posted September 17, 2011 04:52 PM            

Chron conjunct Mars

Chiron trine ascendant

Chiron square Venus

Which also means that Chiron is square my Moon and my Nodes, and trine my Uranus. It's back *again*, and has been the biggest bugaboo in the past eighteen months - along with Saturn, Pluto and Neptune.

I was just wondering what other people had experienced in the same way. If Chiron had you feeling like there was just no point, and crying like there was no tomorrow (and taking - I've experienced more death in the past fifteen months, than I have since I was a child/teenager.

Saturn in Libra has been digging up things from his last go-around there, only this time, I'm noticing the good, rather than hiding. And I mean the good in people, not in the experiences (the only good thing I took from it as a kid, was that I was more understanding and compassionate of the other side of things, having developed sevee social anxiety - I'd already been kind, but now I'd actually experienced it for myself - I also met good people who were/are dealing with that). I'm working on relationships, though, rather than just letting people go, out of fear

posted October 29, 2011 11:09 AM            

My mom died on the 29th of last month (sept.) when T.Chiron was at 1'29 R Pisces.

Apart from that a lot of sextiles/trines from transiting planets to my natal AND T.Mars (6*30) entering my 12th and on my (12th-ruler) Sun (7*25). No idea if you can call that significant transits for a day your mom dies.. (in fact a day that I became an orphan as my dad already died).

The funeral speech I wrote was too rebellious for the church and so I had one big fight with my sis while the pastor forced me to make the words a bit softer. So that's what I did, a bit more poetry and everybody was happy. Behind the words the heavy smell of a cruel reality... loved it!
Guess what also; at the day of this very nice funeral T. Sun was exactly conjunct my natal Uranus (I have a Sun/Uranus in natal).

Regarding the long influence of Chiron;
In May hospital/surgery (still recovering) and in June we broke up (me/pisces) so... wow... yes, an OVER-SENSITIVE time... pffft ; ) All at the same time.. and in hospital I became hysterical in front of pisces like a volcano that had to erupt.. well, all-the-way-long I instinctively knew he wanted something I couldn't give to make something out of his life..

posted October 29, 2011 11:21 AM            

My cousin died on August 9th - a year to the day that we buried my grandmother. She was either right at the end of Sadge or the beginning of Capricorn, aged 40 (December 21st, 1970 - I think, I'm really bad with some birthdays, remembering them incorrectly, even though I've been reminded). I wanted to look at her chart last December, but then felt too scared to. Chiron and Neptune would have been sextile her Sun - Chiron when she was diagnosed last year, and Neptune moving in there this year. Uranus, too - squaring her Sun, and Pluto having moved over it a few years ago.

Last year, I had a relationship of sorts, severely damaged, and then taken to the irreparable stage. It might have been saved, had the other person not been blind to their own shortcomings.
* Cat died, and then my grandmother died.
*Dog died in January, when I was sick and bedbound with a back problem.
* Cousin died in August.
* Two cats died in August, and two in September, from some unexpected virus hitting, most likely brought home from the one who went missing for a night.

We're all worn out. I've had self-esteem challenges. I think I was almost manic last year, and this year I'm just more sad and angry, with the odd good days. But I think I already said this above. I started out the year feeling hopeful and determined, but the feeling left me in late Spring, and hasn't come back for long.