posted May 18, 2013 05:15 AM            

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Originally posted by stargazer21:

All I want to do now is just lock my self away from the world, listen to music and daydream. Sometimes I just feel so overwhelmed by everything! It feels like I'm drowning

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That's exactly what I did when I went through this transit.With the romance/daydreaming that depth mentioned.I became very reclusive.My Social Anxiety really showed up and became full blown Avoidance.

posted May 18, 2013 05:17 AM            

I have it natally, Neptune is in my 1st house conjunct the ASC.

And yes, it sometimes can depict withdrawel, but for different reasons than Saturnian withdrawel.
At least in my case I sometimes need to detach from people around, because, as you say it, I feel overwhelmed. I don`t have a very good filter, it seems that, if not everything, but much gets through and affects my nervous system. I am very sensitive to my environment, noises, lights, but definitely also other people`s energies, moods, athmospheres, and if I had much contact with different people without the opportunity to have a break (like yesterday), it has its good sides, certainly, but also it is like I am having "too many voices in my head". No, I don`t really hear voices like that, but it is the best way to describe it, my mind is trying to wade through all these influences, fragments I perceived, and put them into perspective, and that can be utterly exhausting, and thus I sometimes need to be on my own, just to center myself and ground myself again, to regain a feeling of "Me", of "that is what I feel and think, and that is something I absorbed from others recently".

I have Tr Neptune squaring my Mars in 12th house xactly right now (and Mars is only 2 degrees off my ASC and 5 degrees off my Neptune, so still conjunct) - it seems more important than ever to keep a perspective on who I really am, and what might just be a reflection of other people`s feelings or energies.

It also has its bright sides, though.

Also I noticed, that if I delve into Neptunian things, it sort of fulfills the Neptune-part of the equation and leaves my Mars (and ASC) free. Which means in all things Neptunian I suddenly can be quite assertive and energetic.
And I am not talking about drugs or drinking!
I never ever ever have taken any drugs, at least those that are considered drugs (partly because like a friend remarked about me in our teenage days: You don`t have to take drugs. That state of mind others try to reach by taking drugs, comes just naturally to you. Like you could switch it on and off according to your will).

I don`t really drink - and partly the reason for this is that I am very afraid that I might be a good candidate to get addicted. So I stay away from it alltogether.

However, food has been my drug, as has been daydreaming and certain escapist tendencies.
I have been working on both issues, and I am way better than ever in my life. But I am perceptive enought to know that these addictions can never be "healed". Food will stay an issue, and so the tendency to "dissolve into thin air", but I can learn to channel it or give it a direction or control it.
Saturn is the handle on my bucket-chart - in Cancer in 8th house. Not an easy planet in my chart, and in fact, the most dreadful transits for me are Saturn-transits. However, he is very very helpful in not losing contact with reality and lately I have been relying on his help to keep Neptune in check a little, if it wants to go overboard.

Somehow though, Saturn gets a little too eager and if my Neptunian side is suppressed too much, things get really ugly and depressive for me.

So for me it is about keeping the balance, and actually I think Jupiter is my personal trainer to do this.

Jupite is in mutual reception with Neptune, though also square, and actually is the head of one dispositor chain in my chart. He is also one rim planet of my bucket formation.

Saturn is the head of the other, more gloomy, serious, intense, dispositor chain,and his the handle of my bucket.

posted May 18, 2013 05:31 AM            

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Originally posted by Gemmy:
It does have its bright side.

I became very introspective during that time.I learned a lot about myself and saw the world in a different way.Oddly,I matured during this transit.

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Yes. That Neptune-Mars-transit for me so far has been interesting, not easy, but very very interesting. Actually I have learned such a lot in the last 6 months, not only learned, but changed and modiefied my behavioural mode, it is amazing.

Of course Tr Pluto had been conjunct my Venus as well, though it is well over now (Venus on 6 Cap), but more recently it has also passed over my pr ASC on 8 Capricorn. and my pr Moon is on 7.42 Cancer as wel speak, so it definitely was in it as well.

Tr Uranus on my IC and squaring my Venus. Tr Jupiter transiting through my 7th house, having passed natal SN - actually Tr Venus is on my SN just today. lol

Tr nodal axis squaring my Moon exactly.

posted May 18, 2013 06:52 PM            

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Originally posted by stargazer21:
To the poster who mentioned maturing, I REALLY hope that's what I get out of this because I really need to mature and grow up. :/

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With that kind of positive, upbeat attitude, you most surely will!

Like Ceridwen, I also have natal Neptune in the 1st house, though not conjunct my ascendent. I'm about to have Saturn transiting my natal Neptune, so you and I will probably be having some similar things going on! I'm used to the Neptune, but Saturn CONJUNCT it? I HOPE that means I will be able to take my daydreams and make them real!

I agree that you need to find some HEALTHY ways to escape the pressures you're feeling. Listening to music, dancing, daydreaming, solitude so you can feel where the boundaries are (since they tend to dissolve easily when others are around because of the increased sensitivity), prayer/meditation, swimming, fishing, having a re-circulating fountain going in the background or listening to the sound of ocean waves, anything you can think of that will express Neptunian energies in a positive way. AVOID the negatives like drugs, alcohol, etc, is also critical to managing this.

posted December 11, 2015 07:17 AM            

I feel so disorientated, everything I thought I knew about my direction and goals in life is a blur. I AM SO CONFUSED. I am also becoming extremely reclusive because of the way I am feeling which is totally out of character. I have headaches because of the stress of not knowing where the hell I am going and not being able to plan for the future. Trying to do any sort of planning leaves me in TEARS. How long until this transit will ease up for me?