posted May 13, 2011 09:21 AM            

today suddenly i just feel really down. i cannot take my relationship with my extremely unreasonable man seriously anymore, i just want to end it and get a new nice one. he is not mean or aggressive, but he cannot provide me visible and physical affection and appreciation because he is stressed (for 1 year). i do something for him, and he says "that's great, you did a good job" (no word of "thank you"). we sit on a bench and he scoots away from me (subconsciously…). he calls my pets all affectionately and when i say "what about me?" he responds, "bah, i hang out with you everyday!" (and not take notice the sad shadow in my eyes). i feel pretty rubbish in a long run after a little dose of this everyday. i've tried to make changes from my side a lot, and i HAVE done a very good job (not holding resentments, understanding that he cannot provide me certain things, noticing MY own ways of reacting to things, etc.), only to find that he just does not respond, and he feels content that i have changed. he has his "reasons" (terrible life situations), but how much of that should i accept without assertive positive feedbacks ever coming from his side?

i just want to know what transit is triggering this sudden disappointment. the major ones seem quite positive, so i wonder if my feeling that i have to let go of this man is a positive decision to follow. i'm so tired of going along with his ways because he's having difficult times, and he just thinks that it's normal and i should know that he appreciates me without giving any signs than hanging out with me everyday. (because we live together)

i have-
transit Mars sx. Jupiter
transit Mars cj. Chiron
transit Mars tr. Saturn
transit Mercury tr. Sun
transit Venus tr. Sun
transit moon is around my 9th-10th house right now

long term-
transit retro Saturn cj. NN
transit retro Saturn op. moon
transit Neptune op. Saturn
transit NN cj. Juno
transit Uranus sq. Mercury

also my Moon has been bombarded by the recent entering of many transiting planets to Aries.

posted May 14, 2011 03:52 PM            

You deserve to be happy, I hope you can find a way of working this out. What happens when you tell him how you feel?

((((hugs))))

Rachel x

posted May 14, 2011 04:13 PM            

it was a bit frustrating but in the end we worked things out. it's really difficult. but even with the difficulties, i was managing it ok. but suddenly yesterday i felt like i was just repressing a bunch of stuff and like i was pretending to be content.

he's making an effort. at least he will try to pay more attention. i'll have to believe that, and if he's not doing a very good job, i have to remind him again.

posted May 14, 2011 04:45 PM            

As you say, all you can do is trust that he's going to try harder to be careful of your feelings, and remind him if it gets too bad again.

If these feelings came back from nowhere yesterday for you, hopefully they will go away again just as suddenly.

Hang in there hun.

(((hugs)))

Rachel x