posted December 27, 2011 12:43 AM
Well, I finally disowned my brother - on Christmas nonetheless. His attitude towards me for the past three weeks has broken the camel's back, and I am completely and totally apathetic towards his existence. If he disappeared, I would only care because of my father. As for me, I just don't care anymore. And might I add: good riddance. Of course, he'll tell everyone that he's disowned me because he was sick of me... but he'll always know the truth.
I have Saturn conj Uranus in the 3rd house. They often say that the 3rd house rules your siblings. With Saturn in that house, to say that my brother was a burden in my life is an understatement. I practically raised him because my mother was emotionally and sometimes physically absent. Sometimes around high school, his whole personality changed. He became this very angry, entitled ******* .
He likes to call me to ask for money. He'll harass me until I'll give him cash. He'll threaten to ask our father, knowing that my father will give him the money out of a sense of duty even if he's barely making by nowadays, so I'll feel guilty because I feel a great sense of duty to my father. He's passive aggressive and petty. He's threaten to hit me multiple times when I do anything that even slightly irritates him, which is everything. He's threatened to hurt my cat if I don't come home and give him the car. He'll often leave the house with the car we're supposed to share without telling me, leaving me stranded at home. He then calls me a lazy ***** because I don't go out. Go figure.
He spends literally hundreds of dollars within a week on materialistic items like new clothes, alcohol, etc when it should be for his books and his overdue fraternity dues. Yet he has never (and I mean NEVER) bought my father or I a gift. Not. once. For anything. He takes credit for the smallest things he does, yet gives people no appreciation when they do anything for him. I gave up going to college because my father couldn't afford to send the both of us. I opted to work and let my brother go. You know what he said to me, "I never asked you to do that for me, so why should I be thankful?"
I've paid for our phone bill for the past 2 years. He likes to buy the newest, most expensive phones and doesn't pay a dime for his service. Since it's a family plan, I couldn't cancel it (last month I eventually just left and gave the extra $200 bill to my mom to pay, who also doesn't pay for the family bill) and I don't ask my father to pay for anything because he's paying for things for my mother, who just like my brother... doesn't pay for anything, including all utilities and taxes on the house.
I've calculated that I've had to pay over $5k extra because of my brother, and I have no one else to blame but myself... I should have cut him off a long time ago, even if he's my brother. I just felt... so horrible. I grew up in a home where you have a duty to take care of family. Oh, how delusional that is sometimes...
So here's our synastry chart. I'm interested in what you guys think about his chart and our synastry. This person... just confounds me. Someone who was always taken cared of, always loved, given so many opportunities... and what does he do? He treats my father and I like **** , and even though I was the one who called him out on his horrible behavior... he's ignoring my father completely because he agreed with what I said to him. My father who is paying for his tuition, who raised him, treated him with so much love... Of course, my brother hasn't completely blocked him out of his life. I guarantee he'll come around to ask for money again...
I only care about it astrologically, though. I can say wholeheartedly that I just simply don't give a **** about that person anymore. I'm just so angry and disappointed that I've lost a sibling more than anything... The time spent, the money spent, the effort spent to keep someone alive... all gone. All wasted on someone so selfish, so entitled.
But I'm glad that I lost HIM. I really am. I'm not sorry for anything. /rant