posted September 11, 2012 12:21 AM            

maybe it's progressions but then maybe it has always been in my natal too despite being very fixed.

i have moon square venus for one. a venus on steroids. and i actually think venus saturn adds to this flightiness because i do not think i am worthy of affections..

this star in the bazi system is also on my hour pillar/ ascendant.

Peach Tree Flower: in this position, it means that you could have many sentimental affairs. You are appealing, attractive, you like to charm people, you like pleasure and the games of love. You have an artistic nature.

i also think this bothers me because i've always been very idealistic in these matters. venus trine neptune so when reality doesn't really match the fantasy i get disappointed but now the cause is more something i can control.