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Topic: Paranoia much ?!
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vickymadness
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From: Minnesota
Registered: Jan 2012
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posted August 15, 2012 03:46 AM
  
Okay... since I was young I have been living a delusion of being watched, EVERYWHERE!! I always tell myself that my life can turn out to be a movie - yes, I still can't get over the 'trueman show' movie- at any moment ...The obsession is deep rooted now , and I can't bare it ... I check my Laptop 2 times a day for spyware or suspicious programs , I have uninstalled all the webcam related programs and I always block all the processes I don't know from the task manager :/ I don't use public restrooms, especially the roofless ones ... NOWAY!!
I can go all week explaining about my paranoia but I don't want to bore you, anyway... What aspects are causing this ? The aspects I suspect in : Saturn Conj ASC
Pluto Conj MC
Venus Square ASC
Nessus Square Neptune
Nessus Opposite mercury IP: Logged |
Capricorn Sun
Knowflake Posts: 29
From: Planet Saturn
Registered: Aug 2012
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posted August 15, 2012 04:04 AM
You have many stalkers? That would be my guess.  ------------------
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L0veLess
Knowflake Posts: 1220
From: Midgard
Registered: Feb 2011
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posted August 15, 2012 04:07 AM
sounds like some personality disorder or some other mental illness 
hope you find help for this!
also: http://www.buzzfeed.com/annanorth/truman-show-delusion-becoming-more-common IP: Logged |
vickymadness
Knowflake Posts: 534
From: Minnesota
Registered: Jan 2012
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posted August 15, 2012 04:07 AM
@ Capricorn Sun LOL! nopes, not at all! in my whole life I had two, and they weren't hardcore stalkers IP: Logged |
vickymadness
Knowflake Posts: 534
From: Minnesota
Registered: Jan 2012
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posted August 15, 2012 04:12 AM
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Originally posted by L0veLess:
sounds like some personality disorder or some other mental illness
hope you find help for this!
also: http://www.buzzfeed.com/annanorth/truman-show-delusion-becoming-more-common
Yes I admit it, I suffer a mental illness; cause it's not normal. Reading all these cases makes me better , knowing am not all alone... IP: Logged |
Capricorn Sun
Knowflake Posts: 29
From: Planet Saturn
Registered: Aug 2012
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posted August 15, 2012 04:12 AM
lol! I know all about stalkers. The thing is they are not very good at stalking. The whole point is so they remain hidden in their activities, but these want to be known! If there's no stalkers in your life then maybe you wish to have stalkers so you freak out about whatever? lmao...  ------------------
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vickymadness
Knowflake Posts: 534
From: Minnesota
Registered: Jan 2012
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posted August 15, 2012 04:17 AM
^haha who would wish for stalkers ? they're darn creepy. I had it since I was 6 years old , I don't think I was digging for fans/stalkers then :PI guess it's the pluto/MC conjunction making someone obsessed and paranoid about their public image IP: Logged |
L0veLess
Knowflake Posts: 1220
From: Midgard
Registered: Feb 2011
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posted August 15, 2012 04:17 AM
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Originally posted by vickymadness:
Yes I admit it, I suffer a mental illness; cause it's not normal. Reading all these cases makes me better , knowing am not all alone...
its okay! things can only get better!
i have some mental problems too and i'm getting better  IP: Logged |
vickymadness
Knowflake Posts: 534
From: Minnesota
Registered: Jan 2012
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posted August 15, 2012 04:19 AM
^thanks cutiie, Glad you're getting better IP: Logged |
L0veLess
Knowflake Posts: 1220
From: Midgard
Registered: Feb 2011
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posted August 15, 2012 04:20 AM
hahaha yea IP: Logged |
Capricorn Sun
Knowflake Posts: 29
From: Planet Saturn
Registered: Aug 2012
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posted August 15, 2012 04:22 AM
Look at it in a positive light, the more people after you, the more you are loved and the higher your price goes up! lol...Ok I'll be real. I have no idea what planets do what. If I did I could answer my own questions. hehe ------------------
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aquaguy91
Moderator Posts: 3853
From: tennessee
Registered: Jan 2012
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posted August 15, 2012 04:30 AM
the government watches all of us. and listens to our phone conversations.IP: Logged |
vickymadness
Knowflake Posts: 534
From: Minnesota
Registered: Jan 2012
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posted August 15, 2012 04:52 AM
^thanks for making it worse. I hate you with an undying passion now
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awakemer
Knowflake Posts: 510
From: sherman oaks, ca,USA
Registered: Aug 2011
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posted August 15, 2012 04:56 AM
Paranoid personality disorder.. probably? have you seen a doctor? IP: Logged |
vickymadness
Knowflake Posts: 534
From: Minnesota
Registered: Jan 2012
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posted August 15, 2012 05:04 AM
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Originally posted by awakemer:
Paranoid personality disorder.. probably? have you seen a doctor?
Yeah I already figured that out :P and no I didn't see a Doc but planning to , the good things is you're always alert , and your mind is always processing fast and sharp hahaa ** painful sick laugh ** IP: Logged |
Lava Flower
Knowflake Posts: 214
From:
Registered: Feb 2012
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posted August 15, 2012 05:46 AM
I haven't seen the movie but I have heard about it from my ex.The thought of being secretly watched has crossed my mind more often than I would like to admit. I have always blamed it on my Leo rising and a stellium of sun, mercury, and Jupiter in my 10th. MC ruler in my 7th. The only time I was suicidal was when I smoked "Monster" brand spice (btw, I beg, please, please no one ever try this, its not fun, it was the most awful experience of my life and I have tried many things) and my paranoia was exactly about this. I seriously believed everyone was against me, like they were in on exposing me (my being abused, my extramarital affair, my secrets, everything but especially the affair), and that everyone hated me and wanted me to die. I have never been suicidal before then, but the compulsion that night to take my life was overwhelming. I was so scared, I felt so alone, and I remember my mind racing and the only thing that made sense and felt right was for me to end it because I was so scared of what people would think of me once people found out about my indiscretions. In my state of mind, going over everything, it just made sense that people close to me knew about my affair and were just waiting for me to "own up to it" and pay for what I had done. If I had the chance to be alone in my bathroom that night, I really doubt that I would still be here. It was an awful night, and it stayed haunting me and I still have flash backs. What helps is knowing im not that important And that what I will end up contributing to society will be bigger than my past mistakes. I would suggest you find an outlet for your creativity that isn't focused on you. So if you end up facing the public, you have control over it. What aquaguy said may be true, but unless you are seriously harming others, you shouldn't worry about it. They have much bigger fish to fry. IP: Logged |
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