posted January 30, 2011 01:22 AM            

I wonder if its Chiron conjunt your NN.. Your meant to feel this pain so you can heal it??? IDK maybe...

Also Chrion sq your Sun.

posted January 30, 2011 02:47 AM            

And really annoying people are doing well.

posted January 30, 2011 04:05 AM            

I checked your chart.
I checked not only ecliptic longitude (regular chart) but also the equatorial longitude and latitude coordinations which are Right Ascension and Declination to get a 3D view of the chart.

I would say that your depression is reflected by transiting Saturn square your Saturn

In the regular chart:
Transiting Retrograde Saturn squaring your Saturn with little less than 4 degree orb applying

In the Right Ascension chart:
Transiting Retrograde Saturn squaring your Saturn with 2'28 applying

Therefore, the transiting Retrograde Saturn squaring your Saturn is significantly closer in Right Ascension than it is in the regular chart.

In the regular chart,
transiting Saturn is in opposition to your transneptunian dwarf planet Eris with 5 minute orb applying

It would indicate that structure,discipline could be at odds with equality,diversity matters in your right now. There is a possiblity of experiencing some type of bigotry from others, stemming from another's ideology. It could make you question your own ideology even though there might not be anything wrong with it. The main thing with the transit is to accept and tolerate diversity even though others are not accepting and tolerating your own divergent views on things.

Transiting Saturn squaring your Saturn in 9th would seem like the belief system issues and your overall faith being questioned in some way.

In Right Ascension chart,
Transiting Saturn is squaring your Mars with 1'45 applying , and that indicate structure,discipline could be in friction with your assertion,passion,and physical drive. You could be going through a period where you feel like your actions are being restricted,limited in some way which can leave you frustrated.

actually,
Transiting Saturn is forming a t-square with your Mars-Saturn opposition in Right Ascension. This would indicate great stress and tension going on in your life in regards to structure,discipline,restrictions,and limitations. It can be a test of differentiating what you want from what you need. You're being challenged to "keep it real."

In Regular chart,
Transiting Neptune is conjunting/oppose your Lunar Nodes in 11th/5th with 2'31 orb applying and squaring your Sun in 1st with 2'36 orb applying
Transiting Chiron is conjuncting/opposing your Lunar Nodes in 11th/5th with 51 minute orb applying and squaring your Sun in 1st with 56 minute orb applying.
Those transits seem to indicate that you're ego boundaries are being dissolved and that they involve pain. They could be connected with friendship and romantic connections,associations with important men in your life. If you don't keep your idealism in check, you could be caught up in confusion,deception,and illusion which could leave you in much pain which could lead to escapism. These transits can be used for spiritual and creative/artistic outlets and healing.

There is minor aspect transit of transiting Neptune semisquare your Saturn with 35 minute orb applying, and this would indicate there can be some minor friction involving stability,security,and strong foundations being dissolved which can lead to confusion. It could also suggest the possibility minor health problems. Take care of your immune system.

In Right Ascension,
Transiting Neptune is conjunction/opposing your Lunar Nodes with 2'14 orb applying, squaring your Mercury with 2'12 orb applying, and sesquiquadrate your Mars with 1 minute orb applying.

This could indicate that dissolution,idealism is merging with your connections/associations with others and could be at odds with past connections. Your thinking,communications is in a period of dissolution,idealism that is in friction. Your assertion,passion,physical drive is in a process of dissolution,idealisation. There is a possibility of confusion,deception,illusion during this period. There can be an experience of divine discontent. There can be an urge to escape.
A good outlet for these Neptune transits are spiritual and creative/artistic activities with the increased inspiration and imagination.

In Right Ascension,
Transiting Jupiter is sextile your Mercury with 29 minute orb, and this indicates that there is an opportunity for your thinking,communications to expand and gain knowledge. There could be some optimistic thinking. Of course, with the hard Saturn transits going on at the same time, you may not be as optimistic as you would without the hard Saturn transits. With the combination of your Neptune transits, there could be increased idealism.

In your natal chart,
You have your transneptunian dwarf planet Sedna conjunct/oppose your Ascendant/Descendant axis with only 11 minute orb. That's the strongest Sedna influence that I have seen in a chart.
It indicates that matters involving environmental awareness,caretaking for humanity,and victimization merge with your persona and at odds with your relationships.
Transiting Sun is squaring that aspect. Therefore those issues could be highlighted right now.

Overall, I think that you're going through a period of your spirituality being tested with the opportunity for spiritual growth.

Solar Arc Pluto has been opposing your Mercury,and the orb is 1 minute separating right now.

Your Moon is progressed in 29'57 Virgo in your 6th house. You're about at the end of Virgo and in the 6th house. This would indicate a strong theme in regards to health,service,and daily routine.
Transiting retrograde Saturn is in your 6th house, and so there could be matters involving those things that you have to work on and resolve.

Secondary progressed Mercury is conjuncting your Sun with 29 minute orb applying, and that indicates a period where you should be focusing on communications.
With the Solar Arc Pluto opposing your Pluto, it could be an emphasis changing your thinking. Transiting Neptune squaring your Mercury in Right Ascension could indicate dissolving mental boundaries leading you to be more receptive and open to ideas.

You'll be fine.
Just hang in there.

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A different mind is NOT a deficient mind.

posted January 30, 2011 11:03 AM            

My heart is with you...
I know exactly how you feel. Being in the same situation currently... since a long time.

Hang in there, dear. This shall pass. Life has cycles and when we manage to go through really tough times like these, life will be not only better but it will give all that you missed.
There is always a reason for things to happen (or not happen!)...
It really helps me to see things as a 3rd person... looking out of the box.

Believe in yourself and you will make it.

I´m sending you my positive energy!!!