posted September 04, 2011 06:53 PM            

example, my Saturn conjunct my South Node I believe has much to do with a dream I had when I was a young child of being an old woman dieing of leprosy, kept in confinement in a below-ground apartment, feeling extremely sad and lonely and just wanting to die. I had never even heard of leprosy when I had this dream. I was just a little girl. My fingers in this dream were stumps. I woke up and asked my father what a leper is. I believe that it was a past life memory and that I have lived lives with a similar feeling, and that would account for why I now have Saturn on South Node issues in this life.

posted September 04, 2011 06:55 PM            

I am super looking forward to your memories and experiences!

posted September 04, 2011 08:23 PM            

My first jewish husband who died in the holocaust that life has venus conj my south node and vice versa. After we were separate for a while and got back together, it was weird, his eyes started watering as did mine. He said it was just something with his eyes but he's venus/merc in scorpio and male so.. and he's very unexpressive of feelings for anyone.

posted September 04, 2011 09:06 PM            

Most of my relationships, have something on my SN... Also I notice a lot of Composite planets on my Natal SN
Seems like maybe me working out my past karma with them..

I dont have any memory or dreams, recalling past life events.

posted September 05, 2011 12:35 AM            

I have a vivid memory of living in a lush forest as a hermit. I'm sitting at the foot of a familiar oak smoking herbs from a pipe. I close my eyes and smell damp earth. My fingers are playing with the material of my robe, it feels thick and smooth. When I look at my robe it is completely composed of moving energetic shapes and colors. Makes me wonder if I was a naked schizophrenic guy living out in the forests of Ireland or Scotland. It's a cool memory at any rate, and the texture of the robe is just amazing, especially when you realize the whole thing is made of imagination

My most vivid memory is a bit fantastical, but what the hell we're sharing right? I have a vivid memory of being a priest of an indigenous tribe (it appears Mesoamerican in the memory). I was part of a group of people who ascended into “the room beyond”. They all sort of vanished into a space of collective imagination. I chose (or was chosen) to stay behind and help teach others how to ascend. The memory is cool, because I feel as though I am walking between dream and reality, I share mind with every plant and animal in my environment. At a specific point I return home to strangers going through the village where my tribe once lived. I try to talk to them and all attempts completely fail. They keep repeating words at me, most words sound completely alien, but a couple seem familiar. I am just reeling at the fact that I am unable to communicate with them or understand the thoughts spilling from their minds. Their whole constructs are wired completely differently. Intuitively I can feel they desire something and there is urgency, so I figure, "maybe if I attempt to teach them what I know, they will find what they are looking for". Things get fuzzy at this point, I think I sit to meditate (or maybe make them some happy tea) and gesture them to do the same, but they don't. The guy behind me draws his sword and stabs me through the back of the neck, out my throat. My last memory is a feeling of failure at not being able to do what I stayed behind to do.

In all my memories I die of asphyxiation or a throat wound. When I was very little I had a dream of a man walking into my room and slashing my throat. There was no blood, the wound was just a dry gaping hole in my neck. When I woke up I was having an asthma attack and still suffer from asthma on occasion. I would also get too hot at night so I could only sleep with a sheet. Even with the sheet, I had to expose either my feet or head or I would get too hot. I always feared someone coming into my room and cutting off whatever parts were sticking out of the sheet. Every night after much deliberation, I would make the decision to fall asleep with my head sticking out. Loss of feet is a lot of suffering and at least decapitation was quick (I think my earliest memories of this are when I was about 3).

posted September 05, 2011 12:58 AM            

In my more exotic past life dreams, I was a hybrid reptilian married to a human. I felt depressed and was doing some ritual in order to become human in what seemed to be an underground sandstone chamber. At the end of it, there was this umbilical cord stretched out of my center containing a sac with a baby. I felt very relieved.

posted September 05, 2011 01:41 AM            

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Originally posted by mochai:
Your past life memories are amazing Xiiro.

