posted April 23, 2013 12:16 PM            

I was sexually molested at the age of 5 by a teenage neighbour. At the age of 13, my 40+ neighbour (at the time), told me he was attracted to me and invited me to come over to his place when his wife wasn't at home. Of course, I declined. At 15, I was stalked by an unknown man for a few weeks, until I told about that to my (guy) friends and they threathened him, so he backed off. I spent my summers while I was a teen working on an island packed with tourists as a pizza waitress and cashier at a supermarket. Regardless of the fact that I was dressed in a quite prude uniforms at both jobs, people would come on to me. They would either be very nice, protective of me, bringing me stuff, talking to me about their private lives, confiding and buying stuff to me (ice creams, chocolate, etc.) or they would hit on me, inviting me to they hotel rooms, telling me how sexy I am. Whenever I would go to a shop, bar, etc. men would buy me things, give me free drinks, even gave me free hamburgers when I tried to buy them for myself and a friend. Last summer I had a guy following me around for a few days, even masturbated in front of a supermarket window while I was opening it early in the morning (I worked alone), until I warned my boss about him and he (the boss) beat the guy up! :O

All of my friendships with my guy friends started off with them having some kind of romantic/sexual interest in me. They were all the type of guys women find themselves attracted to, but know they are emotionally distant, players, etc. Somehow, after rejecting them, they would keep persuading me and, over time, they would grow fond of me and start to confide to me. I don't know how many times I've heard that I'm the only person they can say just about everything and feel safe. A friend of mine (and an ex romantic interest) recently left his gf whom he's absolutely crazy about because she gave him ultimatimum, telling him he would have to choose between her and a friendship with me, even though I was on her side in that argument they were in at the time and adviced him to apologize.

They either see me as a Virgin Mary of a sort, or as Mary Magdalene (lol, I'm not religious, but it seemed suitable).

My last serious boyfriend (whom I met on a previously mentioned island) thought I was sweet, shy and innocent when we first met and was very cautious of the way he interacted with me, so he was really surprised when he saw my "dark" sexual side, once he got to know me. We broke up due to distance, but we still keep in touch, respect and trust each other.

I just think I'm normal. I'm a very sexual person, but I don't sleep around. I find it hard to get romantically involved with someone because in the most cases, there just isn't "that something". I've been in a strictly "friends with benefits" relationship for the past 6 years. We are friends, physically attracted to each other, we talk about everything and also satisfy each other's physical needs. There's just no emotional connection. We see each other when we don't have anyone else in our lives and it works for us.

I'm good looking, honestly, but I don't think I'm so beautiful that people would obsess with me (maybe it has to do something with my low self - confidence as a kid, which I've learnt to overcome with years).

I'm Sagittarius sun, Cancer Moon, Aries Mars, Scorpio Venus and Pluto, Libra rising.

POSITIONS OF PLANETS

Sun 5°05' Sagittarius
Moon 18°18' Cancer
Mercury 2°41' Sagittarius
Venus 4°23' Scorpio
Mars 5°10' Aries
Jupiter 0°30' Я Gemini
Saturn 1°33' Capricorn
Uranus 29°41' Sagittarius
Neptune 8°40' Capricorn
Pluto 13°24' Scorpio
Chiron 6°56' Я Cancer
Ceres 18°57' Pisces
Pallas 10°02' Aquarius
Juno 7°09' Virgo
Vesta 10°38' Scorpio
Node 9°45' Я Pisces
Lilith 1°41' Я Libra
Fortune 13°38' Pisces
AS 26°51' Libra
MC 3°12' Leo

Planets in Houses*
Sun House 2, Moon House 9, Mercury House 2, Venus House 1, Mars House 6, Jupiter House 8, Saturn House 3, Uranus House 3, Neptune House 3, Pluto House 1, Chiron House 9, Ceres House 5, Pallas House 4, Juno House 11, Vesta House 1, Node House 5, Lilith House 11, Fortune House 5

Positions of Houses
House 1 26°51' Libra, House 2 24°27' Scorpio, House 3 27°09' Sagittarius, House 4 3°12' Aquarius, House 5 6°50' Pisces, House 6 4°39' Aries, House 7 26°51' Aries, House 8 24°27' Taurus, House 9 27°09' Gemini, House 10 3°12' Leo, House 11 6°50' Virgo, House 12 4°39' Libra

LIST OF ASPECTS

Saturn Conjunction Uranus Orb 0°20'
Moon Conjunction Jupiter Orb 4°30'
Venus Conjunction AS Orb 7°11'
Sun Conjunction Pluto Orb 8°15
Saturn Conjunction Neptune Orb 9°19'
Uranus Conjunction Neptune Orb 9°40'
Neptune Opposite MC Orb 3°16'
Venus Opposite Mars Orb 3°19'
Mars Opposite AS Orb 3°52'
Saturn Opposite MC Orb 6°02'
Uranus Opposite MC Orb 6°23'
Mars Square Saturn Orb 1°23'
Venus Square Uranus Orb 1°35'
Mars Square Uranus Orb 1°44'
Venus Square Saturn Orb 1°56
Neptune Square AS Orb 4°03'
Mars Square MC Orb 4°39'
Saturn Square AS Orb 5°15'
Uranus Square AS Orb 5°36'
Mercury Square Neptune Orb 7°43'
Sun Trine MC Orb 0°38'
Jupiter Trine AS Orb 0°39'
Moon Trine Venus Orb 3°19'
Moon Trine AS Orb 3°51'
Pluto Trine MC Orb 7°37'
Venus Trine Jupiter Orb 7°50'
Moon Sextile Mars Orb 0°00'
Sun Sextile Neptune Orb 3°54'
Neptune Sextile Pluto Orb 4°20'
Mars Sextile Jupiter Orb 4°31'
Sun Sextile Saturn Orb 5°24'
Sun Sextile Uranus Orb 5°45'
Sun Inconjunction Jupiter Orb 0°30'
Moon Inconjunction Saturn Orb 1°23'
Moon Inconjunction Uranus Orb 1°44'
Venus SemiSquare Pluto Orb 0°35'
Uranus SemiSquare Pluto Orb 0°59'
Saturn SemiSquare Pluto Orb 1°20'
Moon SesquiQuadrate Mercury Orb 0°38'
Mercury Quintile Uranus Orb 0°36'
Mercury Quintile Saturn Orb 0°57'
Jupiter SemiSextile MC Orb 0°08'
Sun SemiSextile AS Orb 0°08'