posted November 30, 2010 01:40 AM
i have sun (aries) and mercury (pisces) in the 12th house there's a couple of ways this plays out for me...with the mercury in the 12th i know everything instinctively and am very good at reading the hidden meanings in people's communication. But what I do with that knowledge and how I communicate to others has always been an uphill battle. Like it's clear in my head but I can't get it out in words (i also have saturn in gem in the 3rd though). writing is good for me because I don't have to pass the mouth to get to go.
In terms of projecting this I also (mistakenly!) expect people to know what I'm thinking instinctively...since I do.
as far as the sun goes i work my ass off....to get other people recognition. that's not my intention it's just the way it happens. i spent 2 years of my life on a project and my boss took home an award. it's always a case of the people close to me know that it's me, but no one else does. And with my communication problems i'm certainly not going to say it.
I also often feel like a hidden sun. Like I have a bunch of potential to shine but that never happens. Both because when it does happen I'm uncomfortable with being in the limelight (of anything - not work), even though I do want it, and so I avoid it. And because eventually people stop trying to put me in that position. I think it's what a saturn conjunct ascendant would feel like.
maybe in a composite it would be that the relationship never shines to its full potential even though it wants to? i guess it depends on the sign it's in. mine is aries, so mine is about not shining in my actions. maybe if it were in a venus ruled sign it would be about never being able to shine in terms of beauty and love.
the mercury could be that there is always something hidden about what the relationship communicates? maybe like it's a relationship that's not supposed to be public?