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Topic: Such a 12th house quote
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sunflower-moon Knowflake Posts: 49 From: Registered: Apr 2012
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posted November 24, 2012 01:49 AM
Please Hear What I Am Not SayingDon’t be fooled by me. Don’t be fooled by the face I wear. For I wear a mask. I wear a thousand masks, masks I am afraid to take off, and one of them in me. Pretending is an art that is second nature to me, but don’t be fooled, for God’s sake, don’t be fooled. I give you the impression I am secure, that confidence is my name and coolness is my game, that the water’s are calm and I am in command, and I need no one. But don’t believe me. Please! My surface may seem smooth, but my surface is my masks, my every-varying and ever-concealing masks. Beneath lies no smugness, no complacence. The real me is sometimes beneath in confusion, in fear, in aloneness. But I hide this. I don’t want anybody to know it. I panic at the thought of my weakness. I panic at the thought of my weakness and being exposed. That’s why I frantically create a mask to hide behind, a nonchalant sophisticated façade to help me to pretend, to shield me from the glance that knows. But such a glance is precisely my salvation, and I should know it. That is, if it’s followed by acceptance, by love. It’s the only thing that can liberate me from myself, from my own self-built walls, from the barriers that I so painstakingly erect. It’s the only thing that will assure me of what I cannot assure myself—that I’m really worth something. I know now, I need others, and I need the help of Divine Intelligence. But I do not tell this. I am afraid to; I don’t dare. I’m afraid that your glance will not be followed by acceptance and love. I am afraid you will think less of me; you will laugh, and laughter would kill me. I am afraid deep down I am worth nothing; I’m just no good, and you will see this and reject me. So I play a game, with a face of assurance without, and a trembling child within. And so the parade of masks begins, the glittering but empty parade of masks. And my life becomes a front. I glibly chatter to you in suave tones of surface talk. I tell you everything that is really nothing, and nothing that is everything of what is crying within me. So when I am going through my routine, do not let anyone be fooled by what I am saying. Please listen carefully and hear what I am not saying, what I would like to be saying; what for survival, I need to say, but what I cannot say. I dislike hiding. Honestly, I dislike the superficial game. I am playing the superficial phony games. I would really like to be genuine and spontaneous, but you have got to help me. God, please hold out your hand, even when that is the last thing I seem to want or need. Only you can wipe from my eyes, the blank stares of the breathing dead. Only you can call me into aliveness. Each time you’re kind and gentle, an encouraging, each time you try to understand because you really care, my heart begins to grow wings—very small wings, very feeble wings, but wings. With your sensitivity and sympathy and your power of understanding, you can breathe life into me. I want to know that. I want you to choose to believe in my and yourself as well. Perhaps, you, God, alone can break own the wall behind which I tremble. You alone can remove my mask. You alone can release me from my shadow of panic and uncertainty, from my lonely prison. So, do not pass me by. Please do not pass me by. It will be easy for you to help me, to help anyone, for I have Faith in your power over all, even my own seemingly hopeless insecurities. I know that you can help, and I will pay it forward a thousand times as I heal. I know you know that too. A long conviction of worthlessness builds strong walls. The nearer you approach me, the more I may resist. It is irrational, but despite what the books say about human beings, I am irrational. I fight against the very thing I cry out for. But I am told that love is stronger than walls, and in this lies my hope—my only hope! Please try to beat down those walls with firm hands, but gentle hands—for a child is sensitive and like all of us I am a child within. Who am I, you may wonder? I am someone you know very well. For I am every man you meet and I am every woman you meet. Don't you think?!
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AriesKat Knowflake Posts: 370 From: Brooklyn, NY USA Registered: May 2011
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posted November 24, 2012 04:03 AM
Wow, Yes ! IP: Logged |
sand Knowflake Posts: 7284 From: Saturn Registered: May 2011
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posted November 24, 2012 04:40 AM
I plagiarized this letter and gave it to a gf! No joke! She was like OMG it's so YOUU! - Virgo I gave it to another girl (since it worked the 1st time) and she was like OMG ur so intense/ scary! -Pisces Stephen covey 7 habits for teens lmfao! Maybe I might actually right my own next time *cough* *cough* IP: Logged |
DeathIsanIllusion Knowflake Posts: 133 From: Registered: Sep 2012
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posted November 24, 2012 12:01 PM
I like most of it a lot, while I was reading it I thought about someone who has Neptune in the 1st house. Then I glanced at the clock and I saw a double digit number... I am indeed profoundly touched by this quote. It did manage to strike a chord! If someone sent me something similar, I'd instantly go into an "awwwwww" mood and hug him on the spot, for I can relate to it to a very noticeable degree... ------------------ Been studying Astrology since 2002; posted on LL between 2006 and 2008; extremely rabid 24/7 forum lurker & big fan since then until 2012. LL is completely amazing!! We are all writing here Astrology history!! IP: Logged |
stillatlarge Knowflake Posts: 272 From: TX Registered: Nov 2010
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posted November 24, 2012 03:24 PM
If ONLY! There are some people who are **** sandwiches and there is nothing else through and through. I've lived both and waited years and it finally paid off, so I know it's true, but I've also seen people who are just not worth it because they're never going to respond to kindness as anything but weakness. Not everybody is "really good inside if we could only see it". My sibs are a case in point.IP: Logged |
waitingforyou Knowflake Posts: 49 From: Registered: Mar 2012
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posted November 25, 2012 03:19 AM
So ME ..... IP: Logged |
sand Knowflake Posts: 7284 From: Saturn Registered: May 2011
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posted November 25, 2012 03:23 AM
I think it's Scorpio.I give you the impression I am secure, that confidence is my name and coolness is my game, that the water’s are calm and I am in command, and I need no one. But I hide this. I don’t want anybody to know it. I panic at the thought of my weakness. I panic at the thought of my weakness and being exposed. That’s why I frantically create a mask to hide behind, a nonchalant sophisticated façade to help me to pretend, to shield me from the glance that knows. Am a scorp asc conj pluto.. IP: Logged |
anno_lucis Knowflake Posts: 147 From: uk Registered: Mar 2012
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posted November 25, 2012 11:29 AM
quote: Originally posted by sand: I plagiarized this letter and gave it to a gf! No joke! She was like OMG it's so YOUU! - Virgo I gave it to another girl (since it worked the 1st time) and she was like OMG ur so intense/ scary! -Pisces Stephen covey 7 habits for teens lmfao! Maybe I might actually right my own next time *cough* *cough*
lol! smooth #leomoonIP: Logged |
sand Knowflake Posts: 7284 From: Saturn Registered: May 2011
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posted November 25, 2012 09:58 PM
quote: Originally posted by anno_lucis: [QUOTE]Originally posted by sand: [b]I plagiarized this letter and gave it to a gf! No joke! She was like OMG it's so YOUU! - Virgo I gave it to another girl (since it worked the 1st time) and she was like OMG ur so intense/ scary! -Pisces Stephen covey 7 habits for teens lmfao! Maybe I might actually right my own next time *cough* *cough*
lol! smooth #leomoon[/B][/QUOTE] Oh I have way better moves now! IP: Logged |
hannaramaa Knowflake Posts: 2758 From: Registered: Nov 2011
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posted November 26, 2012 08:18 AM
I love this! It so perfectly fits what the 12th house is (although I don't understand the correlation of masks and the 12th, seems like that's more ASC.) I have my Mars and Jupiter there.IP: Logged | |