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From: amsterdam,noordholland,netherlands
Registered: Jan 2013

posted January 11, 2013 02:56 PM            

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k. So i really need opinions of scorpio. Things are actually going great but im a cancer woman who learned from her mistakes and with this scorpio man i dont wanna screw it up so im not gonna throw all sorts of weird clumsy questions at him, also because i respect the fact that he is controlling the way things are going , i actually love it but im also a woman and sometimes confused.
Anyway, im 30 years old and so is he, we actually met eachother 15 years ago. At school : there was an instant click, not in a romantic or sexual way, well at least not that i know off , we were both young and geeky LOL but we had fun. We both had the same sarcastic humor and when we were in the same class we were like bonnie and clyde, partners in crime and had a blast. Wich was rare because other then that we both didnt have that with other ppl. But he was only on my school for a year and then he went to another. Years went by and when i became 20 i broke up with my first real boyfriend, im not a person who has casual sex and ive only had 3 other men in my life i ever had sex with and for me sex means a commitment. That was my first boyfriend and the first to have sex with and he just used me for the sex. So a friend of mine dragged me outta the house to go clubbin. To lift my spirit. And in the middle of the night, while i was dancing my heartbreak off , someone called my name, i remember it like it was yesterday: and i turned around and there he was: sitting on a chair with some girl next to him i thing his gf at the time ....and the world just stopped , he was talllll and all muscle but his eyes.....it was different .i said hi and smiled i guess but that was it, so years gone by and i sometimes ran into him....but there was one other time when i was clubbin, we didnt even say hello but he was standing all the way across the room and i was with my friends but it was like our eyes met through the music and we just kept staring at eachother. Now....since a couple of months we starting mailing eachother .....he has gone through a terrible 10 years, he trusts me, tells me how he feels and how it kills him that he is in this situation,

i trust him to and i tell him alot also how i feel about certain things....because he is at home alot and i have my mail connected to my phone we mail eachother like all throughout the day.....he is very sweet and very attractive....just everything bout him invites me in and the fact that he actually reads everything i send and responses to it and very fast to and at all hours.......but .....i dont mind taking it slow....not at all....i like that he has control over how fast or slow it goes...and i've even been to his house twice because he has backproblems right now and i hate to see him in pain or alone. Plus i love seeing him and he doesnt mind at all that im coming over, he brought it up that i should come over again and longer this time....i even brought my lil daughter with me and that didnt scare him off....but there has been no physical contact....im sure he is fond of me that for sure.......but over time i've become carefull off getting feelings for someone, i have very strong feelings for him IF i would let myself.....so my question is.....what do you guys think? its strange because its like.....at night we do meet without being together i get random needs to touch myself and whenever i do i automaticly think about him, and it sounds weird but it always has been. Even when i was with my ex's O_O .....and he feels so naturally its almost scary.....and when i do think of him....i can almost come and very strong without barely touchin myself. I havent had that with anyyyybody. When we are together we have the weird thing bout not looking at eachother but when we do our eyes ....lock....its a difficult feeling to explain. It feels good but scary too....but it pulls me in. But it doesnt make me throw myself at him, more .....like a taste of what to come when we are ready or something.....i must say he broke up just 6 months ago ,i think that is important to. Ow and im a cancerwoman he did tell me that normally he doesnt talk that much at all....but he does with me .....also...he is very jealous when he is in arelation ship and i love that about him because so am i
And now im wondering, should i keep up, gettin more closer or should i have moments i should take it aaaaa little slower....it feels good taking a step further with every day or days ....and he somehow is leading how it goes...

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