posted December 28, 2010 12:17 PM            

And I hate all that!

I am seeking conflict, I am getting suicidal again, and i just want ot leave it all and travel or die.

DOES ANYTHING INDICATE THIS IN MY CHART

Sun Pisces 19°03'25 in house 3 direct
Moon Pisces 10°51'20 in house 3 direct
Mercury Aries 0°51'29 in house 4 retrograde
Venus Aries 0°59'04 in house 4 direct
Mars Sagittarius 20°23'12 in house 1 direct
Jupiter Pisces 4°07'27 in house 3 direct
Saturn Sagittarius 9°37'43 end of house 12 stationary (R)
Uranus Sagittarius 22°14'13 in house 1 direct
Neptune Capricorn 5°35'00 in house 1 direct
Pluto Scorpio 7°07'11 in house 11 retrograde
True Node Taurus 0°34'56 in house 5 retrograde
Planets at the end of a house are interpreted in the next house.

House positions (Placidus)
Ascendant Sagittarius 11°53'57
2nd House Capricorn 13°43'48
3rd House Aquarius 19°09'30
Imum Coeli Pisces 24°14'26
5th House Aries 24°35'00
6th House Taurus 19°44'38
Descendant Gemini 11°53'57
8th House Cancer 13°43'48
9th House Leo 19°09'30
Medium Coeli Virgo 24°14'26
11th House Libra 24°35'00
12th House Scorpio 19°44'38

Major aspects
Sun Square Mars 1°20
Sun Square Uranus 3°11
Sun Square Ascendant 7°09
Moon Conjunction Jupiter 6°44
Moon Square Saturn 1°14
Moon Sextile Neptune 5°16
Moon Trine Pluto 3°44
Moon Square Ascendant 1°03
Mercury Conjunction Venus 0°08
Mercury Square Neptune 4°44
Venus Square Neptune 4°36
Mars Conjunction Uranus 1°51
Jupiter Square Saturn 5°30
Jupiter Sextile Neptune 1°28
Jupiter Trine Pluto 3°00
Saturn Conjunction Ascendant 2°16
Neptune Sextile Pluto 1°32
Numbers indicate orb (deviation from the exact aspect angle).

posted December 29, 2010 09:30 PM            

I am seeking conflict, I am getting suicidal again, and i just want ot leave it all and travel or die.))))

It's better to make conflict in your life on a constructive way. I think the way you think about are an way just for cowardly people or sick people. If you are healthy you hurt so many other people and if you will survive. .....people will be afraid of you. They will see that you done like a threat. They will never want to confront you . People will be scared of you. They think you will do something like that again. If you have unlucky you will lose everything.

Does you feel you are unhealthy I want you to meet an doctor or an therapist.

posted December 30, 2010 12:30 AM            

It could indicate a tendency to be depressed

It could stem from feeling of insecurity as well as being restricted,limited in some way

I don't think it's necessarily about self pity nor wanting to be miserable.

Depression can be a very serious problem.
It can be looked down upon as a character weakness even though it can be legitimate medical problem.

Depression can even be caused by stress

If a person is overloaded with stress, the cortisol levels greatly increase which leads to depletion of serotonin.

That's why it seems like many highly sensitive people have been taking SSRI's for treating depression. Those same SSRI's are even used to treat social anxiety disorder which is a pathological type of shyness. Many highly sensitive people can come across as being shy. That goes especially if they are in surroundings that they are not familiar with or in negative surroundings.

Omega 3 fatty acid deficiencies can lead to depression too. Symptoms of Omega 3 fatty acid deficiencies are hypersensitivity.
If you're hypersensitive, you're more likely to be easily overwhelmed by the environment which can lead to burning the Omega 3 fatty acids more than the average person which can lead to the need to replenish. This could also be the case for people that are ultrasensitive in general. In society, ultrasensitive are viewed as being too sensitive. Therefore, they are viewed as needing medication by people who look down on ultrasensitivity.

People with neurological differences are more susceptible to depression and anxiety disorders than people with so-called normal neurological systems.

