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Topic: Whats going on? Im having bad thoughts..
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Lioness Knowflake Posts: 1903 From: Registered: Mar 2010
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posted April 11, 2011 10:18 PM
Ok for those of you that know the huge long o story with me and pisces.... We stopped talking.. I told him no more friendship.. thats it.. That was over 2 months ago.. Well IDK what happen, but I called him last week.. We talked.. We got along.. No biggie... NOW Im feeling so angry at him, like I want him to pay... Like I want revenge.. Only he didnt do anything wrong to me... LOL I feel like I want to make him pay for everything wrong he's done to every woman... My head is in over drive with things that I could do to him.. Dont get me wrong, Im not going to do anything of these things.. But these thoughts are keeping me going. What is this.. Why do I all of a sudden feel like that towards him... Mars oops Sun? Mars opps Mars? Did Neptune clear and I now see how horrible he is to women??? Whats wrong with me? Im not a revengeful person, and I normally dont think like this. I am not this type of person... I just walk away and deal in private, then I forgot about it....
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Lonake Moderator Posts: 3768 From: U.S. Registered: Apr 2009
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posted April 11, 2011 10:44 PM
this is moon pluto guy? or no?If it's moon/pluto you're likely feeling residual anger, moon pluto can take a while to well up and when it does it feels overwhelming and your rational mind will tell you that you're overreacting, but it's inside, it was felt deep inside and now it's coming out. You have to feel the feelings and let it out, sometimes it can get ugly but so be it. These are unresolved feelings. It was very moon/pluto to cut ties like that for good, however making contact again will bring things back up related to past events. If you don't like this feeling cut ties for good. it doesn't mean you're a bad person for having these thoughts, you felt hurt prob in a way that at the time you didnt consciously recognize and now it's coming back from the grave in a way. Put that baby to rest, my2. IP: Logged |
Lioness Knowflake Posts: 1903 From: Registered: Mar 2010
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posted April 11, 2011 11:00 PM
Yes this is the moon/pluto guy.. Thanks for helping me understand this... Im trying to severe the tie, but when you see each other every day its nearly impossible.. Im not feeling the obsession anymore... THANK GOD! but Im feeling really anger at him... I have no reason to be angry at him.. Im feeling like how dare him.. He needs to pay.. You know If I walked up to him and just kicked him in the nuts I would be a happy girl! IP: Logged |
Lonake Moderator Posts: 3768 From: U.S. Registered: Apr 2009
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posted April 11, 2011 11:05 PM
You should go youtube vids of women doing that, live vicariously and that might help. I'm serious. I get crazy thoughts like that too, and I have to go live vicariously because of all the things I wish otherwise I'd be put in jail.
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Lioness Knowflake Posts: 1903 From: Registered: Mar 2010
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posted April 11, 2011 11:10 PM
OOOOO.. Soooooo strapping him naked to a chair and putting cheese on his crotch in a rat infested building.. Issss a bad thing... RIGHT????? OK got it no jail! Live Vicariously good thing... OK GOT IT!!! HEY.. maybe we can put in this thread our thoughts on what we can do! Just you know for fun!!! grinning smilie IP: Logged |
abcd efg Knowflake Posts: 118 From: Mumbai,Maharashtra,India Registered: Mar 2011
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posted April 11, 2011 11:17 PM
quote: Originally posted by Lonake: You should go youtube vids of women doing that, live vicariously and that might help. I'm serious. I get crazy thoughts like that too, and I have to go live vicariously because of all the things I wish otherwise I'd be put in jail.
Good one. That reminds me of the no of bashing things i do in my mind at times when i am in an angry mood. I really had a hearty laugh on this. And believe me, i do have a very good imagination. Even the dreams that i get are always colourful. It helps me too in staying out of trouble. IP: Logged |
Lonake Moderator Posts: 3768 From: U.S. Registered: Apr 2009
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posted April 11, 2011 11:20 PM
Oh honey now you know what it's like!! I have Moon sq Pluto natally, you know I have had to find different tricks up my sleeve to deal!Going out and breaking something feels really good, like cheap dishes from the thrift store. Haahhhaa, I know a Scorpio who only buys those cheap $5 ancient looking landline phones, you know the really ugly ones, just so that she can pull em out of the wall when she's on an infuriating call and just smash it on the counter or floor and throw it at the wall, just MESS IT UP. I'm also given to burning letters and pictures, doesn't have *as great* of an emotional release, but at least you know the evidence is gone for good. The best release is anything you can laugh about really hard afterwards, it's gone and you feel so much lighter, it's heaven. You have to get it out or it becomes poisonous and it will control you! IP: Logged |
Lonake Moderator Posts: 3768 From: U.S. Registered: Apr 2009
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posted April 11, 2011 11:22 PM
quote: Originally posted by Lioness: OOOOO.. Soooooo strapping him naked to a chair and putting cheese on his crotch in a rat infested building.. Issss a bad thing... RIGHT?????