In my more exotic past life dreams, I was a hybrid reptilian married to a human. I felt depressed and was doing some ritual in order to become human in what seemed to be an underground sandstone chamber. At the end of it, there was this umbilical cord stretched out of my center containing a sac with a baby. I felt very relieved.

I know I've been involved in the occult in past lives, I just don't know how much. India always fascinated me. When I was a kid I was always asking if something was in India or if we could go there.

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Wow the lizard memory is intense. I'm surprised we haven't heard any memories from other planets. I met my first and most intense love when we were 11. We feel as though we are not really soul mates, or soul twins, but soul opposites or reflections. He used to call me his light and I called him my shadow. We both have strong memories of spending lifetime after lifetime together. One we shared was simple and kind of silly. We remember in one of the lifetimes when we agreed to be enemies, being two wizards on separate mountain-tops, tossing nature at each other.

posted September 05, 2011 01:42 AM            

Yes, I have a deep wound related to motherhood.
In a life, whihc I believe was the one just before my current one, I experienced the loss of my little son (who was everything to me) in an agressive way, and I could not get over it that life. So, I basically died shortly after him, because I just did not want to live without him.

posted September 05, 2011 03:55 AM            

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Originally posted by mochai:
Some astrologers say having a direct node means nothing, whereas some say it means the soul has the ability to finish everything in that incarnation. Zane anecdotally noted that people with north node direct can be more of a loose cannon when they get older.

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I have SN direct (10th/Leo cj nothing but my MC is in Leo too), I wish I could get everything done lol...

posted September 05, 2011 09:23 AM            

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Originally posted by Xiiro:
Wow the lizard memory is intense. I'm surprised we haven't heard any memories from other planets. I met my first and most intense love when we were 11. We feel as though we are not really soul mates, or soul twins, but soul opposites or reflections. He used to call me his light and I called him my shadow. We both have strong memories of spending lifetime after lifetime together. One we shared was simple and kind of silly. We remember in one of the lifetimes when we agreed to be enemies, being two wizards on separate mountain-tops, tossing nature at each other.

I'm not sure that's an Earth memory.

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That's funny. There's this guy around town that first stood out to me in a really odd way when I was atheist. I was driving a bus route where I averaged more than a thousand passengers a day, but I found myself turned around staring at this one guy I'd never seen before. It was the first time I'd ever done that, and then we started exchanging bemusing facial expressions. I'm pretty sure we were intense enemies in one past life but I get a very chill vibe off of him now

One of my guides takes on the form of a wizard. He always shows up when I've dug myself into a hole. I also get a native american woman sometimes, but she's more proactive.

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Originally posted by sand:
OOHH i just got this now! LOL! my south node is indeed retro. but i was already very wild when i was younger dat wud kinda suck if i can't ever sow my wild oats.

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Well I think kind of like IQ can be a loose cannon in a sense, just saying what he says with a disregard for convention. Although he's more couth.. but here's a slang definition..

posted September 05, 2011 09:37 AM            

This soul mate or soul opposite you met when you were 11.... Do you know the astrological aspects to each other's south node?

posted September 05, 2011 10:36 AM            

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Originally posted by mochai:
I didn't till my life went to dust and I got a lot of kundalini. Siddhis are nothing special and can be a hindrance. There are a lot of people with a lot of siddhis here that don't mention them and I sometimes feel sophmoric doing so.

Some astrologers say having a direct node means nothing, whereas some say it means the soul has the ability to finish everything in that incarnation. Zane anecdotally noted that people with north node direct can be more of a loose cannon when they get older.

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posted September 05, 2011 02:34 PM            

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Originally posted by britterfly:
Xiiro,

This soul mate or soul opposite you met when you were 11.... Do you know the astrological aspects to each other's south node?

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I'm not sure of his time of birth, as I was just a baby astrologer when he and I were together. There are a couple aspects his chart makes to my nodes however.

