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Topic: So NOW I know I've lost my mind!
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Lioness
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posted October 27, 2011 08:49 PM
  
Sighhhh....
Im not even sure what to say for myself...
What have I done??Well a friend of mine a co-worker got into some trouble at work. She has been suspended..
She called me really upset, and was telling me the story...
I felt really bad, because for the most part its a misunderstanding, but it looks really bad on her part...
Anyways so told me another story, some what relevant to this situation, but that it could also be taken for something else...
She told me that pisces was aware of this.. She asked me to call him, and ask him if he was questioned about it..
I said sighhhh... we dont talk anymore, she said PLEASSSSSSEEEEEEEE...
I know he will talk to you, and tell you.. Pretty Please...
sighhhhhhhh..
So I said ok... I swallowed my pride and said yes...
I called his office number, he answered, I asked if we could squash our disagreement for 5 mins because I have something to ask you..
He said ok.
So I asked him about the situation, he told me everything I needed to know..
I said ok thanks for your time.. He said yeah... Then he just kept talking to me... We ended up talking for about an hour..
At the end of the conversation. He said were cool again.. Everything is dropped..
I agreed and said yes...
That was yesterday... So today... IDK Im awful... LOL
I saw him, and I totally ignored him... (this is "part" of the reason, we stopped talking... we had an argument but we made up after the argument, but I was really upset over it..
So I started ignoring and avoiding him.. I couldnt even look at him.. So today when I saw him, I felt the same way.. I just couldnt look at him.. Everytime I turned around he was there..
So at one point I saw him, I quickly turned and went another direction... We did see each other face to face.. He said hi.. I said Hi very lowly... but kept walking away really fast... Later I saw him again, and we locked eyes and just stared at each other..
I could feel him piercing me...
I hate when he does that!
I turned and walked away.. IDK..... I wasnt even thinking about calling him, but I was glad I did, but when I saw him, I freaked out and couldnt look at him! WTF is wrong with me... Why cant I keep him out of my life  I was feeling so much better, and I was getting over all the mess, than bam it has to smack me in the face AGAIN!! Im never going to be able to get away from this..
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amelia28
Knowflake Posts: 342
From: dumont, CO
Registered: Aug 2011
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posted October 27, 2011 08:59 PM
IDK your story well so I can be off but it sounds like you two have good chemistry and the intensity of the chemistry scares you so you avoid him. IP: Logged |
Lioness
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posted October 27, 2011 09:12 PM
Yeah something like that...
Chemistry yes.. but IDK....
Its a long story...
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Lonake
Moderator Posts: 5682
From: U.S.
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted October 27, 2011 09:47 PM
It sounds to me like mentally you were OK enough to pick up the phone and make that call and stay on the phone, but when you saw him your emotional reaction to him dictated your actions, surprising yourself, but you went with your emotions instead of putting them aside and being more open with him like he thought you were gonna be by the 'we're cool' statement. So now he might think you're manipulative cos you got inside info from him and then was cold to him, hence dagger eyes. Sounds like he was completely behind the 'we're cool' statement 100% but you weren't. I'd be doing daggers too lol."than bam it has to smack me in the face AGAIN!!"
---I think the fact that you 2 prolonged the conversation longer than it had to be is what is driving you up the wall. Boundaries, remember all the Neptune you have right now? lol. I have Moon and Sun and Venus conj Neptune right now. Aye, I think I have a stable foundation and then I do something that wrecks it. IP: Logged |
Lioness
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posted October 27, 2011 09:53 PM
Yeah I do see your point... I can see how it would like look I was just trying to get info.. I was glad to talk to him... But yes when I saw him, I didnt know how to react or what to do.. I just ran.. I guess.. I feel really bad, but it was just instinct i guess..
Im really not sure why I did it..
OO wait!! It was the force! The force did it..
I guess I can count that as my mars sq his moon... LOL He has T. neptune conjunct his Sun right now..
