posted April 23, 2013 12:16 PM            

Well, mine backed himself up against a wall, and had no where to run and struck with deadly aim at my heart. It was brutal.

Despite it though....my understandable anger, my deep hurt, my fear....over the past few months all that came out in the end was my love of him...and deep missing. I didn't try to hold it or reject it. It was just there. Humming. I tried to reach out a couple of times through a video through email, but he was withholding as power and refusing to budge a couple months back.

It never felt true. I knew in my heart it wasn't true. But, what can you do. Nothing.

I was feeling better after my last attempt. Knowing I tried absolutely everything to reach him, I could put it down knowing I fought with all I had for what I believed. I didn't feel diminished by it (though certainly hurt), I felt strong to be able to hold myself in my vulnerability.

This weekend, though....God. He was pulling on me strong and all the grief came back like it just happened. It is hard to separate out our energies, we are so twined in each others pull. (I recognized him as a future mate when he sat down next to me before I even LOOKED at him).

It was driving me nuts. I went for a fifteen mile roller blade and sobbed. The missing was just so intense. I called my friends to talk sense to me not to contact him. No one could be reached. So, I finally texted him: I feel like a goose that has lost its mate and best friend.

And, then...

Don't worry, I am not going to start anything. I know how you feel. I just have never been this wrong about something I have felt this strong. Some seer I turned out to be (he always called me a seer because of my intuition into situations)....

To my surprise, he wrote back.

He missed me. Terrible. Devastated by the loss, his daughter was there trying to comfort him (she is grown).
Barely functional...

So, we met. And, laid out under the moon light for two hours confessing our mutual pull and connection and talking. It is always the same when we get past the fear and hurt.

I don't know what will happen from here. I just know what happened last night was the first thing that felt real and honest since January. It was a relief to just stop denying it. And, affirm that what I feel isn't in my hear or crazy. It's real and pulsing and just....there.

It is powerful.

He's a Scorpio with a Pisces Moon. I am Cancer with a Scorpio Rising.

Linda wrote that the Cancer life lesson is to teach that love is devotion and learn that love is freedom. The Scorpio life lesson...to teach that love is passion and learn that love is surrender.

That has been our circle. It has just met its beginning again...

posted April 23, 2013 12:39 PM            

Water signs belong together, especialy Scorpio n Cancer

My boyfriend and I are both Cancers

posted April 25, 2013 05:20 AM            

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Originally posted by hikoro:
i must one of the few water folks who doesnt agree that water signs are necessarily the best for one another.
a deluge.....sigh.
anyways, good luck.

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I feel the same way as you hikoro.
I've definitely felt the connection the OP describes, but with somebody who has strong fire in their chart, not water. Most water heavy folk don't seem to mesh well with me for very long on a romantic level.

But between two water folk, if it's there, would be absolutely other-worldly, I imagine. All those feelings and the intuition a lot of water-heavy people have naturally could be enhanced by being around each other and could definitely make for a true psychic soul connection.

I hope that you two stay on the path of happiness and love. Bring each other joy and laughter, instead of misery and tears. Especially if it's as easy as being together to take away the misery for both of you!
Best wishes