posted December 10, 2012 10:48 AM            

Let me clear this up a bit. My love life is messy and at the same time disappointing. I'm in my thirties and even though I seem to attract men I don't seem to attract the ones I like.

I never been in love, and don't dream of being married and having kids. The idea is suffocating to me. I do want to fall in love, to travel to have an adventurous life.

I'm currently in a wrong relationship that I cant seem to escape. The man is someone I care deeply for, but the notion I might end up with him makes me really unhappy. I tried to tell him but he gets really upset and the fact that we're working together makes this decision really difficult to be carried through. Anyhow, I will break it off with him. I can't live like this.

But, I happen to know two women with a very similar chart to mine. The three of us have transits and progressions that show commitments, marriage, engagements etc during the past year. Both these other women got in loving committed relationships this year (both men where Geminis as my partner is). One's married, the other one engaged. That makes me so sad. I know that I shouldn't compare my life to that of other people but we have been in such similar paths it's such a disappointment to know that I don't get to fall in love and get to have the kind of relationships they have. Instead mine is unhappy and suffocating.

Is it possible that this man IS my soulmate and I'm not in love with him?