posted May 03, 2011 05:08 PM            

note: the day formula for Pars Fortunae is being used

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"I seek words to re-create the sensations which exalt and unhinge me."

"I am today fully capable of passion in the most complete and absolute sense of the word."

"I see everything with a painful lucidity"

posted May 03, 2011 07:20 PM            

You've got a lot of inner conflicts more than likely stemming from some childhood experiences that make your relationships quite challenging.

How you express your individuality is in conflict with your drive, aggression and how you go after what you want...both challenge your sense of safety and security.

Plus your IC/MC asc/dsc axises are involved. This sounds like a very difficult childhood environment.

You were the perfect child or thought that you had to be in order to be accepted as a child. You have a strong sense of duty and responsibility towards people especially your family. I would wonder if you were ever even able to be a child, perhaps having to parent your parents and/or siblings.

I'm seeing some violence or perhaps some kind of abuse between or from one of your parents. I'm thinking it was your father. That relationship has really affected you and the choices you have made in your relationships in the present. Your sexuality is definitely an issue.

If you have any specific questions, I'm more than willing to answer them

posted May 04, 2011 12:17 AM            

you act like a kid too fast, or you are too serious at the wrong time when it comes to having fun vs....going out with friends....