posted August 08, 2013 08:06 AM            

Well, i noticed that - something is missing from previous post - even in regards to "Sweet Peas In The Rain" - something that's also worth to be mentioned. Was more focused on the obvious issues - but there's also something in between that's necessary in terms of "knowing thyself" as in "working with the shadow side (bringing forth - what lies in the shadows and acknowledge that as a part of yourself and try to work with it - so you can control "it" or else "it" will control you)".

God speaks trough our hearts (not trough the Voice of our Ego) and when that happens "you just know - you can feel it (you feel in tune with the Universe - on a positive flow)" - you don't have to think and think and think about it. On the other hand the shadow-self can manifest trough both (both the hearth and the Ego) - though, it's more in tune with the EGO (even a big part of it) - and it's wise to pay attention to its needs/message, as they are your inner needs - part of your dark nature, something you should exploit to be able to grow - somethings that's revealed at different stages of our lives - "but - be cautious, as in - never let go (never loose control to your shadow self)". Always remember that the shadow self lessons are like a double edged sword - it can help you evolve or it can destroy you or even harm the ones you love. When you're in tune with with God - choices come easy - "God never takes your control away - it's more about letting go than taking control - be one with the stream of life - with love..." But when it comes to the shadow-self - you can loose control, it's when choices become hard (like - moving back on a positive path) - because you're fighting against the stream of life and you become self-destructive. No matter what you choose, if you end-up on a negative frequency - and that's what you put up out there - that's what you get and keep getting till you switch the frequency.

When you get more in tune with a positive frequency - your life will change and so do the people you attract. At that point - you'll realize (even feel) that you don't have much in common - with the ones you thought to be your friends... if your connection with them was based mostly on "the pain you shared" and slowly but surly - you'll distance yourself from them. That fear of loneliness comes from a lack of love for oneself (for God/Love - that lies within us) - it's why you preach love, because love it's what you need and want and as one who's been on both sides, that's a better place to be than accepting negativity as a state of your existence - as something that you're suppose to endure (that's what means to be against God - against life).

This reminds me of "the story of Job" - i know the original story as it was depicted in the bible, but i wouldn't take it literally - the way i see it, there's a different meaning to it, one which relates to what i mentioned above. Here's a summary: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Book_of_Job - in case you don't know the story.

Instead of thinking of God - as he's depicted in the bible (the God from up above), think of him as the God that lies within ourselves (the love we have for ourselves and the power that comes with that) - and same goes for Satan, think of him as our shadow-self. And here's how that would go: Job was dealing with a inner-struggle, he always believed in himself (love for oneself - for God) and that belief give him a great power in terms of creation and molding his life - he got all that he wanted... a big family, riches beyond his needs and so on. But, he had hard time believing in his offspring and latter in his life he probbaly reached a moment of boredom, a point when he felt like he has all that he could ever want from this life, a point where he started questioning himself - if he really deserves all that he has, if it's really what he wants, if he could happy without his family and riches... he reached a point of negativity - when he got lost in his shadow-self and he switched to the opposite frequency... so he started receiving - what he put out there... pain, suffering, loss... as the story goes - things kept going from bad to worst - which goes to show that he started accepting what it was happening to him as something that he deserves - getting more depressed, more anxious till he lost all that he have - even his health... and that point - he had an epiphany... a point where he started asking himself - "Why do this things happened to me?" ...and that's when he realized that he was the cause for all of his misfortunes same as he was the cause of all that he build until that point. So, he started believing in himself again - he started loving himself - getting in tune with God - within himself - with his healing nature and creative potential (as love - is all about creation)... which helps him heal-himself, restore his wealth and get a new family.

At least - that's my understating of that story, something that made sense in relation to what i was saying before - and it's what reminded me of it. Believe it or not - I'm not a religious person, one of my mistakes as a child was - looking for God on the exterior... as if i was trying to reach the source of this Universe with my mind - while latter as i started seeing him in others, i realized that God was always with me - he was always within... was just looking for him in the wrong places. It's when it becomes easier to love yourself - and when that loneliness starts to fade... i got back the power to chose - but as mentioned above, it's still easy to switch to the other side - because we do need both sides in this existence - we need to balance them as much as possible, while being aware that - we can get lost in our shadow-self, that it can take control trough our EGO.

posted August 08, 2013 08:46 AM            

Anyway, thanks again for typing this all out!
It's been helpful to me.

With tPluto entering my 9th house, I feel like some personal crisis is on my way.. lol.
But it's for the best, in the end.. or so I believe.

posted August 08, 2013 11:33 AM            

Could you send me an email, please?
I'd like to talk about something with you.
It's okay if you don't want to.

posted August 08, 2013 01:10 PM            

I have my Sun in Libra.
My Mercury & Mars conjunction in Libra too.
I also have a moon in Capricorn and Capricorn in Uranus and Neptune too.

I think wayyy too much. There's never any silence and talk to myself ALL the time. I get mad when someone has the nerve to interrupt my internal dialogue or external dialogue when I talk out loud to myself. My mom whose a Virgo Sun would walk in on me when I was a kid dressing up and talking to myself. She said I was an odd ball. =D

It seems like Mercury and Mars conjunctions and Uranus and Neptune conjunctions make for a strong inner voice vocalization and incessant thinking.

posted August 08, 2013 01:12 PM            

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Originally posted by somethingexcellent:
I don't have an inner voice. Everything, even things I read in my head, are just processed and done with. Hmph.

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posted August 08, 2013 01:13 PM            

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Originally posted by StarlightSmileSupreme:
Mine's like a journal.

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That's beautiful =)