posted October 02, 2012 09:07 PM            

I actually have a grand trine in water too! mars/northnode/saturn

posted October 02, 2012 11:29 PM            

I am drawn to all the things that JLyn has indicated and too, am just a normal woman paying her bills.

The nature of the trine especially in water, tends to make me feel that i live on this river of sensitivity and can feel the undercurrents and ripples pretty easily. I do feel there is a laziness to it as well as I don't feel I can make it work for me so give up and just have to go with the flow with what it washes up, surfaces and brings my way. I 'receive' impressions from the environment and feel disconnected, disjointed and out of touch with reality. I work as a nurse and will relate to people with what they want on an inner level however I don't figure in what they would mentally prefer for social survival. For example, they might feel like people are making them put up with things that are upsetting to them, but they are prepared to put up with this if it doesn't rock the boat, makes them get along with others and makes others like them. So I am relating to how they are wanting to be appreciated/treated on one level, and they are trying to hide these needs and go for what is more socially acceptable/desirable, even though it might bring them discomfort and pain.

A literal example, is when old crippled/debilitated people, struggle on with trying to manage so that they don't bother anyone and get a negative backlash, yet they eventually are not able to do much for themselves to promote their health, and then all the get is another type of backlash when they are roused on for not doing such and such.

So I encourage them to call the nurse for assistance, but because most of the other nurses don't operate like that, they are likely to be shunned by the nurses for being a pain and then they just deteriorate and get roused on for not doing anything for themselves.

But its so intangible and complex, because they can end up bridging the gap with these crap nursing by being the nurses emotional crutch or praising the hell out of them so that the crap nurses show a bit of compassion because the patient has sucked up to them enough that the crap nurse is gets a hit out of the praising up by the poor old patient.

So if I try to implement anything that doesn't require emotional dependency so that the patient is actually cared for properly, the crap nurse just thinks I'm a pain in the ar*se for making things about decent work practice/treatment, and the patient can get ****** off because where as they knew they could work the crap nurse over by buttering them up, if I make an issue and say we need to do this for the patient because we are professional nurses, then the patient probably gets all fearful because now it has been highlighted that their was a deficiency in care, and the patient knew that at least if they were buttering up the crap nurse they would more likely get the love, but if it comes down to relying on nurses falling a professional ethic, then the patient becomes a burden to the crap nurse.

posted November 11, 2012 06:58 AM            

It's like I can sense when other people are humiliated and they try miserably to hide the shame. I used to attribute that ability to my teenage years, growing up in an unhappy family with a lot of passive-aggressiveness, emotional power play, bitterness and humiliation. God, it's so awful.

Or perhaps it's projection. I'm easily hurt by other people's insensitivity but I feel if I try to get back at them it's an admittance of being hurt, being affected. So most of the time I just shut down completely.

posted November 11, 2012 03:46 PM            

I am definitely hypersensitive and I have that arrow in numerology too.