posted May 08, 2013 03:35 PM            

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posted May 08, 2013 04:19 PM            

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Originally posted by Ami Anne:
I am interested in this aspect. I have been told that it can be a cruelty aspect. Does that fit?

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I wouldn't say that. I've done a lot of research and found that whatever is wrong in your life needs to be changed regardless if you want to or not under saturns transit with Pluto. My kids have just recently been temporary removed by cps. They are in a foster home right now and this has been so hard-especially on my already mentally unstable Cancer gf. The kids were removed for trivial reasons(not making appointments-no car-no one to give us a ride-no public transportation) and because of an open 2nd story window(which my littlest is incapable of going out of). The whole thing is unfair-so we are being forced to change many aspects of our life right now. I went through so much with the last pluto transit-going to work everyday-having seizures(i'm an epileptic)-over and over again-waking up in the hospital-not knowing where i am and what happened to me. i was working the 3rd shift-and my doctor told me to cut down on the caffiene and quit working the 3rd shift-i didn't listen to her. it came to a point where i was having seizures EVERYDAY and was forced to quit. Unfortunately in this stupid town-there's nothing here. Without THIS job, it's almost impossible out there. So we exchanged roles and now SHE has to work. I feel so ashamed of myself but what else can I do? I've taken all responsibility to do anything they ask(even if it is rather fanatical), WE HAVE TO DO IT. I'm ok with this. Change our lives-get our kids back-move forward in life. My kids have to suffer but I love them so much- I would die for them.
Now we have these drug addicts f ucks! that keep harrassing my gf while shes already suffering enough-trying so hard to work to keep us from being homeless-and so we can get our kids back. I owe her my life! This girl keeps ******* with her at work-she doesn't even work there-and keeps threatening and harrasing her on her breaks-threatening her with her friends to jump her, ect. So I came up there and sure enough-SHES THERE! I told her to leave my gf alone-told her the situation-all she has to say-this evil BI TCH-"do you wanna talk to my man about it(he works there)?"-so i flipped the fu ck out and told him to come and fight me in the back parking lot. He came and we fought-and I didn't get to do what i wanted to do with him because the little ****** wouldn't stand any less than 8 feet away from me and kept running away. When I finally did my hands on him, she gets involved and shoves her thumb into my eye(she was really trying to squash my eyeball like a grape)-so i had to let him go. i was about to start headbutting his face in! i get up and they run away-i have blood all over me and i'm ready to finish it. COWARDS!!!!!!! but what if i did-i would certianly be in prison right now for sending him to the E.R. we just found out shes pregnant again-and they tried to run her over yesterday with their car(they literally swerved and tried to hit them). I told police and they said without proof-theres nothing they can do-not even a restraining order. I told the connection(where he and my gf works at) about what happened and they didn't even care that one of their employees came out and fought on his break!!!! If i were to ever do something like that-i would be fired for sure! I told cps about how they do drugs in front of their kids, how they have sex parties in front of their kids, how they hit their kids and scream at them-they don't give a sh it!!!! yet our kids get taken away-i have seizures at work and have the ambulance come and get me and they almost fired me for that-and demanded medical evidence that i have seizures(which i had to fight to do). no one gives a **** about us-good people with good hearts-but they protect scumbags like them. I AM SO SHOCKED AT HOW FU CKED UP THIS WORLD REALLY IS! i do the littlest thing and im forced to take responsibility, fuc kers get away with MURDER(or should i say attempted murder) and given a clear right of way. I feel like life is being extremely cruel to me. I AM PUSHED TO THE POINT OF HOMICIDAL THOUGHTS. I'VE NEVER THOUGHT ABOUT KILLING SOMEONE-BUT NOW IT'S I'M THINKING ABOUT BUYING A GUN AND SENDING THEM STRAIGHT TO HELL. i'm sure if i went over there tonight and flattered all of their tires-the cops would be right at my door. i feel so helpless. I have no qualms about delivering unbelievable cruetly to them-they have gone too far. I know a lot of people who hate them-and I'm thinking-I can pay THEM money to handle this for me. I hate to say it-but it's come to that. Let them put them in the trunk of their car and take them out into nowhere(where noone can hear them scream) and make them wish they were never born. After they tried to kill my gf my pregnant gf yesterday-i have no limit of cruelty in store for them. I know they can't keep living their life and karma will get them soon enough(they can't run forever)-but it's one of those situations where this has escalated to a biblical level-and NEEDS to be dealt with immediately. What should I do?
I know you're interested in this transit but I need some advice from someone that has lived through something similar to this and has a solution. I just want my kids back-a stable life(a family life) and for them to leave us alone.

posted May 09, 2013 09:57 AM            

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posted May 09, 2013 03:48 PM            

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Originally posted by Ami Anne:
Ok, Friend

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no i am not your friend. you wanna be my friend, you prove yourself, your love, and you're concern for me and i'll show you the same in return. nobody is my friend without earning it first.