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Topic: Saturn's lessons..... why.......
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MertSerimer Knowflake Posts: 724 From: where the fun is Registered: Mar 2011
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posted November 12, 2011 03:39 PM
Currently having Saturn square Saturn transit...One week ago, i suddenly lost my grandfather and at the same day i learned that my uncle has level 4(last stage) cancer and he has several weeks... After that day, I and father luckily survived an accident like jupiter in 12th house.... And for all these moments, as being moon in pisces, conjunct ascendant in first house combo, i couldnt drop a single tear... Why am i the always the cold blooded... Why do i cry in a stupid movie but not in these situations... Why am i always the one who has to be strong at these moments... It is the pluto thing i guess.. I suddenly realized that, (as a guy being that moon combo, venus in sagittarus, venus trine jupiter guy etc) i am not capable of real love.... I dont have venus/neptune but i never fall in love, but i just love the situations that is created in my mind, AND i put the personalities into the bodies that l like and then i call it love !!!, actually i have never been in really love... I am highly spiritual and i have tremendous awareness thus in my opinion i am not capable of it..... I rarely understand true gift.. i rarely thank God for my good conditions... Why do i always think i deserve better?... Why do i never satisfy with whatever i have? Why am i always right at the end? Why do i like feel that i will let down the people who loves me ? i make them dissapointed? At the end i will turn my back to them? Is this their karma or mine? Why am i so harsh on myself? I think these were a few of the Saturn's lessons for now and i fail to learn it.... Saturn is good in my chart so i hope i will learn it someday..... IP: Logged |
SmilingHeart Knowflake Posts: 275 From: Registered: Oct 2010
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posted November 12, 2011 04:41 PM
My God! I'm really sorry for your loss, my dear! What a horrible time you've had. I'm sure you are capable of real love. You're young that's why you've never really loved so far. I'm your age and I haven't truly loved anybody either. Someday you'll meet someone who will break your ice. And don't worry about the crying. Some people cry in those situations and some don't. You have to be strong because that is probably the role you've been given by your family and friends. If you don't want to be the strong one, the rock everybodie's leaning on, you should allow yourself to show weakness to others. But maybe the lack of tears is just your way to cope. One does not have to cry to be truly sad. Don't think that. I hope everything will get better soon! Take care, my dear. IP: Logged |
MertSerimer Knowflake Posts: 724 From: where the fun is Registered: Mar 2011
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posted November 12, 2011 07:21 PM
quote: Originally posted by SmilingHeart: My God! I'm really sorry for your loss, my dear! What a horrible time you've had. I'm sure you are capable of real love. You're young that's why you've never really loved so far. I'm your age and I haven't truly loved anybody either. Someday you'll meet someone who will break your ice. And don't worry about the crying. Some people cry in those situations and some don't. You have to be strong because that is probably the role you've been given by your family and friends. If you don't want to be the strong one, the rock everybodie's leaning on, you should allow yourself to show weakness to others. But maybe the lack of tears is just your way to cope. One does not have to cry to be truly sad. Don't think that. I hope everything will get better soon! Take care, my dear.
Thanks for nice words. IP: Logged |
MertSerimer Knowflake Posts: 724 From: where the fun is Registered: Mar 2011
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posted November 13, 2011 05:00 AM
Also despite i am a lot of sagittarus, i never felt so pessimistic till now.
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Lioness Knowflake Posts: 3480 From: Registered: Mar 2010
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posted November 13, 2011 05:02 AM
Its all because you left me at the alter You propose then take off... Damn Sag's!! LOL IP: Logged |
MertSerimer Knowflake Posts: 724 From: where the fun is Registered: Mar 2011
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posted November 13, 2011 05:08 AM
quote: Originally posted by Lioness: Its all because you left me at the alter You propose then take off... Damn Sag's!! LOL
So you are saying i am getting punished? Karma is a bi**h!!! I was afraid of commitment but at that time it seemed nice IP: Logged |
Lioness Knowflake Posts: 3480 From: Registered: Mar 2010
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posted November 13, 2011 05:10 AM
Im just trying to cheer you up.... note to self:
never accept a proposal via net... LOL IP: Logged |
RedScorp Knowflake Posts: 449 From: Ontario, Canada! Registered: Jul 2011
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posted November 13, 2011 05:13 AM
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Lioness Knowflake Posts: 3480 From: Registered: Mar 2010
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posted November 13, 2011 05:15 AM
LAST NIGHTS SUPERNATURAL!!!!!!!!!!!!I was ROLLING when she said that! poor SAM...... He straight married her, and kicked Dean to the CURB! LMFAO!!!!!! IP: Logged |
RedScorp Knowflake Posts: 449 From: Ontario, Canada! Registered: Jul 2011
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posted November 13, 2011 05:18 AM
MMPFF...SAM AND DEAN... That makes me supah happy. I ship them, so hard. I don't care that they're brothers. >w> IP: Logged |
Lioness Knowflake Posts: 3480 From: Registered: Mar 2010
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posted November 13, 2011 05:22 AM
I have two fav episodes.. The (bad) wishing well.. The lil girl wish her teddy bear real.. He was real, big with bi polar reading porn and drinking... Then he blew the stuffing out of his head... OOO And the guy that could control peoples minds.. He told Dean give me your car! Dean said OK.... I love that Impala. bad azz car! I love Dean... yummy IP: Logged |
Lioness Knowflake Posts: 3480 From: Registered: Mar 2010
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posted November 13, 2011 05:27 AM
Here these ones.. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5l9weXq85q8 oo and scared Dean Hilarious! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WtSeo4Erel4 IP: Logged |
RedScorp Knowflake Posts: 449 From: Ontario, Canada! Registered: Jul 2011
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posted November 13, 2011 05:29 AM
Ya know Jared Padalecki wants to have the impala when the series ends? All the memories, man!I first saw images and GIFs of Supernatural on Tumblr. So when I first heard Dean, I WAS SHOCK-ED. All gruff and hurgydergyehd. I don't regularly watch the show, but I'm up to date on it. And my one friend, she's super into Supernatural, always tumbls images and GIFs. SO I HAVE AN ENDLESS SUPPLY OF SUPERNATURAL thanks to Tumblr. IP: Logged |
Lioness Knowflake Posts: 3480 From: Registered: Mar 2010
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posted November 13, 2011 05:33 AM
I love that show... hehehehe.. Sorry for the hijack Mert! IP: Logged |
RedScorp Knowflake Posts: 449 From: Ontario, Canada! Registered: Jul 2011
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posted November 13, 2011 05:40 AM
Yeeeeeeeeah, I apologize, Mert. We had a nerd moment.IP: Logged |
Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 21727 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010
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posted November 13, 2011 09:00 AM
Mert---- xxxx------------------ Want a peek in to my journal? http://www.mychristianpsychic.com/
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