posted June 23, 2013 03:25 AM            

We have been talking about getting back together for 2months, but it was only talk, then he would say, nah it's probably best if we don't, then he would say he wanted to...
I got frustrated and I told him,I'm sorry I just can't do this anymore... I'm tired if back and forth, yes then no..
I said, just let it all go, I can't deal with this anymore.
He said ok, then we shouldn't really talk as much, cuz we are going to keep doing this..
I said ok..
We didn't speak for 2 weeks, then we started talking again...
Then at some point during a text, he mentioned trying again, but I ignored the text.. I didn't answer him..
I was mad, cuz I don't want to keep going through this..
So I wait a few days, then I text him... He was pi$$ed cuz I ignored his text.
He said, y should I talk to u, after u ignored me..
I don't remember how we made up, but did..
So we started talking again. (Never freaking end cycle)
Then he brought up, trying again...
Sigh...
I got frustrated again, cuz I already told him, I don't want to keep going through this..
So (via text) I told him,
This is what I want, I want to try again, but I can't keep going on with, yes, no, maybe, yes.. No, maybe, nah forget it..
Idk what you want, only you can tell me what you want, I'm cool with what ever you want, but I would appreciate you to be honest with me my tell me.. I told him its his decision and when he's ready to let me know.
I said take as much time as you need, I will give you space to figure it out..
You know what, he never replied to that message, no, ok, no, no, no nothing.. Dead silence..

We continued to talk the next few days, but it was mostly hi, how are u... Brief and that's it..
I never asked for his answer, I said i would give him as much time and space as he needed.
He was starting to be a jerk via texts... So I stopped calling him.. I figured he's never going to tell me anything, he's being a jerk to push me away, so he doesn't have to actually answer..
After I stopped calling him, he was sending me work emails... FYI type of things, my reply was only. Thx

I figured I got my answer... That he doesn't want anything to do with me..

So then today, he calls me, he asks if he can come over and talk, so I said yes...
He came over, and he answered my question, he said yes I want to try again, I've been wanting to for a long time.. He said if you want to, then lets try..
I said yes I want to too..
He hugged me and said some sweet things to me..

So now it's official we are trying again. (Right when mercury is about to go Rx) hummmm
Either way we have un resolved issues with each other that need to be worked out.

But I see it now, he's just as obsessed with me, as I am...
He can't let go either.
All this time, I thought it was just me...

I feel better and in more mental control, just knowing its not just me, that's its both of us... Just makes me feel so much better.....

Now I'll be honest, do I think we will live happily ever after, no I don't...
We drive each other crazy!
When it gets overwhelming, we freak out and fall into a pattern of self sabotage.
But regardless, this is something that we have to resolve with each other one way or the other..

I think I'm going to be stronger, this time around...
(Says while pulling hair out)

posted June 23, 2013 01:10 PM            

The reason why I bring up h12, is because
( not sure if planet person or house person or both)

With h12 synastry, you just don't see what's right in front of you,
By some of the things he said to me, I now know he's feeling some of the obsession also..

I really didn't see it before, I honestly thought it was just me, and it drove me mad crazy, trying to figure out, why am I feeling this and he's not.

Even though we spoke just about everyday, and I knew he didn't want to let go, I really didn't think he was feeling the obsession.
He totally hide it from me, and he did it well..

I'm not sure "how" I finally see it, or even if I'm still seeing it accurate
I still don't know exactly what he feels, but I have a better understanding, that its not just me...
Which was causing me, to be so frustrated, and make me pull away.
Because I thought I was going crazy.

He finally, finally told me some things I needed to hear.
Honestly I was just shocked, completely stunned and caught off guard..

posted June 23, 2013 07:15 PM            

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Originally posted by Lioness:
Sorry I didn't explain further, I was a bit out of it.

The reason why I bring up h12, is because
( not sure if planet person or house person or both)

With h12 synastry, you just don't see what's right in front of you,
By some of the things he said to me, I now know he's feeling some of the obsession also..

I really didn't see it before, I honestly thought it was just me, and it drove me mad crazy, trying to figure out, why am I feeling this and he's not.

Even though we spoke just about everyday, and I knew he didn't want to let go, I really didn't think he was feeling the obsession.
He totally hide it from me, and he did it well..

I'm not sure "how" I finally see it, or even if I'm still seeing it accurate
I still don't know exactly what he feels, but I have a better understanding, that its not just me...
Which was causing me, to be so frustrated, and make me pull away.
Because I thought I was going crazy.

He finally, finally told me some things I needed to hear.
Honestly I was just shocked, completely stunned and caught off guard..

My thinking is because of h12 synastry, but I could be wrong, it's just a guess.

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