posted May 16, 2012 12:23 PM            

what happened to your twin? Is he still in the picture?

Or are you just unsettled by this new one"

Hey girl..how are you?

Ok so this is the interesting part. My twin told me about 6 months ago that he was in an open relationship with someone and had been since the day we met and that he just couldnt bring himself to tell me.
Actually it was me that dreamed about it and then forced him to tell me.
Sooooo...it took me a while to sort this. Like what exactly is going to happen between him and I?
And I came to the conclusion around the end of March that there was nothing I could do about it really. I mean I can't be a third wheel and I was sad about it for a while and confused about how this would play out in my life. But it just doesnt feel right to sit and wait for someone like that. I could forsee the dark ahead if I stayed.
But I've realized that I don't need him physically. I have him on the highest level that we exist and to not have him here is ok I think he is having a harder time with that than I am.....but for me this reality is just an illusion. And I have to do what I came to do, and I dont really need him by my "side" so to speak. Its just amazing that I found him and that he is here.
He says that he can't just leave the other guy even though he knows that I am his twin because that goes against his personal ethics. Like that you should never leave someone to be with someone. You should leave because you want to leave.
I totally understand that though and the need for me to learn to function in a multidimensional way could only be accomplished this way.....and because my ego does not get in the way I am allowing myself to go with the plan that I made for this lifeline and see how it goes.
I think the "Happily ever after" programming we all have tends to make us want to be with our twin physically and then be overwhelmingly sad when we can't. But that doesnt mean you cannot do the work you came to do. And its been amazing to watch him open up to full potential. He is a powerful man through and through a warrior and a leader for many lives and now he is learning what love is...and if I am not strong enough then he will not learn fully and complete his cycle this lifeline.

So I dont think relationship will be a romantic one in this lifetime...but because I want to be in a relationship with someone, I had a dream about how to transfer his Energy to someone else, should he ever decide to take it back he could try but I perhaps could be in the same situation and I will not leave a good thing for him, it will create Karma and I don't want any Karmic ties with Gaia now that Im said and done.
Who knows how this story will be told the rest is still unwritten.
But I had to put myself first you know something Ive always been unable to do in the past but have gained strength and training to do so since we found each other.....sometimes its harder said than done the self love thing...... But I just couldnt be a matyr this time around. And what's strange is that my dreams became so intense after that and since then I have dreamed every night very vividly of scenarios from past lives and my dreams have been sort of explorations of different life lines...some I am a wife, some I am a little boy, some I am a medicine women type deal, others I am old wiseman....its like each dream I get dumped in I have to figure out what aspect of me I am "acting through"...much in the way Ive learned to do in reality.
But there is something good in this because Ive honestly never been happier, more complete, or so mentally strong and sound.
I feel like I am unmovable force.
Everything in my life is going so well that I feel charmed and thankful everyday.
He truly did help me finishing healing in a way no one else could have, we are one just not in this reality.

Whats more is that shortly there after I met this guy and thought nothing of our connection until the past 2 weeks....but he is persistent and I feel myself starting to give him Energy.

I know this sounds completely insane...lol
Gotta love this crazy thing call life.

posted May 16, 2012 09:55 PM            

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Originally posted by oneruledbymars:
@Lioness...you wrote:
I say you go for it
Take it slow, and see what happens.
The only thing That I didnt like is Mars/Saturn
But maybe you two will behave

Sun/Pluto..
Even eros pluto

I love the venus/jupiter and venus/neptune..
(hey I like it)

As for fishy.. Long story we started talking again 7 months ago, became friends, then both confessed feelings.. We have been "trying" but cant always get on the same page..
We became obsessed with each other, but they we both freaked out and pulled away.
We talk just about everyday..
He tells me oo the sweetest things.. You know the Leo gal always falls for the flattery..
But the feelings between us, get very deep so deep that we are not sure how to handle them...
Its kinda scary.. But Im just taking it one day at a time...
JUST LIKE you should with Mr. Charming here!!
Go get em!!!
He sounds sexy...
......

There is a bit of a power struggle between us but it feels like its mostly because we don't know each other yet and both of us have really strong boundaries and personalities. So its like to rogue male lions circling each other looking for flaws or reasons to walk away.
Taking those boundaries down and learning to to play nice with each other is definitely going to be a learning process.
*deep breathe*
Yes one day at a time.
What else is there to do?

Do you and fishy have any Mars/Saturn or Pluto/Sun interaction going on?
Just curious.
It;s cute you two talk everyday.
Im so happy for you...I can tell that he makes your heart smile and I feel like it's been a while since you've been in such a good place.
I feel like you are on the path to creating your own bit of "heaven on Earth"...no?

There has been a definite expansion of your heart Chakra in the past year.

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Just try talking it out, and being honest with each other.
I think that Jupiter will help out..
Use Jupiter to get to know each other..
Go slow, there is no rush... Sorry about your twin.. Man that bites!
Im sure that was hard on you. Maybe he was to prepare you for this guy.. fingers crossed, fingers crossed..

As for fishy,
in synastry
my pluto quinx his sun
My pluto sextile his moon (its a DW)

His pluto sextile my sun,moon,merc
No saturn/mars in synastry

In the composite is "where" its all at.
Moon/Pluto/Jupiter all conjunct
all 3 opps venus
Venus/Mars both trine Saturn.

With the moon/jupiter we are able to discuss what ever problems we have with each other. Added Saturn we do it very maturely even though we have Sun opps Mars. Saturn stabilizes it.
He once text me I dislike when you do that, I said OK Good to know! That was that, it was dropped..
But we have moon/mars (me mars) so I hurt his feelings ALOT!!!
I say damn Im in trouble again huh?? He says yeap.. then he tells me why his feelings got hurt... lol

Its the pluto thats a killer, the intense emotions, the obsession, now he's showing jealousy and I see him wanting to control me. (me pluto in H7) So yeah I know ALL about this.. I mellow him out, we havent had an argument in 7 months we disagree everyday.. But not argue about it... lol

posted May 17, 2012 06:14 PM            

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Originally posted by Ceridwen:
Hi ORBM,

what happened to your twin? Is he still in the picture?

Or are you just unsettled by this new one?

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Yes, I didn't want to be intrusive but I wanted to know, too.

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