posted May 08, 2013 04:24 AM            

And it's a different feeling to the usual natal moon conjunct saturn depressive thoughts I have felt my whole life

It's still like an eternal Dark Night Of The Soul but as though something is changing within me

It's a bit difficult to explain, maybe something akin to trying to keep a water dam from overflowing

The taurus eclipse is going to hit my 7th house

I'm always one to keep my emotion controlled, choosing only to experience them in private

But a few days ago a close friend and I were at friend's birthday party where we didn't really know most of the people. We felt really out of place so left for awhile and tried to get inside a church across the road, but it was closed. Instead we sat on the courtyard steps and started talking about how hopeless we felt, as though life was a pointless performance. Things got serious really fast, we exchanged secrets... I was actually sobbing! A 12th house moon and a 12th house venus! We were crying together!

Im not sure if that moment was some prelude to the eclipse. Or a result of saturn transiting my 12th, or jupiter transiting my 8th or pluto retrograde. Or just my natal aspects getting sick of themselves.
Whatever it was, it was cathartic.