posted May 09, 2011 05:24 AM            

I'm so fed up.

I have such a lot going on in life at the moment, mostly admin stuff. Can anyone give me any kind of insight from cards, horoscopes, transits or anything - how much longer am I going to feel so rubbish?!

It is all because of my health and mental state. My son has disabilities and is at a special school. He is really challenging at home and its exhausting looking after him. Also, every 2 years we have to do a 50+ page report - it was due in a month ago and I'm not even half way through yet. If we don't get it in soon, his financial allowance will stop and we won't receive the help we do now. I just can't get myself motivated to do this stupid form. Aaaaaaaaaaaaaargh!

Also, the house is messy and disorganised which is not like me at all - I'm very tidy normally (Venus in Virgo!) and extreeeeeeeeeeeeemely organised; everything is in a labelled box or folder lol.

My health is terrible, I have several difficulties at the moment and am waiting for tests soon. I am on new tablets for depression and anxiety.

We have quite a bit of debt and one of our cars has just broken and needs a lot of money spent on it to get it working again, so I think we'll have to go down to one car - which means I will be stuck in the house all the time.

Most of all, I just can't 'cheer up' - I'm down all the time, fatigued and tired.

I am trying really hard to be brave, cope with everything and be there for others - but today I feel hopeless.

Anyone see any good reasons for this lot at all? Or any idea if/how things will change?

Thanks in advance
Rachel

posted May 09, 2011 08:09 AM            

Cardinal: Moon, Mars, Jupiter, Pluto...

Rachel x

posted May 09, 2011 09:09 AM            

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Originally posted by snarly:
Rachel ((((((hugs))))),

If you like, I can give you a tarot reading. If you'd prefer to keep it personal, just email me at snarly7@live.co.uk, or I can just pop it on here

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Thank you that would be great... I've e-mailed you, but if it is easier I have no problem with it being on here at all.

Rachel x

posted May 09, 2011 11:38 AM            

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Originally posted by bethcarliseh:
You are far from rock bottom. That is nothing compared to what some people face. You would be blessing everyone if you knew how good you have it.

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I think it is relative. Of course there are people out there in a much worse situation than me, and I feel terrible for them. It doesn't mean my difficulties are any less significant though.

posted May 09, 2011 11:49 AM            

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Originally posted by bethcarliseh:
You are far from rock bottom. That is nothing compared to what some people face. You would be blessing everyone if you knew how good you have it.

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Wow that was rude.

posted May 09, 2011 11:55 AM            

and Uranus is making a tight square to your Mars which would rule your 3rd house. so, both of your mercurial houses are being affected pretty harshly. lots of change transformation and digging around underneath the surface. you've got a lot of upheaval in your immediate environment and the universe is forcing you to change how you deal with your health and your daily routine.

because your moon rules your 6th, the order in your day and life is going to effect you emotionally. a change in diet is probably very necessary for you.

the best thing for you to do is SURRENDER. go WITH the flow. don't fight it. remain present. look around at what you can see and touch...don't believe everything you think

posted May 09, 2011 12:06 PM            

P.S. Love your blog, Electric Mind!

posted May 09, 2011 12:39 PM            

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Originally posted by RMChex:
Thanks DR and Electric Mind - really grateful for that insight. I think you are right about going with the flow; I have little choice at this point anyway.

P.S. Love your blog, Electric Mind!

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posted May 09, 2011 01:35 PM            

Can't offer any astro insight, but I have to comment that I understand it's very difficult to have to deal with a special needs child day in/day out constantly. I don't have one, but I work in a field where I encounter mothers (all the time) who have children with CP, other levels of brain damage, or simply just learning disabilities. These mothers talk to me at length about what they go through at home with the children. It is never easy. It is almost always exhausting.

Don't let the occasional insensitivity of some posters here get to you. The rest of us get it.

posted May 09, 2011 01:47 PM            

That is *exactly* how I am - I couldn't possibly have done this awful form when it should have been done could I?! Nope, now I've got to just get on and do it... I've managed to do some today, with the occasional break on here and Facebook to get my mind off it for a moment!

Thanks again

Rachel x

posted May 09, 2011 02:35 PM            

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Originally posted by Quinnie:
Awesome blog Electricmind!

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thanks Quinnie!