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Topic: Saturn return fears
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aquacap Knowflake Posts: 72 From: Registered: Jan 2011
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posted August 06, 2012 05:47 PM
My saturn returns coming up next month, and Im terrified. I remember a saturn sqaure saturn and saturn sqaure jupiter from last year and it was complete hell, my co workers turned against me almost lost my job, got sexually harrassed by my boss, I lost my apartment and lived in a car for two months. Got arrested for a hit and run that I did not commit, Lost ALL my friends, car broke down, the guy I was in love with went out and got a girlfriend JUST to rub in my face and my cat died. So no, I am not looking forward to this and I am scurrying to make things strong right now for any kind of disaster. Turmoil is familiar to me, Ive been through things no one should, I lived in a car for a year and grew up in a physically abusive home with 0% love. I am a very serious person but when I feel free I feel like a playful kitten (leo moon). I would rather take emotional turmoil than a blow to my foundation because I have NO ONE no family to help me if I lose everything....I can already see it coming, my roomate is gossiping about me to the landlord, the people at my work are giving me attitude ( one has connections to my ex boyfriend who is a stalker and made everyone belive that Im a psycho and in love with him when its really HIM after me...no one but my grandma belives me either- SO FRUSTRATING!!!!!!) and she tells him everything that im doing at work like a little spy.....Just got my license suspended AGAIN and knowing my life this is just the begining.. So from what I know it affects mostly the house its in and mine being in the first house and the acendant, could it mean my whole life in general, or me as myself emotions and how I come off/social problems?? I couldnt find a saturn return chart so I put up my natal: Also I would like your guys's opinion on the composite of me and my fated karmic stalker, xoxo IP: Logged |
aquaguy91 Moderator Posts: 3739 From: tennessee Registered: Jan 2012
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posted August 06, 2012 07:10 PM
i'm sorry your going through all that (hugs). i have transiting saturn in the 8th squaring natal saturn in the twelfth, and i've been going through hell too, lots of financial and family problems. Also saturn returns dont have to be bad, saturn rewards hardwork afterall. I'm actually lookibg forward to mine. IP: Logged |
aquaguy91 Moderator Posts: 3739 From: tennessee Registered: Jan 2012
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posted August 06, 2012 07:11 PM
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Belage Knowflake Posts: 757 From: California Registered: Apr 2009
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posted August 06, 2012 07:41 PM
Chile, calm down. :}First of all, a saturn return happens when Transiting saturn returns to its natal place in a chart. Since your natal saturn is in Capp, your saturn return isn't due until at least 5 years. Secondly, your post came across as very scattered and blaming everyone for your woes. Life doesn't work like that. You are capricorn rising => you are ruled by Saturn. Saturn is the lord of Karma and responsibility and hard work, and you will have to start taking responsibility. Things will keep on happening to you until you learn to see what part you are playing in the drama. What you will be having soon is a transit of Saturn squaring your natal saturn, and yes it will be rough, but you will survive it. Your job is to see what lessons you can learn so that these things do not happen to you again. Sorry to sound very saturnian in my response, but I hope you can hear what I am saying because I am saying it with love. Tough saturnian love, that is. Now on to the good stuff. You have Mercury on your ascendant, so communication, and knowing how to communicate plays a major part in your life. It so happens that you have a lovely sextile from natal Pluto to your ascendant and mercury, so you need to develop self-reliance, and if you are willing to harness the power (pluto) inside of you to transform your mind (mercury) and empower yourself (ascendant), you will surmount a lot of the obstacles that are thrown at you. Saturn is your friend. You have Saturn in its favorite sign, Capricorn, close to your ascendant and conjunct your True Node. This is an outstanding placement if you are willing to work hard you will go very far. Embrace your Saturnian gifts. Make peace with Saturn. People born under Saturn influence have a very difficult childhood, as Saturn is not kind on the young. Things will get better as you get older, take heart. IP: Logged |
aquacap Knowflake Posts: 72 From: Registered: Jan 2011
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posted August 06, 2012 07:49 PM
yes I understand it is from my actions, but I think my lesson is to let things go, because whenever anyone attacks me I go into my leo moon rage and try to tear them apart until I feel better, and I think my lesson is to leave it alone which is so very hard for me, as for the government, man theyve been hard on me since my high school days...its my uranus rebellion !IP: Logged |
Belage Knowflake Posts: 757 From: California Registered: Apr 2009
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posted August 06, 2012 08:19 PM
^^^That's a good lesson for you to learn. You're a full mooner, so yes you can get overly emotional, especially around full moons. You will have to learn to keep a reign on your emotions and find balance between the rebelliousness of Aqua and the regalness of Leo. I bet the last full moon was hard on you as it activated your natal sun-moon opposition axis... Edited for typos. IP: Logged |
lalalinda Moderator Posts: 2438 From: nevada Registered: Apr 2009
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posted August 07, 2012 11:04 AM
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