posted September 22, 2012 08:20 AM            

It has been me that doesn't care much for them and i don't let on that they turn me off.

Perhaps it's the sign or perhaps it's just the placement in synastry...

posted September 22, 2012 08:30 AM            

I was the house person and they literally drove me crazy (because of my strong feelings). I was very confused about the connection and probably deluded.. but it was intense. There was a strong pull but at the same time a distrust and misconception of things. I literally couldn't see anything around them when they were in front of me.

End of story: huge heart break, a lot of illusions shattered. I was definitely the one who felt it more.

A lot of things are still kept secret from me and I don't know the whole truth to the story. The Venus person would just hide and keep silent.

posted September 22, 2012 09:12 AM            

Every time that it's their venus, i admire them for aesthetic reasons (style, eyes, height, etc.) and then i'm disgusted by them as soon as they come any closer or i begin to know them..

Everything that i admired about them before, becomes overshadowed by something.

The distrust is present... Often.. I don't trust them for some unspoken reason and that adds to the *ugh*

posted September 22, 2012 09:24 AM            

#1: I thought was wonderful.. I suspected he was involved though he said he wasn't. It felt good to be with them and it fit almost like a glove; he was ideal, but i didn't trust him.

I then got to know him a little more.. He shared with me a fantasy he had about having sex with a well known heroin addicted porn star.. Also showed me a video clip and just the thought of them actually doing what i saw someone do to that disgusting porn star, made me cringe.. All bet's were off and i nearly gagged every time i thought of em afterward.

#2: Was a girl.. She was involved with an associate of mine and for some reason, would blatantly flirt with me and would do it in front of her boyfriend when i took it that they were fighting. I had a sex dream about her and was also disgusted by that in my dream and about seeing her whenever i saw her at an event..

#3: A cool artistic looking guy but anyone would swear that he's a junkie. Not much else to say because that was that. Didn't go much elsewhere other than "hello".

#4: A vapid, beautiful guy.. He's a "model"; Physically pleasing to the eye.. Then i took to google after having followed his advice to have found several pics of him on all 4's, as$ EVERYWHERE; a few steps away from it being gay soft porn; a guy who seems more than ready and able for whatever man decides to go there.

I was a speculum spread away from seeing his sphincter.

#5: My friends dad... He's 6'4" and the physical embodiment of an allstar quarterback. I wanted to mount his saddle as soon as i saw him.. I then found out some of his history and the workings of his dysfunctional relationship (he was involved) and i lost respect and with it, interest.

There would be LOTS of flirting with that last one..

All of them, i was initially attracted and then once i lost interest, they would be the one's obsessed over me.. To no avail because i'd have none of it.

posted September 22, 2012 11:42 AM            

It's evident at times that I am not really tuned in to how much she loves and cares about me. Sometimes I feel like she does not love me at all. Then I see the truth at other times. She's giving me the affection and I either ignore it, don't see it to begin with, don't like it, or am oblivious to it.

posted September 22, 2012 12:41 PM            

We have not been speaking, but in each others presence, and he keeps watching me. I try to be all casual, and only glace his way. I feel HYPER mistrust around him, which will suddenly come flying out of nowhere and hit me. It's like I can't get any read at all how he truly feels about me. I am very, VERY attracted to him, and yes, obsessed. I also have the dreaded n.Venus/n.Pluto square.