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Topic: I beg you someone help me.
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PorcelainHeart
Newflake Posts: 16
From: Germany
Registered: Jul 2012
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posted August 01, 2012 10:23 AM
  
This is getting unbearable. Im getting more and more crazy more and more angry, more and more jealous. And he. He just enjoys this. ..
How the hell. How the hell to move on. How the hell can venus in scorpio move on. Im not able to take this anymore. Its too much. It drives me crazy. Im fighting with myself. One side of me is saying that im strong that I can get rid of him. That Ill ignore him. But I have become his pet... God. I hate this. I hate these feelings. Im like drunk. Drunk from love. But from what kind of love. Love that brings only pain. Everyday Pain. More and more pain. I cant like this. I love masochism but its too much. Te Way to much.
he moOn in scorpio ejoys this. Enjoys the way I suffer. And this makes me even more angry. .................. ...
Someone help me. IM on the edge. tELL me how can I stop.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!IP: Logged |
Padre35
Knowflake Posts: 99
From: charlotte, NC, US
Registered: Jul 2012
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posted August 01, 2012 10:28 AM
Sometimes fires burn until they put themselves out due to a lack of fuel to burn.IP: Logged |
Moonfish
Moderator Posts: 2919
From:
Registered: Jul 2011
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posted August 01, 2012 10:32 AM
Three words... Just do it. I'm a Scorpio sun-mars-Pluto and I'm not going to say it's not difficult for me to move on, but I would definitely not allow someone to have that much control over me. This situation is not wasting anybody's time but your own. Think about other things in life that make you happy  IP: Logged |
doommlord
Knowflake Posts: 580
From: israel
Registered: Dec 2011
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posted August 01, 2012 10:34 AM
im sorry you reached such a dark placeremind yourself every day of the bad things he has done to you and the reasons you dont want to be near him....cause its not worth loving someone that kills you....no matter how strong your feelings are try to stay away as much as you can away from him....the less you see him the less painfull it gets... that worked for me at least and i hope it will work for you too
hope you will be better with time IP: Logged |
lalalinda
Moderator Posts: 2429
From: nevada
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted August 01, 2012 10:37 AM
You need a piece of mind Sweetheart  First, calm down.
You can't go about fixing this issue unless you are in the right frame of mind. #2..Decide what you want, are you ready to walk away? If not find a way to deal with this stress because it's not going to disappear. #3..commit to your solution and follow through. This is going to take a lot of inner strength but in the end you've got to do what is best for you.
Good Luck  IP: Logged |
PorcelainHeart
Newflake Posts: 16
From: Germany
Registered: Jul 2012
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posted August 01, 2012 10:38 AM
I ask him to ******* stay away from me. But noo. He doesnt want to stay away from me. He doesnt go away. and doesnt come near. what is this?
I repeat all these things to myself. All the time he letted me down, betrayed me. Well I did hurt him as well. but at least Im not making myself look as pure and sinless. and he does. He blames in everything me. Gosh IM so tired.
He doesnt go away from me. But about being with me no.
I want him to love me. But its not the right way. Its toomuch.
he makes me jealous. so jealous. that every second I may explode.IP: Logged |
Thefish
Knowflake Posts: 151
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Registered: Apr 2012
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posted August 01, 2012 03:42 PM
Talk to a priest or some other trusted non-biased person a woman's shelter counselor etc.They can discuss with you about what's going on and give you advice where they ahve no stake in what happens. As to whether or not you take their advice is another story. Those feelings you are getting point to an unhealthy reponse. I've been there. Essentially when we go crazy like that it's usually due to intermittent reinforcement (i.e push/pull). It's extremely hard to get away from the roller coaster becuase when you are on it you can't see what things are like when you get off it and you can't see how things will be in the future. You stop by embracing your feelings and writing things down. talking about them and then waiting a few days and looking at how you felt at that moment. "Love" can be painful but that's because it's not really love. It's lust, fear, neediness, etc that are being played upon. If you lvoe something your love of it shouldn't change whether it is present or not. Sure you miss things/people when they are gone but your impression shouldn't change. IP: Logged |
vickymadness
Knowflake Posts: 446
From: Minnesota
Registered: Jan 2012
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posted August 01, 2012 04:24 PM
Value YOURSELF(.)IP: Logged |
novembermuse
Knowflake Posts: 171
From: Summerville, SC, USA
Registered: May 2012
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posted August 01, 2012 06:13 PM
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Originally posted by PorcelainHeart:
I ask him to ******* stay away from me. But noo. He doesnt want to stay away from me. He doesnt go away. and doesnt come near. what is this?
I repeat all these things to myself. All the time he letted me down, betrayed me. Well I did hurt him as well. but at least Im not making myself look as pure and sinless. and he does. He blames in everything me. Gosh IM so tired.
He doesnt go away from me. But about being with me no.
I want him to love me. But its not the right way. Its toomuch.
he makes me jealous. so jealous. that every second I may explode.
I know this might sound harsh but I don't mean it in that at all. I am going to be blunt but with love behind it. Ok here goes...you ask all these questions as to why this and why that about the things he does and why doesn't he just go away but you answered your on questions yourself. You want him to love you. He picks up on this so he stays around eventhough it is all negative. He gives you negative and you give him back negative it's a cycle and it will keep repeating until you see that when YOU stop wanting him to love you then he will (might take a small amount of time but he will see). He will know that he is nothing to you and he will move on. But until you get to the point that YOU can let him go within yourself he will not leave you alone. So you really have to decide if you REALLY REALLY want him to stop loving you. You have to take a long hard look at yourself and this will not be easy but it is something you have to do in order to grow and heal. When you make up your mind then you will see that you don't love him and will see it as a learning experience and then you can heal yourself, love yourself and be happy. That is my 2 cents.. Ok on to the sweet side of me...girl I feel your pain and I surround you in amped-up positive energy. And when you get to the end of the tunnel you will see the light! I wish you peace! In love and light. NM IP: Logged |
RegardesPlatero
Moderator Posts: 3438
From: Storybrooke, Mr. Gold's Shop
Registered: Sep 2011
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posted August 01, 2012 06:26 PM
Let yourself feel your feelings. Don't fight what you feel, but don't act on it/do anything brash, either. Here are some visualization scripts that you can use:
http://www.innerhealthstudio.com/visualization-scripts.html Distract yourself after you've allowed yourself to feel everything. Indulge in what you enjoy. If you need a physical relief, try putting your face in ice (for a short time) or really hot water (again, for a short time, just a few seconds). This shocks your body and helps balance you. I also have to say that diet is important. Don't drink too much caffeine/stimulants; this will make anxiety and irritability worse. Make sure to get enough protein. I've found that eating something after I get up--something like crackers or yogurt or something small--even before breakfast is helpful. Just something to get your body started; doesn't have to be a whole meal. Caffeine-free teas are good for de-stressing. Avoid processed foods and any foods that make you feel bad/ill. Reach out to people for support if you need it, and don't feel guilty about it. Talk to a counselor if need be. :sending you good thoughts and hope for healing: IP: Logged |
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