posted April 02, 2012 10:46 AM
??, 1991. Dunedin, Florida. ?? EST. - Female1. Describe yourself in any way you wish, at any length.
Creative, cynical, witty, wise.
2. Tell me about any emotional event in your life and how it effected you internally.
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Do you find it easy or difficult to relate to your emotions?
Today, my dad is coming home from prison. I haven't seen him in years. I'm aware that I should feel excited, or sad, or anything at all, but the truth is, I'm feigning any emotions. I know I definitely don't want him to stay, and I definitely would rather him be here, but my emotions work in a weird way. I know it's a positive feeling, but I'm numb. Unless it's a sense of complete urgency, where anger or fear would need to be an immediate response for a survivalist reason, I sometimes don't know how major events affect me until years down the line. So I would say I never really know how anything affects me internally until long after it's happened, and I'm quiet about it. The same thing happened when my mother had a heart attack just several days ago. I handled it the same way.
I would say it's neither easy nor difficult to relate to my emotions because it's an organic process that occurs essentially without my knowledge. I keep a cooler head no matter what, and automatically wind up in leadership roles based on my ability to do so.
3. Do you find it easy or difficult to communicate your thoughts and ideas to people?
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Do you find it easy or difficult to understand complex concepts that people attempt to explain to you?
Most often, I'm excellent at communicating my thoughts and ideas to people, but I won't even bother doing it unless my thought or idea is the most effective or has the most factual correctness and logic behind it. I don't find it difficult to understand complex concepts that people try to explain to me, as long as they're about sensical things. If someone tries to explain their own complex thought process to me, I become lost if it isn't an efficient way to think.
4. What does love mean to you?
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What types of things (objects or actions) do you like that is relatively unique to you?
Love is the ultimate friendship with a member of the sex you find attractive. Love is NOT having to be up someone's ass constantly, or worrying about losing someone or being cheated on. Unless you have that ultimate comfortable state where you're not worried about loss, abuse, or infidelity, that's what love is.
What types of things, objects or actions do I like that is relatively unique to me? Since this was under the love category, I'm going to assume it's intended to mean in a love situation. I would say that my perfect kind of date is Taco Bell and a movie in bed. Love should be an escape from your every day stresses and your partner should be able to see you both at your best and your worst and be accepting of you in both ways.
If this doesn't have to do specifically with the love category, I like victorian medical antiques, collecting insects, coffee table sized art books, authentic foreign food, and unique literature.
5. How motivated of a person are you?
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When you become angry, how do you relate to that feeling?
I'm very motivated as long as it's for an important reason.
Anger is usually an immediate response to something, and if it's a problem or something that needs to be fixed, I handle it on the spot so that I don't have to revisit the issue or situation.
6. If you were to abbreviate your personal ethic system into a saying or thought, how would you do so?
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Describe a situation where you felt a personal growth in yourself or your belief structure.
Eat the rich. Art is a religion. First do no harm.
I can't isolate a single situation where I felt personal growth in my belief structure. It's evolved this way, and as time has passed without it ceasing to work for me, I've kept it.
7. How would you define responsibility?
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Do you consider yourself a responsible person?
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How often do you suffer from depressive tendencies?
I would define responsibility, essentially as independence. If you are irresponsible, you need to be codependent on someone who isn't.
I do consider myself a responsible person.
I only suffer from depressive tendencies related to hormones, but I'm able to rationalize them as they arise.
8. If you were to describe one aspect of yourself that is different from what you view to be normal, what would it be?
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What type of activities do you find to be the most thrilling, exciting, or reckless?
I think that the least normal thing about me is my overwhelming desire to be inhuman. That sounds alarming at first. I don't want to be an animal, or a mythical creature. I just want to evolve into the next step above human, because I feel like staying here is weighing me down.
Here's where I start to sound boring. I find bargain hunting to be thrilling and exciting. I find exploring abandoned buildings with dark history behind them to be all three. Ultimately, as you can see, it varies across the board.
9. Describe briefly your idea of romance, and how important it is in your life?
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Do you find yourself indulging in fantasies often (daydreams or actively)?
Romance is not at all important to me. I would say that love is significant, but love and romance are significantly different concepts in my eyes. To me, romance is something unrealistic and childish. There are so many romance fiction novels because you'll never find a nonfiction situation in which "romance" has actually been the way that it's often portrayed to be. I think you would have to lack the ability to express emotions properly and effectively if you're a "hopeless romantic" type.
I do find myself indulging in fantasies when I lay down to sleep or nap, but seldom to never do they involve love.
10. How easy or difficult is it for you to handle major change?
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What is your personal definition of obsession?
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Have you ever obsessed over something, if so, what?
It depends on the change. If it's necessary than I absolutely embrace it. If there are other ways to effectively handle a situation that don't involve drastic measure, then I resent excessively wasting effort for an unnecessary change.
An obsession is a strong preference about something that dictates how you live your life and what decisions you make.
I have an obsessive tendency about the way things are packaged. If I feel they're packaged inefficiently, I will refuse to buy or use them. This is an obsession that effects my job, but not in a way that's difficult to work around.
11. How do other people in general view you as a person?
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What is your opinion of their view?
Opinions of me are all across the board. Those who have negative views of me tend to be people that everyone would agree are not very good people, and they dislike me because if they try to become involved in my life, I don't hesitate to tell them that I want no part of what they're about.
People who have positive opinions of me tend to be generally good people with good intentions.
I don't have an opinion of anyone's view. That's their view. If they don't like me, I don't care about them. If they do like me, then that's wonderful.
Lindaland
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