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astrophile
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posted March 11, 2011 03:03 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for astrophile     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Hello. I had posted this earlier on the Personal Readings forum, and I was recommended to this forum for more guidance.

I am wondering what folks think about this synastry - and am curious as to any explanations as to why I can't seem to let it go. The relationship was never physical and ended years ago after multiple misunderstandings. Despite an initial attraction and sense no one knew me better, it ultimately became more work than it was worth. What was once thrilling and exciting became overwhelming and draining. All the pluto perhaps...

I don't think I ever felt something so intensely before, and I resisted the entire time because I didn't see a good ending out of it. In working together, we got a lot done, and I felt that together, we were able to accomplish more than alone. However, there quickly evolved these undercurrents that were hard to ignore. It mostly felt like passion and control issues clamoring to get to the surface; yet neither were in a position to do anything about it since going down that path would have had negative repercussions professionally and personally. So it went largely undiscussed while we continued to work together. He made subtle attempts which I did not acknowledge. I loved being the center of his attention, and I loved being attractive to him, but I couldn't let it go further than that.

I miss that feeling of vibrancy. I don't know how much that was our synergy/synastry or whatever was going in my life at the time, of which he just happened to be a part. It was a watermark time in my life.

I know I need to let it go, and it's hard to let go of such a feeling - even if the rest was unrealized and the relationship ultimately ended badly... I just felt so alive at the time.

I just wish I understood why...Not why it ended, but why it happened and why him in the first place. The other thing is, as much as I think of it, still, it's odd to think he might no longer give it any thought at all. Our paths no longer cross. It's not that I'd want him back in my life, but that feeling! well that would be another thing...the positive parts of it anyway.

And I'm curious if my thoughts about it or the relationship itself could be explained astrologically or any other way - as if understanding them could help me let it go.

That would be the hope, I guess.

Thanks for any insight. Synastry and aspects attached.



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Ami Anne
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From: Pluto/house next to NickiG
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posted March 11, 2011 03:12 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Ami Anne     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Sweetie
My eyes are on tilt looking at all that lol
Could you please write on THESE aspects only

Moon/Pluto
Venus/Pluto
Any Nessus
Any Dejaneria
Any Eros

Thank you

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astrophile
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posted March 11, 2011 05:57 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for astrophile     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Hi,

I wasn't sure what information folks would want. It is overwhelming, isn't it?

His moon bQ my Pluto (1 degree 25s)
His Pluto square my Venus (-0 degree 02s)

I'm assuming the "s" is for seconds, but I'm not sure what the "a" stands for.

I did not see any Nessus in the astro.com chart. And I didn't see the other two until Eris and Eros are the same...

Thanks for taking a look...

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astrophile
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posted March 11, 2011 06:02 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for astrophile     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Oh, wait.

His Nessus septile my moon (1 degree 14s). There are other aspects, but greater than 2 degrees, and I'm not sure how tight the aspect is supposed to be...

Thanks again.

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Ami Anne
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posted March 11, 2011 07:08 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Ami Anne     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
His Pluto square your Venus could be a crazy making obsession aspect

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JohnFKennedy
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posted March 11, 2011 07:38 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for JohnFKennedy     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Are these the correct birth times? And could you post a chart that isn't littered with asteroids? I know it's a rare philosophy on this forum, but I personally feel that with the exception of psyche/eros and a few others, everything in the natal/synastry chart says pretty much everything you need with just the basics.

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JohnFKennedy
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posted March 11, 2011 07:39 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for JohnFKennedy     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Also, in the box where it says "Reduce/Increase Orbs" put in 40%, that'll really narrow down what needs to be looked at

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Lioness
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posted March 11, 2011 09:58 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Lioness     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
WOW!!!

That chart is HUGE.. My eyes popped out of head!

I wasnt expecting it...

lol....

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lalalinda
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posted March 12, 2011 01:18 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for lalalinda     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Hello astrophile! Welcome to LL

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astrophile
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posted March 12, 2011 07:10 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for astrophile     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
LOL, okay - sorry everyone. I just thought I'd pre-empt everyone asking for more things, and just gave you everything astro.com had as an option. I just figured out how to add Eros and Psyche so I included them too.

I was surprised that changing by 40% lost a fair number of aspect lines...

Anyway, I'm on the inside and he's on the outside. His birthtime/place is unknown, so I know it's not as helpful - particularly with respect to the houses.

Anyway, here's a less intense version. Thanks for taking a look. Maybe it's all just me and my own natal Sun sq Pluto...

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