posted September 13, 2011 06:10 PM            

I think you might have a better than avg memory with your Cancer stellium Yes, I have very good memory, I can recreate emotions I was feeling with any given memory or encounter and remember minor details very exactly. This is a good addition to my very sound judgment in accessing others motives.

Neptune's sorta throwing a monkey wrench, with a habit that's not working in your favor, h12 ruler opp h6 ruler across the 3rd 9th axis so a lot of what you go through is all in your mind do you mean I look into things to hard and maybe create something that isn’t really there?

Do you have a habit of not feeling heard, or having to work extra hard to get your point across, that others easily misunderstand you?I often find myself explaining things to others, Yes. But it is usually to give others a different viewpoint on something to help them out. Something I cannot stand is seeing some sort of misunderstanding stand in somebody’s way. And I can be very diligent in making sure that that somebody is helped and supported rather than letting it go and saying “it’s their problem”. This is what I often can help them through tough, when it comes to me , yes I have time and time again come to realize that it is hard for people to understand my concerns to the point in which I’d like them to.

maybe you have some kind of speech disorder or something with the way your mind processes info which is not the same as most others.I have no idea how this is suppose to play out but If there is one thing I am good at, it is listening, understanding and communicating. My intuition + communication are first nature to me. So contrary to this I can actually be a very presentable speaker, but only when I need to be. I usually choose to listen until I need to speak.

All this bit about misunderstandings doesn't help emotional stability leaving you perhaps not sure where you stand when you try to communicate your more higher minded ideals Yes, there are times when I can be at total emotional lows because of this. It is usually the result of somebody very close to me disappointing me in some way that does not agree with some of my “higher ideals.” They will not understand what I am upset about. I was with someone for 8 years last year. He is a wonderful person but over the years I realized we were unhappy because we had been fighting about the same thing but just with different situations for years. Every time we fought about anything it resulted in my asking him “Don’t you trust me? If you love me and care for me then whyyy?” I often find it very hard to dael with people who are not as open and trusting as I am. He has been my best friend for 8 years and I love him and always will but there is some sort of a wall between us. The last year and a half has been about the worst time of my life so far. So many out of the blue things have happened that have led to things getting more complicated.

The Cancer MC, with Moon in Cancer has an orientation to feel its way through life, the path is mapped out by what you're processing through the environment, the feelers that you're picking up on, conj Mars the sensitivity can be raw and prone to overreact, conj Merc it projects all you're feeling in a vocal way so it's gonna be hard to keep quiet, in the 9th so expressed as your ideologies, if you have a faith you may feel it strongly as a shelter from the storm you experience with that tendency to absorb neg bs from the environment. All this is very much makes sense. I do feel my way through everything I do. All my emotions are expressed as ideologies and those in turn lead me to have faith in things which are attached to my emotions very strongly.

I found it sorta interesting the SN is in 12th so that is the orientation you came here with and in Libra feeling unable to act alone, like you always needed someone by your side to feel comfy to venture out If you could explain this further, what SN in 12th means. But you are right about me needing someone by my side to feel comfy. This I strange to stay but I’ve always felt empty, ever since I can remember. I’ve never felt like a completed whole. I have this feeling that something is missing within me. I always have this feeling. Like I’m on quest to find somebody that understands me. I love so many people and and am close to so many but none of them fill that void. I have a deep yearning for something and some how I know I am looking to find something. I remember feeling this more strongly as a child. Don’t know why this has always been a constant feeling within me. One of my biggest fears is that I will never find what im looking for and have this empty feeling for ever.

You're still a spiritual in tune sensitive sort of person, acting on your own, paying attn to practical realities, the fact that other people need a certain degree of logical reasoning to take serious what you say, is not gonna take you away from that. It may be a necessary evil to interact with the world in a more positive way but it's not gonna change who you are. my spirit is what leads me, I have come to learn the hard way that trying to abandon it to change for more logical reasons never resulted in any good for me.

I don't know if it's you deceiving others or yourself, if that is the case, but it doesn't help much in the long run when your feeling are at stake hahaha I am definitely deceiving myself, that is how I get into all my problems. My emotional side sometimes refuses to encourage what my logical side is seeing so that my emotional side can “feel its way through” the situation properly.

If you're an intuitive sort of person just stay with it, if you pick up e.s.p. things, just try to protect yourself, psychic protection, if it's throwing your mind off if it interferes with day to day living what do you mean by psychic protection?

posted September 13, 2011 10:02 PM            

"trying to abandon it to change for more logical reasons never resulted in any good for me."
---It looks like the crossed wires are within.

"what do you mean by psychic protection?"
--- http://www.judyhall.co.uk/protection.htm

posted September 14, 2011 04:21 PM            

If i could ask further, I would like to know one other thing.

what in your opinion does my chart tell you about my my love life How do i give love and how will i recieve love, if any.