posted February 18, 2011 02:59 PM            

I have read what people generally feel when they have Saturn placements at different places however personal experiences would be good to hear from you.

I would start with :
I have Saturn in 11th so since childhood I didn't had really that many dreams or wishes.
In fact recently I am filled with it. I for long decided that if I fulfilled other people's dreams my dreams would be fulfilled.
Part of me still believe this but since I am little elder I have realized I can't be doormat and learn to say NO.Any demand by elders or others becomes top priority for me.

I had practically no proper teenage years as I was more busy being mature when I was a teenager.As for Friends I always have been attracted to older friends and lately I had to try very hard to be with younger ones.

I know that I can achieve my dreams and I also know I am very good in social, group settings however there is always nervousness or stage fright kind of experience.

There is always having group is necessity at the same time it is question mark on how can I do it right. I find people mostly not sticking around with me too long. Seems as if I am doing something wrong or not enough.
I have been always been very interested in people.

One of the ways I am going to work with bringing groups of people together is by getting married. Saturn being in Libra is obvious for now as well.

posted February 18, 2011 03:46 PM            

I have GREAT stamina with facts and information, but this placement can make me downright mentally paralyzed and morose.

So, yes. I keep it at bay with proper anti-depressants, physical activity, positive life and healthy choices.

posted February 18, 2011 04:33 PM            

I know there are of course some thoughts, childhood experiences might have left the same thinking pattern but so does so many others. Can you differentiate good and bad?

Can you please ellaborate on your situation?
I wonder whether you do anything out of her charachter? I mean more rebelling against her or can you find any activities which could nurture you? Lots of love.

posted February 18, 2011 04:46 PM            

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Originally posted by Benedict Moon*:
Saturn in the 12th. I am depression-prone in cycles. It stems from alot of things but the root seems to be the fear that life is random and meaningless. I keep it at bay by retreating into my own fantasy subconscious. In other words: escapism.

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posted February 18, 2011 05:35 PM            

faith,ideals get tested,challenged
don't believe in things easily
I can be a skeptic
I don't follow any type of religion
I was an atheist for a few years
education is limited due to problems with teachers because the auditory sequential teaching methods don't match with my visual spatial learning style (I don't consider myself learning disabled)and being bored easily.
I prefer to educate myself at my own pace
When I was in the navy, travel was part of the work
I recently had legal issues
I decided on a name change that involves changing my last name which is my mother's maiden name to my biological father's last name.
I dealt with racial/ethnic/cultural issues.

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A different mind is NOT a deficient mind.

posted February 18, 2011 06:54 PM            

Does your mom happen to be a helecopter parent Ami Anne?
My mom was like that with me for a while. Shes improved alot. I get along with my mom better now. My older sister told me not to leave my phone alone with her or she'll snoop. But I can't call out my mom as much as I want to, cause then my mom wont confide in my sis anymore, and let me know her tricks.

posted February 18, 2011 06:59 PM            

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Originally posted by PlutoSquared:
I have GREAT stamina with facts and information, but this placement can make me downright mentally paralyzed and morose.

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Same.
Exact same, my mind gets stuck running around these circles, driving the same points home over and over and I feel like I can't get off that treadmill sometimes. Also have great focus and concentration which are traits I love.

posted February 18, 2011 07:02 PM            

Any other Saturn h1 placements agree??

posted February 18, 2011 08:42 PM            

Personally speaking, it felt like boot camp growing up. I never had a normal childhood like everyone else. Couldnt attend birthday parties, halloween, playdates cuz I was on this strict schedule of extra-curricular activities...especially with my music training. My parents never allowed us to say "NO," either or we'd get a beating if we strayed off track (report cards etc). One of my brothers cracked under the pressure & went into deep depression from age 12-17. With Saturn in the first, I would say I handled it much better than him, although I wasnt happy either. My childhood lifestyle was very testing to be self reliant. I studied Piano & Violin professionally under the Royal Conservatory. Even studying Piano alone seriously is a full time career. Normal school 9-3pm, then Music training 4-11pm. Roughly 3-4hrs practice almost daily, with few hours of studying/doing music theory HW & Music History lessons. As you have to take 3 annual exams (playing, written; Music theory & History), ontop of preparing for Competitions & Masterclasses.
I was sooO stressed out as a kid, I would have major insomnia. Now as an adult, no matter how stressful life gets, it doesnt feel half as intense as when I was a child. I never want to be a kid again, that's for sure.

posted February 18, 2011 09:09 PM            

Well, I left home at 18 to go to college .I never went back home but that does not mean my mother was far from my head.
She lived in my head and still does. I am trying to evict her with all I have in me.
Say a prayer for me and don't stop.I need it

posted February 19, 2011 02:05 AM            

I was the oldest child in a very large family, so for me it was all about responsibility for my sisters and brothers.
In a sense I was my Mother's right hand and coming from a family whose father was in the Military,
there were long periods when he was away.
I've always had to make decisions and more or less lead my siblings but I also knew I couldn't make any life altering mistakes.
I was very aware of the consequences of my actions.

posted February 19, 2011 03:21 AM            

I had an unconventional upbringing, there was some home schooling, but I never truly made it into an actual school until about 8 years of age. By then I was far behind the other kids, and I had to struggle to catch up. I was quite shy as a child and other kids would make fun of me, calling me ‘stupid’. For a couple of years after I first started public school it was all too much for me. I started to retreat into my own little dream world, ignoring the teasing and just floating through my lessons. I made a minimal effort but I didn’t really give it my all. Neptune falls in my 12th (day dreaming) and Pluto falls in my 11th (teasing and humiliation in a group setting?)

Then at around age 12, just before entering high school in my country they decided to hold me back a year before I could move on up. It was as if this made everything click into place. I remember clearly deciding at around this age that I wanted to be a good student from then on, and that I needed to be if I wanted my future quality of life to be good. At around this time I also started to cultivate my intense passion for astrology which I’m sure is a life-long thing. I worked my butt off in school for the next year. Then again all throughout high school. I developed a reputation for being a scholar in my class, and went on to graduate High School, and then go to collage, where I also graduated and with good grades.

The mind-set in collage suited me better then in all my previous schooling, it was up to your own discretion when and how you studied, and the subject matter was more compelling and interesting. I was able to use my own self-discipline and penchant for organization to get myself through my courses. I have always had a very curious mind, and I do really enjoy understanding things. My mind tends to want to see the overall pattern of how something works and then fill in all the details as I go along (My Saturn is in the 9th in VIRGO) .

Another thing I noticed with Saturn in the 9th is that it makes integrity very important to me. I feel it’s very important to have the self-control to stick to your principles and do the right thing. A weak moral character is very repellent to me. I also very much believe in God, and although I don’t go to a Christian church I do accept a lot of the morels associated with it. Like thou ‘shelt not steal’, and ‘do unto others as you would have done unto yourself’, and so on. Also, Saturn in the 9th exactly (less then a degree) sextiles Jupiter in the 7th and trines Venus in the 1st, and I have always had a conservative attitude towards love and marriage. My sun sign is Capricorn so Saturn rules my sun to boot, and Sag is rising in my chart so Jupiter is my chart ruler.

posted February 19, 2011 04:22 AM            

A tendency to live in the past and possibly a strong attachment to your mother make it difficult to leave home.
If afflicted, you can be limited or unhappy in later years, and often become a recluse . You likely had a rather hard early life with strict or authoritarian parents, or perhaps an absent parent.

That is quite true.