posted August 19, 2012 12:00 PM            

I purposely feel like going out of my way just to do something hurtful... She has mercury and sun squaring pluto so i am taken back when her mars in Cancer disappears and a monster takes it's place.

posted August 19, 2012 12:19 PM            

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Originally posted by milly:
Hi there! I read once in astro.com that that combination does not mean bad but it means you need to overcome some differences in order to be together. Such as big age difference, racial tabues in certain societies, clashing cultural backgrounds or even having to break actual and fair relationships in order to be together...

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I feel that i have to pull away.. There's an age difference (her saturn opposes my sun) but, whenever i'm around, i can take it easy and relax and then have to close up after she delivers a stinger way out of nowhere.. Then, i turn so nasty and get in such verbal spars with her that my energy is significantly drained and feels dark after i've been with her.

I want to pull back for good.

We got very close and VERY fast... We'd never tire of each other but the nastiness and the bending over backwards to make up after an argument or having to state my position for something that oughta be common courtesy... Ugh.

She's a beautiful girl and she's interested in me but i'm not interested in her.. I'm interested in her father who's coupled up. He's aware of this and i think both she and i build up resentment because i'm not invested in the friendship without ulterior motives and she isn't either..

I don't like being nasty or feeling as if i have to have my claws ready to attack, just in case so, i wonder if anyone else has felt like that in a similar case and did they just quickly pull away, too?