucky feelings.

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Aw teasel, I am sending you loads of good thoughts for happiness and love.

posted November 19, 2010 10:31 PM         

Let's just put it this way... At the beginning of the Venus Rx I was really irritated because this guy I was flirting with started pulling the 'player' routine on me and tried to put me into a love triangle (or rectangle, as the case may be). I got irritated and backed off entirely.

By the end of the Venus Rx, this same guy was back to being interested in only me, but another guy (an acquaintance from the past) started flirting with me out of nowhere, putting me into yet another triangle. I have to admit... It was slightly entertaining having both of them on either side of me trying to flirt with me.

I have a natal Venus Rx, so I usually do end up on top by the end of the transiting Venus Rxs, but this was a little ridiculous. The transiting Venus Rx was going from my 12th back into my 11th, and it conjuncted my Saturn/Pluto, squared my Mars, and sextiled my Sun/MC/Venus.

posted November 19, 2010 10:35 PM         

Need to finish my books and ours.
Hopefully that will bring in money soon.
Playing Lotteries too!
Yeah, looking at all the options.
But we will be living apart as soon as possible.

I will be starting a thread about life altering dramatic changes at Sweet Peas In The Rain.
It will explain briefly the situation and the changes I have been and am experiencing.