posted May 27, 2011 11:11 AM            

My Sun/Moon Midpoint is on My Saturn and close to North Node...yyay I dont want someone's planet on My Saturn.. !!!!!

My Venus/Mars midpoint is exactly on MY ASCENDANT??? lol when someone's planets conjuncts on this midpoint, my god damn planets WILL MAKE SQUARE TOO IT?.....

My Vertex is in virgo, which is square to my VENUS and Mars sign!!!, opposite my moon and ascendant sign??? Lol again for vertex conjunctions in synastry , "squares" or at least different sign matching will be occured!!!!! At least it is sign square not planet but still it is problematic again!!!

Yeah some charts just cant have perfect synastry with ANYONE. I mean, They are so "formed" in a way that the native has to settle for less.......

Then everybody is saying to me why are you wasting your life on "one night stands"? My 2 T-Square and a Yod, many placements in mutable sign(all 5 personal planets are in different mutable ) is making hard to be in a "stable and peaceful" relationship...

My soul wants me to learn "solutide" or self-sufficiency i guess. I have enough power to be alone in this world and yet current conditions seems to be aheading in these way.. Too pity for my friends and family. They will be empty of my nurturing nature and presence.

They say "only God has solitude".. I can/will disprove it =))). I have tremendeous Pluto and Saturn placement which will sustain "me" for my all life. I have no business with my personal planets. Malefic planets seem to be working as benefic. Love that irony too =)).

At least sun/Venus conjunction and Venus/Jupiter trine is enough for "one nights" ... A life of lust and solitude is always better than any problematic life.

One last word: If i can be happy with solitude, then i can be happy with anything