posted March 28, 2013 04:22 PM            

I have a 10th house in Capricorn with moon conjunct Jupiter and Venus (these two very tight) and Sun in Saggitarius, as well as mercury and Neptune these two conjunct midheaven in 0 capricorn.

The lord of midheaven is in 8th house scorpio (saturn).

North node conjuncts part of fortune in taurus 2nd.

So why I am never happy in any job that gets to me?? I feel low self esteem, I think I will never be good enough in any job, that I am clumsy and so on, nobody will respect me. I dont know what my skills are and which one I can put to good use. I feel so bad.

I sometimes got well paid jobs but I feel that was out of luck and not really for a job well done or something I felt I could do well. I feel always dislocated at my 3 jobs I had for these past 6 years. I am picking the wrong areas only (economics, then statistics, now I am trying to change career for geosciences, currently doing formal studies, but I dont think I am good enough for it, that I lack practical skills)?

Any suggestions where or how these bad things are coming from? Is it just some bad choice in areas of work?

I dont think people see me well at the jobs I had (like someone would think with jupiter venus in 10th in capricorn).

Also I dont have this business/management skills books of astrology says. I am a good director if I have a creative play/some creative thing to coordinate, but I hate/cant do well with coordinating people to deliver things in time (I cant even make myself deliver things in time at work). I like painting, creating clothes, drawing, singing (I suck at fiction writing though XD ) .

Makes no sense to me. I think I am a lost case or astrology doesn't give me any clue or send me in a direction I will never be able to achieve, cause I felt is not who I am? I am so confused!

Sorry for the rumble, I don't know if makes any sense, but why the usual descriptions don't fit me? Or I am reading the wrong books?