This really made me IP: Logged |
Lioness Knowflake Posts: 1903 From: Registered: Mar 2010
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posted April 11, 2011 11:27 PM
LOL... Must be the composite Scorpio mars we got!! Because wow Im really having some evil thoughts! IP: Logged |
abcd efg Knowflake Posts: 118 From: Mumbai,Maharashtra,India Registered: Mar 2011
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posted April 11, 2011 11:30 PM
quote: Originally posted by Lonake:
........The best release is anything you can laugh about really hard afterwards, it's gone and you feel so much lighter, it's heaven. You have to get it out or it becomes poisonous and it will control you!
Very True. A good and thorough 'Bashing' over strong aggressive feelings really works wonders! Practical and sound therapy. IP: Logged |
Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 8344 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010
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posted April 12, 2011 01:42 AM
Dear Lonake DOES Moon/Pluto have anger as the flip side of it ,ALWAYS,even if one person did not do the other dirty?------------------ Life is lived in the sand box. He who controls his Spirit is greater than he who controls a city Proverbs IP: Logged |
Lonake Moderator Posts: 3768 From: U.S. Registered: Apr 2009
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posted April 12, 2011 02:10 AM
The anger just results from hurt and intensified feelings are the result. There doesn't have to be a rational explanation, it could even attach to hurts from way back, the point is that it touches a real emotion that demands expression and release.IP: Logged |
bunnies Knowflake Posts: 354 From: u.k Registered: Apr 2009
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posted April 12, 2011 03:14 AM
It's not astrological but perfectly normal. You are probably experiencing the stages of grieving which apparently go like thisStage 1 Numbness....you cannot even process what is happening which could explain why a lot of people seem amazingly together during a funeral. It hasn't even begun to sink in. Stage 2 Anger..It hits you what has happened and you rail against the heavens,people around you and God and this poor fella who you wish to do unspeakable things to. Stage 3 Bargaining...If I can just get back with him, see him when I am with someone else, make him see the error of his actions, if I could just prove how wrong he is, start again and be different.... Stage 4 Acceptance...Exactly that. You realise it's over and you will cease to feel the anger. Unfortunately a lot of people get stuck in Stage 2 and 3 for years. You know the ones. Those still spitting the persons name with bile ages after, or the ones who I find really worrying, those that cheerily say "Haha I can't believe I ever liked him hahaha" whilst a red mist descends over their eyes and their hands clench into "strangle mode" It's healthy to go through these stages. Even if he wasn't the love of your life somewhere you are feeling the loss of your future and dreams you may have had that involved him. You can't avoid these stages. Just know that it will pass and try not to stay angry any longer than you have to.
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bunnies Knowflake Posts: 354 From: u.k Registered: Apr 2009
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posted April 12, 2011 03:19 AM
Oh yes and I missed that. "I don't know why I called him but I did The reason why you called him is you have one foot in Stage 2 and the other in Stage 3 IP: Logged |
Lonake Moderator Posts: 3768 From: U.S. Registered: Apr 2009
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posted April 12, 2011 03:23 AM
You forgot this: quote: I normally dont think like this. I am not this type of person... I just walk away and deal in private, then I forgot about it....
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Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 8344 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010
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posted April 12, 2011 11:04 AM
quote: Originally posted by Lonake: The anger just results from hurt and intensified feelings are the result. There doesn't have to be a rational explanation, it could even attach to hurts from way back, the point is that it touches a real emotion that demands expression and release.
My Moon /Pluto person is ALWAYS angry at me ------------------ Life is lived in the sand box. He who controls his Spirit is greater than he who controls a city Proverbs IP: Logged |