posted May 18, 2013 08:07 PM            

Here's mine:

Sun square Neptune: 8 minutes, applying
Sun in Aquarius in the 4th. Neptune in Scorpio in the 1st. This is compounded by Neptune being conjunct my anti-vertex with an orb of only 6 minutes, so it forms a tight T-square with the Sun.

Growing up, it took me a LONG time to gain any sense of self. I was a little chameleon -- WHO DO YOU WANT ME/NEED ME/EXPECT ME TO BE TODAY? was the unspoken question. Even in High School, I felt like I was pretty much a blank screen and people would project themselves on my quietness. If they were shy, they assumed I was shy. If they were snobby, they assumed I was snobby. If they were thoughful, they assumed I was thoughful. If they were clueless, they assumed I was clueless. I they were bright, they assumed I was bright. (This kind of stuff was told me by my BF in HS, so it may not be 100% true, but it does seem to fit what others have said to my face like "I used to think you were _____ until I got to know you!")

Got my first job in the entertainment industry. Discovered I could act. Discovered it was a healthy outlet for this energy. Discovered who I am when no one else is around by spending a lot of time in solitude. Continuing to work on integrity. Maybe when I "get good" at being able to really be myself when others are around I'd consider being in a relationship. I'd probably still need a lot of space and alone time to re-center each day.

I'm Jkitty because I admire cats. I see them as the EPITOMY of integrity. No one can make a cat do anything it hasn't agreed to and it will remain true to itself. If you have something it wants, you can negotiate. If things change, you need to renegotiate. (I want to be a cat when I grow up )

posted May 18, 2013 10:48 PM            

Complete reconstruction of my life, beliefs and how im seen was brought about by the higher vibration of love, unconditional love for my children forced me to see the spirituality i was taught wasn't what i wanted for them because it was destructive.

This led to leaving everything id known behind and starting down a completely unknown path for me, alone, except my 2 children.

Its come full circle, started with a delusional optimistic Saggy Neptune blindly believing and fallen victim to it, until love for my kids prevailed and the delusions exposed...

Then Libra Pluto looking to find a balance after seeing through the lies, began the process of dissolving all the beliefs id known and rebuilding...