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Topic: How to tame one's emotions?
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TrueTaurus
Knowflake Posts: 148
From: California
Registered: Nov 2010
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posted June 16, 2011 02:13 PM
  
I thought I was making progress in this area, but it's awfully difficult to do. My emotions are my worst enemy. Because of my intense feeling, I screw up relationships, abrasively speak the truth about how I feel without a filter, end up hurting a person's feelings, and then regretting it deeply. I feel like if I were calm, had "patience," and had gone with the flow, guys wouldn't think I'm crazy.
I feel like I capture a person's interest, but I am afraid to let loose the real me, afraid of being rejected. In truth, I am very vulnerable, sensitive, and insecure.
I've noticed a pattern with the guys I meet. It goes well, then out of no where I profess my feelings or intrusively write an email about why they haven't opened up to me.
I know it's not fair. Why do I do this???I have a packed 12th house, Sun, Mercury, Venus, Jupiter, and Chiron...I can feel that I am affected significantly by my subconscious.
Speaking of that, yesterday was a Full Moon in Capricorn...It's not like I did anything tiresome, but I felt exhausted physically and mentally that I slept for hours.
I feel that having a see saw chart, plus my sun moon opposition poses a threat to my personal relationships and with "me" and my inner self, if that makes any sense. I have been told by my ex that I seem pretty sensible (Taurus Sun w/ Taurus mercury), but I'm really not. I'm taken over by my emotions and I feel like I will need to work on finding a balance w/ my emotions forever.
Feel me anyone? Taurus/12th, Scorpio Moon/6th, Cancer Rising. IP: Logged |
feitlebaum
Knowflake Posts: 46
From: AZ
Registered: Jan 2011
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posted June 16, 2011 02:24 PM
I have a Taurus Sun and Scorpio Moon, too. It sucks!Sun-Moon opposition creates an imbalance. You feel too much and don't know how to express it right or know where to put that energy. I suppose it's especially crazy with Scorpio Moon. I tried to deal this way by trying to numb myself of emotion, but it always came back. I think your 12th house and Cancer rising also make you extra sensitive. Use your emotions to your advantage somehow. And when you want the guys you are dating to self-disclose, make sure they are comfortable with the relationship, too, and say something first.  Sometimes I feel that I'm afraid to let loose as well, but I think that has more to do with Synastry than with you. IP: Logged |
Benedict Moon*
Knowflake Posts: 2320
From: Avendesora
Registered: May 2009
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posted June 16, 2011 03:45 PM
Most of this, I can relate to, but I don't have the Sun-Moon opposition. I do have a Sun-Ascendant one across the Cancer-Capricorn axis. Its almost like an astrological mullet: business in the front, insanity in the back.  I also have Mercury, Chiron, and Juno in Cancer, plus a 12th house stellium.... so that doesn't tip the scale in favor of sensible alot of the time. I can appear sensible, and I can make sensible decisions (based on earth moon, I guess) but everything inside gets subjective and outside energy is internalized. Even my earth moon falls in the watery 8th house and alot of the time, the Scorpio descriptions make sense. Emotional reactivity = hurt feelings all around. Doesn't help when you have an firecracking Aries Mars as well. I've also been feeling out of sorts during this full moon eclipse...very tired, and exhausted in many ways. IP: Logged |
Ami Anne
Moderator Posts: 11904
From: Pluto/house next to NickiG
Registered: Sep 2010
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posted June 16, 2011 03:57 PM
Your 12th house planets sound really ,really hard.
Do you want to put your chart up in Personal Readings and we can look.If you do,ask your specific question again  ------------------
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Jounia
Knowflake Posts: 84
From: United Kingdom
Registered: May 2011
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posted June 16, 2011 04:10 PM
I can also relate - Cancer sun/ Scorp moon. I am definetly not calm and I have zero patience when it comes to relationships, even when I KNOW that if I'm not calm, I'll muck it up. For example, I was desperate for my partner to pop the question. Not a day would go past when I wouldn't mention marriage. One day, he bought me an engagement ring. He didn't tell me that he'd bought it (but to me it was obvious he had). That evening we went home. I kept waiting and waiting for him to ask me. In the end, I picked a fight - saying that he was never going to ask me to marry him and that he didn't love me. The Aries temper flared and he got the ring out of the drawer and flung it at me across the room! He said there you go!! Happy now?? I couldn't regret it more. I knew it was stupid, but my emotions just spiraled out of control. Now I have to live with that engagement for the rest of my life. I have to lie when people ask me how he proposed...
I'm scared to deth of rejection too and I'm very insecure.
Sorry, I don't really know what to say to you, I'm no astrologer, but I just wanted you to know that I feel your pain  *Hugs*IP: Logged | |
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