posted November 18, 2010 05:40 PM            

I can't seem to shake off this cloak of depression that's weighing me down lately. Is there anything in my chart showing this, and how could I shake it off?

posted November 18, 2010 08:42 PM            

It's ura and jup on your merc.

You also have pluto squaring merc from the 12th. I've heard 12th house pluto transits are really hard.

So, your merc, which rules your mind and depression, is being hit by pluto, which is in your 12th house of deep-seated emotions.

posted November 18, 2010 09:26 PM            

But I am feeling like real crap. Really sad crap.

posted November 18, 2010 10:14 PM            

The closer it gets to the ascendent, you can feel breakthrough after breakthrough coming. When it happened for me, I spent a lot of time alone. And more usual social, outgoing personality was dampened. I didn't go anywhere and only talked to a few people. A very strenuous testing 3 year relationship that lasted until Pluto finally made its last pass of my ascendant.

There is hope. I know it probably seems like there is nothing to grab onto, and there isn't. Pluto is acting like a purifying fire and its slowly heating up your subconscious so that that you can deal with all that comes up.

posted November 19, 2010 01:51 AM            

Pluto is all about that btw... It will not let you pretend nothing is wrong or carry on like everything is ok if it's not. Pluto doesn't accpet it and neither does Saturn, they both challenge the comfort zones which we create for ourselves whether consciously or unconsciously.
I know 'comfort' is a strange word in this case if you're unhappy, but the other word for it is 'rut'...there's content comfort which we are satisfied with and have made by ourselves or were lucky to have, and the other comfort which is made to keep out change. It doesn't work. Judgment day AKA Pluto comes and demands sacrifice and often the sacrifice is what doesn't work. And it's almost always about how authentic we've been with ourselves.
So I hope you can try to also think of it as a time for new things to emerge, new discoveries about yourself, finding your own strength, etc, because that's also I think what Pluto is about.

posted November 19, 2010 02:32 AM            

No wonder you are feeling all sh!tty you poor luv…

Saturn has just t-squared your AC/DC axis.
Saturn is now also inconjunct your Moon Chiron conjunction.

Another t-square created by Neptune and Chiron, they are conjunct your SN, opposing your NN and Mars and squaring Uranus.

Your SA/Progressed Sun is squaring that natal Mars and Nodal axis
SA Saturn is conjunct Pluto – though separating
SA Asc is square your natal Moon
SA Chiron is conjunct natal Venus

posted November 22, 2010 10:01 AM            

So far, I've contracted an eye infection, my ears are closed up and the doctor can't see why, my complete physical body is exhausted, and my heart aches for something I just can't seem to ever grasp.

How long will this last? What are some good things to do?

posted November 22, 2010 04:51 PM            

I'm so frustrated. Something has got to help me get out of this horrible horrible feeling I'm going through.

posted November 23, 2010 08:53 PM            

Hey just wanted to add that Neptune is oppsite your Mars and node... Get a health check up... You poor thing.... you are probably exhausted! The good thing is that Neptune has just gone direct again so things should begin to ease now. Give it time though
Pluto is square your Mercury... Have you been feeling bullied or restricted, even trapped?
You need to talk it out hun, the best way.

posted November 24, 2010 04:26 AM            

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posted November 30, 2010 05:58 PM            

I'm still feeling really ****** . I've even been called 'delusional' and that makes me feel like the biggest ass on earth.