Anxiety and depression tend to be co-morbid. A lot of people with anxiety tend to be depressed. A lot of people with depression tend to be anxious. SSRI's are used to treat both depression and anxiety.

It could be a combination of insecurity and ultrasenstivity to the environment. Omega 3 fatty acid deficiencies are strongly connected to neurological differences too.
A good source of Omega 3's are fish,algae,and flaxseed.

Vitamin B complex and Zinc is important in helping people deal with stress as well as the immune system. If you're stressed, your immunity can get compromised.

I know all this from personal experience.
I have had suicidal thoughts,feelings before. I have never attempted suicide. My mother has had numerous suicide attempts. My maternal grandfather committed suicide. One of my maternal aunts has been diagnosed as having a depressive disorder after being involuntarily hospitalized,and she's on medication for depression. Therefore, depression runs strong in my family. They are also ultrasensitive people with neurological differences too.

Anxiety and Depression can be two sides of the same coin. Both can be connected to a ultrasensitive nervous system. A lot of people don't understand.

I also want to inform that anxiety and depression can be connected to vestibular disorder aka inner ear disorder. Inner ear is important for equilibrium. That effects the brain functioning too.

Hormonal imbalances can also be a source of depression. A matter of fact, testosterone was used as an antidepressant to treat males. Males with lower levels of testosterone can be susceptible to depression.

Allergies can also lead to depression. Antihistamines used to be some of the first antidepressants.

Depression and its causes are not cut and dry. They are complex.

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No..I am not a Virgo.

posted January 01, 2011 12:34 AM            

btw I have Moon sq Saturn too.

My thinking is just take responsibility for what you're feeling and get on with it. For some reason the dark moods feel like they'll last forever but they're temporary. And it's OK to not be happy all the time. So if someone still wants to be here all they have to do is 'sit this one out' and then move on. You don't always have to be in the game.

That's how I handle my dark moods. I don't make any appts, I stay away cos I know I'm gonna be weird to people, and just sit it out. They always pass.

posted January 01, 2011 01:04 AM            

it could be the **fear** of a sorted life, already planed, that scares you because you need more uncertainty (or learning, you call it "travel")

there are many ways to learn

posted January 01, 2011 03:34 AM            

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Originally posted by Lonake:
If someone wants to kill themselves they're gonna find a way to do it. Words are sort of meaningless here. And fact is if they attempt and don't succeed then their chances of later on succeeding greatly increase. It's a fine line. I wouldn't talk someone into or out of it because that is their life and it is their choice. For some reason people don't understand that they're born alone and they'll die alone. Their choices in the interim are theirs to make and its their responsibility to choose wisely.

btw I have Moon sq Saturn too.

My thinking is just take responsibility for what you're feeling and get on with it. For some reason the dark moods feel like they'll last forever but they're temporary. And it's OK to not be happy all the time. So if someone still wants to be here all they have to do is 'sit this one out' and then move on. You don't always have to be in the game.

That's how I handle my dark moods. I don't make any appts, I stay away cos I know I'm gonna be weird to people, and just sit it out. They always pass.

And if it is depression, it's better to embrace it than to try to run away from it. Don't act like it's not there, but don't let it control you. You know how when you meditate and the thoughts are just observed as passing through, that's how I do it, I sit with the dark moods and watch them go through all their shapes and forms and then when it's over I move on.

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posted January 01, 2011 04:32 AM            

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Originally posted by BanxxManxx:
My words are never useless LoSNAKE. People are not alone. They have the True Creator, of Unconditional Love, and that is all that you really need.

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I would not be the least bit suprised if she changed her username to that, must be that uh Piscean humor.

posted January 01, 2011 07:48 PM            

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Originally posted by BanxxManxx:
My words are never useless LoSNAKE. People are not alone. They have the True Creator, of Unconditional Love, and that is all that you really need.

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Oh right.
You were.
Why don't you?

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Originally posted by Maka:
I would not be the least bit suprised if she changed her username to that, must be that uh Piscean humor.

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