Both are opps my Mars.. My Neptune is conjunct his moon... (together) we are stuck in neptune h e l l...... IP: Logged |
CosmicKarma360
Knowflake Posts: 338
From: here and there
Registered: Sep 2010
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posted October 28, 2011 01:45 AM
It's probably wrong for me to say this, but I wish you two crazy kids would get back together already!!  The suspense is killing me!  IP: Logged |
anongrl10
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Registered: Sep 2011
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posted October 28, 2011 04:43 AM
LOL I don;t know your story, but since you know it was wrong not to say hi to him and you already feel bad about it, why don't u call him and say so? Just say im sorry i didnt talk to you earlier or if i gave the impression that im avoiding you. Just talk to him explain to him your own bewilderment with your own reaction. He will appreciate it, im sure!IP: Logged |
Lioness
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posted October 28, 2011 09:09 PM
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Originally posted by anongrl10:
LOL I don;t know your story, but since you know it was wrong not to say hi to him and you already feel bad about it, why don't u call him and say so? Just say im sorry i didnt talk to you earlier or if i gave the impression that im avoiding you. Just talk to him explain to him your own bewilderment with your own reaction. He will appreciate it, im sure!
Yeah well.. here's where my leo comes into play...
Nahhhh.... Im not apologizing....
Was I wrong yeap... sort of... But its what I felt.. I dont feel I need to apologize because of my feelings..
Basically it is, what it is...
I ran for what ever reason... Its not meant to be.. I dont want to go through all that again. So I dont want him to think, that I am willing to be the same...
Part of it was destroyed... IP: Logged |
YoursTrulyAlways
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Registered: Oct 2011
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posted October 29, 2011 06:47 PM
Lioness,Is he at the office with you? Don't mean to butt into your business, but I'm just trying to figure it out. IP: Logged |
Lioness
Knowflake Posts: 3311
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Registered: Mar 2010
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posted October 29, 2011 07:27 PM
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Originally posted by YoursTrulyAlways:
Lioness,Is he at the office with you? Don't mean to butt into your business, but I'm just trying to figure it out.
We work in the same building, but different departments.. Our offices are down the hall and around 2 corners.. LOL...
His office is near the entrance/exit..
So I have to pass by his office to come and go, which I go in and out of the office all day..
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Lioness
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posted October 30, 2011 10:19 PM
Well I spoke with him this morning... I didnt apologize nor explain myself.. But I knew he wouldnt ask anyways... IDK why this keeps going back and fourth... I so stupid, stupid stupid stupid..
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YoursTrulyAlways
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posted October 30, 2011 10:32 PM
Not going to resolve itself until both of you take a lunch hour or two away from the office and sit in some hotel lobby face-to-face (without stuffing your faces) and hash it all out. Or better yet, side by side on a couch, and then kiss and make up, and then preferrably not adjourn upstairs lolIP: Logged |
Lioness
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posted October 30, 2011 10:35 PM
Sadly that will never happen... This is just one of those Karmic connection, that I cant get out of.. No matter what I do to get away.. Something always bring us back to talking... I really dont want to go this route again... IP: Logged |
YoursTrulyAlways
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posted October 30, 2011 10:37 PM
Then someone has to leave the company.IP: Logged |
Lioness
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posted October 30, 2011 10:42 PM
Thats what Ive been thinking... Ive been there 17years he's been there 12 years, so its prob not gonna happen.. LOL IP: Logged |
YoursTrulyAlways
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posted October 30, 2011 10:44 PM
Oh good grief  Perhaps you two are meant to be together! IP: Logged |
Lioness
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posted October 30, 2011 10:50 PM
I dont think so, we just have some heavy karma to work through and I guess the universe figured the only way to do that is to work together, so we have no choice but to remain in contact, even when we are not on speaking terms, we STILL have to deal with one another.. You see its not in either one of our characters to remain in contact like this with someone..
Were both runners~!
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