posted November 29, 2012 04:20 PM
I admire your interest in self-growth at such an age, Magicspells. I can only speak about my own experience. ...I'm 40, and have had Pluto conj my Venus for well over a year now...maybe two. Can't wait for it to end. Yes, lots of work on myself, but truly heart-wrenching. Also a five-year relationship ended.
Intense interest in a few others...that apparently wasn't meant to be, despite the other parties' acknowledging their attraction and despite the overload of astrological synastry and progressed aspects between us. The obsessive feeling of this aspect is what started me learning about synastry to begin with, last year...obsessively looking for connections between us, to confirm how meant-to-be we were... even though it is apparent that we have different values (a Venus domain), it's true. "Wanting intense encounters," was part of the message for that transit. No kidding...I always want intense encounters, so it's been even moreso. Quite a lot of energy to handle--feeling so strongly, physically, sexually, emotionally...while learning about what is missing and why those qualities do not a relationship make.
So, I am trying now to value the maturing it is offering. It really has been about my own growth and healing, in the end. Latest is realizing some deep wounded trust, surrounding relationships...feels like it is eons old. ...This also T-squares my Juno and Chiron, so healing Venus and partnership issues is in the mix for me, for sure.
Seem to be getting in to really deep inner work now, in the last waves of this transit. ...Feels like I'm touching on soul-level hurts around partnership--like healing the loss of the "other half" of my soul, or separation from source or something, eons ago. Deep, deep pain.
As with other long transits, I'll likely have more clarity about its meaning for me, once it's over with.
Here is Annie's page on Pluto transits, from cafeastrology:
http://www.cafeastrology.com/plutotransits.html
Pluto transits square or opposition Venus
This major transit challenges you to find meaning in your life through romantic connections and partnerships. You now must uncover a new layer or level to your life -- one that goes more deeply than you have heretofore experienced. Sometimes this transit is associated with divorce or separation, and sometimes new relationships begin. Other times, the attitude towards partnership undergoes a major transformation. You may become quite obsessed with your commitments and partner during this time, or you may experience Pluto through your partner. Especially males with this transit may encounter Pluto themes through a female. Manipulative and controlling behaviors may be displayed or experienced through partners. You must be especially wary of resisting change and holding onto negative attachments. This transit may be a signal that it is time to let go of destructive attachments and connections, and resisting this process is likely to do more harm than good. Relationships begun at this time may be very complicated and ultimately challenging, so be careful to think before making drastic changes in your relationships at this time. There may be some problems with money during this transit. Poor spending decisions made to date may come to a head and you may need to face up to their reality. By the end of the transit, you should have a renewed sense of worth, although getting to that point may not be entirely pleasant.
~Your desire for love and its physical expression is strong, but you may not find it easy to express this need. A more compulsive or obsessive quality marks your relationships and, instead of looking for someone whose values are similar to or compatible with your own, you may attract someone whose values clash with yours. There is the possibility of attracting a member of the underworld set, someone who is already attached or someone who is looking only for sex, rather than a person capable of making both the sacrifices and the commitment you deem necessary. Keep your standards high now, so you can come upon a love which fulfills alt your needs. If you aren't already in love, you may be tempted to start a relationship with anyone just so you won't be alone. Avoid this; aim for an attachment based on love, trust, and a genuine relationship which will deepen, not disintegrate, with time. -- Sample from the Heaven Knows What report.