posted March 01, 2013 07:55 AM            

My story is basically that I fell in love with someone in my class a year ago (it´s the toxic guy) and I´m now starting to see just how accurate the scorpio moon description really is!

I felt humiliated by him, and now I have to see him every day, with all this scorpio raging consuming me, while keeping a perfectly straight face, of course. It´s one of the hardest things I´ve had to do.

I basically go to school, keep a straight face, even smile, interactwith people, and do well on exams. But when I get home, I break down and cry for hours at end, every day. This has been going on for months.

The guy has noticed that something is up, but he knows not to approach me, because the hatered that I have for him is undescribable.

On top of all this.. I KNOW that I eventually have to forgive him, otherwise I will destroy myself.

posted March 01, 2013 08:15 AM            

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Originally posted by Orange:
What happened, how did he humiliate you? What is his bith data?

You are so cute... "I am declaring an emotional crisis".....

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Thanks. Well, he mocked me indirectly when I approached him and wante to be friends. He would lookaway and laugh, and sometimes his friends would laugh too. He also played head games, and tried to "play"me. Wanted to get a reaction, I think.

If I didn´t have moon in scorpio I would probably not care so much.

in his natal chart he has sun square pluto, mars conjunction pluto, sun opposition moon, he has mars in scorpio and is very plutonic. His moon is in cancer.

Edit:

His placements indicate that he is very sensitive and serious person.
I have seen him be quite nice to others, although sometimes he turns dominant and arrogant. And for some reason we clash.

The point is however that he managed to hurt me so much and now I am realizing how deep my sensitivity really goes, because for the most part getting emotional reaction out of me is like trying to get blood from a stone.

posted March 01, 2013 09:51 AM            

I guess my main wish is to let go of the resentment. Idk how to forgive people when they have hurt you. The hurt is about being rejected, wich is a wound I have from the past. Am I the only scorpio moon who was rejected by peers as a child? I always felt not good enough, and this situation brought up that old wound. :/

I just want to go to school and be at peace, not in turmoil. That´s all basically.

(Oh, and we´re not kids, we´re in our 20´s and should be past this kind of immaturity, but water moons are maybe immature like that, idk).

I know we can´t have always what we want, belive me.. But I think it is the humiliation thing that hurt me. If someone is interested in me and I´m not - I´ll just ignore the person, and detach. I will not play on their attraction to make myself feel powerful.

Anyway, I know that I need to forgive, not just him, but his friends too, I´m so angry with them too. But idk HOW.

posted March 01, 2013 12:15 PM            

I know it's hard to forgive people but how about you just try to detach, for now? Like.. focus on something else, try to stop thinking about him/what he did. You can't force forgiveness, it has to come quite naturally at the right time. Of course you can meditate, and try different relaxation techniques/prayers to ask for peace of mind and the ability to let go and forgive.

Try to regain your peace of mind.. no one is worth your suffering/negative emotions.

posted March 01, 2013 12:30 PM            

That's good!