posted November 20, 2011 04:59 AM
i wanted to start a general thread about pluto; of course though, something led me up to it and i thought i'd add that as a reply and for anyone who reads it, they could reply or they could just take part in the thread and everybody wins!what had me post this was that i got an invite today to a birthday party and it's from somebody that has a pluto link with me in synastry.. thing is, i'm torn between being thrilled and flattered for being objectified sexually by them and also the person i met them through, and also slightly uneasy about the whole thing!
i didn't really understand why, but the person that introduced the 'party' person to me used to invite me places and i thought they were really sweet and of course, i thought they were just being nice til one day when i get invited over for dinner with two of their friends and once the friends leave, they stood in between me and the door to not let me leave til after their friends left (that was the case - i gather that they're projecting their and i being together when we're not~); then it clicked as to why they wanted me to be there about an hr or two before their friends.. silly me, right?
well, the party person, is already in a relationship but they've kinda done the same thing.. they've hinted at 'other' things a few times and i let em know that i'm not comfortable with that but still, they've invited me to their party and though i've said to them that i'm not comfortable with the whole relationship thing and their coming on to me sexually; with the type of work that i do, it isn't necessarily an 'invite' but rather, it's business (at least to me, it is).
what can i do to claim that plutonic vibe and turn the tables all in my favor? because right now, there's a love/hate feeling going with the whole being objectified by both of them -- the things that i share with you guys and that i talk about, i'm being myself, i'm open and real.. i'm some product around them and it's a little weird because product's aren't 'real' and i'm very real..
so, i dunno...
i'm thinking that i've better get on my pretty pony as i do have some pluto links with these people and i have a feeling that they adore me to my face but behind closed doors, they've said things that have led me to believe that they're calling each other to discuss whatever they know about me over their microwaved meals! it only makes me uncomfortable because it does deal with work and because there's no really set line between work and personal relations here, so.... that, and, one of them has shown small signs of being vindictive and a little bit of a sh*t talker out of insecurity to prop themselves up.
i'm not sure if i'd have to let it slide or open up a can of whoop a$s if there ever was a first time of it happening..
i'm thinking that i'll just have to create and present to them an alter ego so that none of it affects me in any way! :/
and yeah, if you guessed it, you probably guessed right; if there was a chain of command, they'd be the 'higher ups' so i'm trying to be civil here because if something were to happen, i'm not so sure that i'd have the upper hand, so to speak.
at least, not yet.