posted June 07, 2012 07:30 AM
Hi all. I¡¯m currently at my wit¡¯s end, and I need some advice. I¡¯m trying to get to the bottom of this intense obsession that happened to develop in the past 2 months. I know that you all receive these type of questions all the time, but I have literally lost over 10 pounds (=5kg) in just a month. As a Cappy, I do not usually express my vulnerability, especially to the public, but that¡¯s how dire my situation is. My co-workers think I have some secret ways to lose weight, but I¡¯m suffering from intoxicating lovesick. There is this woman who works for the same company. She has a very interesting natal chart. She is an aquarius and her moon is placed in Leo. Another significant, planetary position is that she has Venus/Mars tight conjunction in Aries. She is a very independent person, sometimes when I observe her, she emanates masculine energy. She isn¡¯t a conventional beauty, but she has this alarming attractive aura.
Although, I felt she is attractive, I never made the initial move. She did. One day, she just casually asked me out for lunch. I guess it¡¯s her uranian nature or of her mars/venus in Aries placement that can make such a blunt offer. Maybe because I am funny and popular person in the office, she probably wanted to get to know me. But, my intuition was ringing loud. I believe the attraction was mutual. All the dates, not intentionally, somehow became clandestine. Nobody knows about it. All the meetings went well. Really well. I could see/sense the sparkles in her eyes and it was really enchanting. I felt so alive, and it seemed she and I connected so well.
However, suddenly, she is acting coy and indifferent. After confronting her about it, she has ignored me ever since. I regret that I¡¯ve shown my frustration but I told her how I felt. She didn¡¯t respond. After that, no single conversation went back and forth. I¡¯m a very proud person, so I am trying to act cool and avoid clinging; however, it¡¯s really starting to kill me inside out. This could be very one-sided, but I think she has feelings for me, but she doesn¡¯t seem to continue or commit. She glances at me, but I can't figure out what she wants from me.
I¡¯m a Capricorn sun, Aries Moon with Aries rising. She is an Aquarian with Leo moon. I don¡¯t know her exact birth time, but I remember she said sometime after noon. I¡¯m just assuming she is leo or libra rising.
I¡¯ve compared my chart to hers. When I look at our synastry I think it¡¯s fated and/or karmic. Since, I do not know exactly of her house positions, I¡¯ve only been able to compare the aspects between my planets to hers. Here¡¯s our synastry:
Tight aspects
Me to her
Mars square Pluto (0orb)
Mars trine Venus/Mars (1-2)
Mercury conjunct Neptune
Neptune conjunct Uranus
Pluto trine Sun
Neptune sextile Sun
Pluto sextile Uranus
Mercury square Venus/Mars
Saturn conjunct Moon
Saturn trine Neptune
Chiron trine Neptune
Loose aspects
Moon inconjunct Saturn
Moon conjunct Venus/Mars (in sign)
Mars opposite Mercury
Moon trine Uranus
As you can see outer planets play a heavy role in our chart, and I just can¡¯t shake off the feeling I have for her. If I may add, she was playing more male type role. I think I feared her somehow. It¡¯s hard to explain but sometimes I literally felt terrified of her charisma.
Here is the DOB, if anyone is willing to delve in more closely.
Me: 1978.01.15 11:30AM Seoul,Korea
Hers: 1985.02.06 Unknown Seoul,Korea
Thank you in advance for any help and tip you can offer me.