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Topic: first comes love then comes marriage then comes hell
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fearlesshiva Newflake Posts: 16 From: Registered: Jan 2013
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posted January 28, 2013 03:03 PM
I am a gemini scorpio moon Scorpio rising Taurus venus Cancer Mars and Mercury. I love astrology and I have been following this blog since forever.I have been in love since I was 5 years old. I love men. My first true love was a capricorn and he broke my heart in such a way that I could never love like that again. I then surrendered myself to life. Like I had no intention of living neither dying. Extreme depression followed me. Until I met another Capricorn. He saved me and every way I could be saved, and it was so healing. Our ways parted never being in a relationship. Then I hit rock bottom and met the very first virgo, he was broken even more than myself and it was a great distraction. Needless to say my scorpio moon could not let an emotional wrecking situation like this pass without getting involved. I never loved him. But I had a deep understanding and that grew a strange respect. I left him due to basic survival need. And then met another virgo. He was my friend, I went away and in that time met a guy that swept me off my feet I had never felt such intense passion. It was a short lived fling. And he blackmailed me in the end. Very strange. He was the only one with a scorpio moon. I reunited with my best friend the virgo. And we dated. I fell in love again and this time more weary, but to me he seemed like one of Gods angels. Turns out he is more like the god damn devil himself. We dated long and I waited to be engaged. Eventually it came to pass. Through it all the emotion abuse sucked every last bit of life out of my soul. I am about to marry him, because of many other beneficial reasons. However I sometimes wonder if there is one man out there (not mr perfect)that will put a smile on my face and a sparkle in my eye. In my experience so far the only man that had that effect on me was married unfortunately and so I chose not to pursue him. He was a Leo and somehow maybe men like that will put a sparkle in every other girls eye. I just want to know is there anyone out there that's living in virgo hell.IP: Logged |
Swift Freeze Knowflake Posts: 235 From: One World Registered: Nov 2009
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posted January 28, 2013 03:29 PM
I am sorry that you've been through a lot of emotional trauma throughout your life. I can understand that after what you've been through, you may feel resigned and that you've lost all hope when it comes to love or someone making you happy.I can't promise you that everything will be okay. I can't promise you that you'll get married and live happily ever after. I can't even promise you that there is someone around the corner waiting to sweep you off your feet. What I can promise you, is that as long as you live, there is a chance. A chance to be truly happy. If you hold on to even the tiniest sliver of hope. You have a chance to be happy. I don't usually get involved in situations like this, but maybe you should take a real look at why you are marrying this man, if you know it is only going to make you severely unhappy. I wish you all the best. - Chris ------------------ Learn lots. Don't judge. Laugh for no reason. Be nice. Seek Happiness. Follow your dreams. IP: Logged |
I'm so cappy Knowflake Posts: 241 From: Poland/Saturn Registered: Nov 2012
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posted January 28, 2013 03:31 PM
Enjoy the frying.------------------ Do you have some chocolate? IP: Logged |
fearlesshiva Newflake Posts: 16 From: Registered: Jan 2013
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posted January 28, 2013 03:39 PM
Thank you Chris maybe I sounded like I was seeking sympathy Cappy hehe but I am really just asking an honest question. What I have learned from life is you cant always have what you want. Even if its happiness, I just wondered if other people experience virgo men to be verbally abusive my father and all the other virgo men I have known are.IP: Logged |
RunAroundScreaming Knowflake Posts: 6294 From: Registered: Oct 2010
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posted January 29, 2013 02:49 AM
No no never. All the virgos I know are uber sweethearts. Shy and softspoken. Maybe it's because I'm compatible with them as a cancer sun, while you're square them?I know for me, libra and aries guys can make me cry really easily, esp aries. ------------------ True to my aqua north node, I'll always pick the choice nobody expected me to pick. ebay compatibility readings | testimonials | Past readings | Ideal compatibility (3rd post) | Q&A | What's a Love stellium? | Most important aspects descriptions | Aspects to avoid IP: Logged |
Swift Freeze Knowflake Posts: 235 From: One World Registered: Nov 2009
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posted January 29, 2013 03:34 AM
You can't always have what you want. But you don't have to have what you don't want. If something makes you supremely unhappy. Then you don't have to have it in your life, you can find a way to get past it. I believe if you want something bad enough, you give yourself the best chance of making it happen.I qualify as a Virgo, by Sun, by less than a degree. ------------------ Learn lots. Don't judge. Laugh for no reason. Be nice. Seek Happiness. Follow your dreams. IP: Logged |
I'm so cappy Knowflake Posts: 241 From: Poland/Saturn Registered: Nov 2012
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posted January 29, 2013 12:10 PM
This is getting funny. Your reaction is a little bit too nervous for someone who doesn't expect sympathy and I'm affraid you are the offensive one here. I'm just being blunt. You know, I can't feel sorry for you. You hold on to some "devil" who makes your life "hell" not because of weakness or naivety but for some benefits. Have hella fun then! ------------------ Do you have some chocolate? IP: Logged |
Geeky Knowflake Posts: 223 From: Portland, OR Registered: Dec 2012
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posted January 30, 2013 05:06 AM
train wreck in 5...4...3...2...1...IP: Logged |
fearlesshiva Newflake Posts: 16 From: Registered: Jan 2013
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posted January 30, 2013 06:10 AM
RunAroundScreamingYes he is the sweetest guy shy gentle. But he has an extremely hurtful side thats what makes it so difficult, because I grew up with a father with a similar situation. I have watched my mother go through all of this. And even though I know what Im doing and it is my choice. I still can not just let go and walk away. This is making me severely depressed. I think its the cancer in my chart that cant handle or deal with the verbal and mental abuse since Im very sensitive. my brother is a libra with an aries moon and we fight all the time. my other brother is cancer/leo cusp and taurus moon and we get along so well. But this guys chart is like one big square from sun to uranus sun opposite jupiter jupiter square uranus its and on going thing and my sun is right in the middle of this. I love him because he is everything I ever wanted, and he treats me very well and everything. but I feel a constant heart break. I know its stupid especially for someone like me cause Im very over pro active if something bothers me I make a plan and move on. But this omg. IP: Logged |