His Eris is conjunct my SN
His Pluto is opposed my SN
His Neptune is trine my SN
(the above three aspects are true of anyone born near my birth year though)
His Saturn is trine my SN
His Uranus is qunicunx my SN

[EDIT]: Something I just noticed,

I have a yod

Uranus 13 degrees Scorpio
Moon 11 degrees Virgo
SN 12/Eris 13 degrees Aries

His Uranus is 11 degrees Scorpio, so his chart sextiles more perfectly with the moon in my yod.

posted September 05, 2011 04:02 PM            

Sadly no, I don't

I also have Venus in the 12th house

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Several past life astrologers believe that Venus in the 12th house manipulated others with their wealth or beauty and this was the source for their previous undoings.

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posted February 19, 2013 02:07 PM            

I was physically abused when I was younger, which affected me negatively.

I'm definitely very sexual. I have always had a huge problem with authority, as well. I have a greater-than-average need for alone time, too.

Although I have Venus and Mars in my 2nd house, I really do not care that much about material things and my surroundings. I'm very much like a rolling stone who gathers no moss. I feel very weighed down by possessions. Though, the few things I own are all very expensive.

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My Venus is conjunct my ex's Venus, conjunct his SN. The minute I saw him (across a crowded room), I felt as though I 'recognized' him, even though we had never met before (at least, in this lifetime).

I felt as though we had so many deja-vu moments during our relationship. I felt so comfortable with him. I feel that we were together in a past life, but external forces kept us apart. The same thing happened in this life, but I feel that I finally learned my lesson.

posted February 10, 2014 03:50 PM            

Curious to hear other's thoughts about Saturn conj South Node. On another thread, someone was talking about the Paul Walker crash (he was born 1973 same as me) and they said "only the good die young." I had not heard this before but strangely, my best friend used to say that she felt I would either die very young or very old and not really in between.
When I was 19, I was in what could have been a fatal car crash (no seatbelt) but I did not even break a bone. I have been told many times I would live a long time and my lifelines on both hands are long.

I agree with others saying they lived a loooong time "last time" (probably too long) with some was extreme privation or limitations & I must say that sadness and feeling really hung over me as a youngster. I was a super serious kid! It gets better & better as I get older.

This time, my life is very much about my FREEDOM and making individual choices and life path however, can't seem to shake the responsibility theme totally & find it easy to fall back into really stagnant mindset or feeling of restriction that may or not be accurate. (Then again, maybe it's the YOD?) Whew! I seemed determined to burn through a LOT of karma this time around.

I had a very long on/off Venus conj South node connection. (His Venus/ My South Node & Saturn. His moon was loosely conj my North Node.) Our parents were college friends. We knew each other in childhood and would see each other at holidays over the years. Every time we met it was like lightning. We finally got together when I was 26 after leaving a long-time boyfriend. Immediate, unavoidable compulsion to be together but ultimately a hindrance for us both. Very sad and hard connection to break. Took us 11 years to finally get away from each other & we both left bitter to have wasted so much time & tears. When I first broke up with him, he cried like a baby that I had abandoned him. The level of his reaction did not seem to fit the circumstances. He used to say he had dreams about me, about me being with him in different places & then vanishing. He would also joke he didn't understand why he felt so responsible for me. I used to jokingly call him Dad sometimes and his hugs were the most comforting in the world - like I had never felt before & had come home. I could only think of him and he would call or come get me - anytime, anyplace. Later, a medium told me he had been my father before and left me to die as a young infant & basically, our karma was uneven and an "even" connection was not available this time around. I think we both knew and felt it & it made us both sad. Both our lives would devolve and go to sh*t every time we got back together but it was hard to stay away. When he finally let me go, I felt it.

I have someone in my life who has been a spiritual mentor. My Moon & her Moon & Mars are conjunct her South node in Scorpio & my Mars conj her North (orb 2.) She is near my mother's age & I knew her for a decade before she confided she had been my mother before. That is pretty much the role she has this time around as well and we both have to be careful not too lean on each other too heavily or we both get bogged down.